Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing alright today. I was able to get some sleep last night so that was helpful. We were all up early this morning. It did not start out the way any of us thought it would though. Fed the pups, walked them and when we went outside.... someone had fun throwing and smashing eggs in our driveway and on the grass. It went 2 houses down, in the road and on the sidewalks. This is so disgusting. I addressed it to the Management company and she told me it wasn't her issue. She was quite childish about it and she told Mom that she was a liar. I am a lot of things but a liar is definitely not one of them. I despise people who lie. I sent her a message back informing her I was not lying and I didn't appreciate that I was called one. She retorted back with an email that could be considered bullying. I have it all and will be keeping it so if I need it at some point I will use it. Mom is done with that company and the Property Manager here. I have no use for any of them. We tell them what is going on here, they tell us that the renters have all say in what they do and they will not do anything about it. How sad. I can not wait until it is time to move out of this hell. I thought where we lived in NH was bad but this is worse. Guess it shows that it happens everywhere, no matter where you live. Mom is just keeping to herself from now on and if anyone bothers me I will be telling them to leave me the hell alone. I want no part of this place. I will pay the bills I need to but that is it. I will call the Sheriff every hour if I have to on noise near me. I am done with the childish games! If that crap wasn't enough.... after we walked the pups, we were in the kitchen and Meme said something about getting her dog off the floor. I told her she could put him down. She yelled back...."No". I simply said "are you ever going to let him be a dog?" She told me not to f*ing start with her as she was in no mood. Her tone was sharp and mean. I told her to watch herself when she is in my home. I told her that she was not changing her ways with the dog and she yelled out that nothing else was f*ing changing either. i told her that if she was going to make that statement she better have something to back it up. She came back with...." Mark is still playing video games and on the computer all the time." Well, that was the wrong thing to say for sure. I told her that the money she paid us to live here and she just started last month and got 8 months free was not anything that would get her in a hotel so she better watch what she says. Mark was so mad that he went outside with the pups again and took them for a long walk. He has said nothing at all to her today. I don't think he is going to. He is beyond pissed right now and rightfully so. It is the same thing over and over here. They really should have moved when they had that small place. It would have been better for everyone. I kept trying to tell them to just go but no one wanted to listen to me. So frustrating at times. I guess time will tell now if we all will be on our butts and homeless in a month. Mark has to find a job. He started over the weekend but because of this Covid crap things are scarce right now. Mom will keep her fingers crossed that something happens quickly for him. I know he is stress right out. I say nothing but I can see it and feel it. This is not a happy home again at all. Mom is scared, Tyler. I really am. 
 Mom found something that I wanted to share with you again. It is so beautiful. I think I have shared it on here before but it has been awhile since. Here it is:

To Hard to say Goodbye:

Every time I close my eyes
You'll all that I can see
I hold you in my heart
and know you're watching over me
Standing by your side
It felt like I could fly
If I could be half the person that you are in my eyes
And I could face the darkest day
And fight the tears inside
I can't turn the page or hold back the times
It's too hard to say goodbye
From you I learned it all
You would never let me fall
Love won't come undone
Between a MOTHER & her SON
Standing by your side
It felt like I could fly
If I could be half the person that you are in my eyes
And I could face the darkest day
And fight the tears inside
I can't turn the page or hold back the times
It's too hard to say goodbye
There will come a day
I'll have to walk alone
And I'll have to make it on my own
You taught me all there is to know
Mom...I'll never let you go
Standing by your side
It felt like I could fly
If I could be half the person that you are in my eyes
And I could face the darkest day
And fight the tears inside
I can't turn the page or hold back the time
It's too hard to say goodbye
It's too hard to say goodbye
It's too hard to say goodbye
Just can't say goodbye

I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will write to you again tomorrow. I will whisper to you later this evening so smile to me and I will smile to you. Your candle will be lit as well. Have fun while I sleep tonight and come visit if you can in my dreams. Please watch over us all. Keep us safe and healthy. Thank you, pumpkin. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams. It is time for Mom to start the night routine.

 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖