These are my letters to Tyler. They are the conversations that we would have on a daily basis. We can't do that any more. In some small way, this is my tribute to my son and probably my way of healing. Every night we would talk about everything. I can still do that, and I know he's listening.
Saturday, May 29, 2021
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday morning? It is 11;15 am and Mom is up and out of bed for the first time in 2 days. Yup...that is why I have been MIA and haven't written to you at all. Mom was in bed Thursday and Friday. Tuesday evening I have a sore throat and scratchy throat and slept horrible. Wednesday was still the same but I was up and about doing little things. Thursday I woke up with a full on head cold. I stayed in bed all day and was only out for dinner and then right back in bed. Friday I stayed in bed as well. I watched tv all day long. I finally finished all the DVR movies that I had on there. I did get out of bed to eat dinner and watch the new Cruella movie downstairs with everyone but after that it was right back to bed for me. I slept like crap last night. The head cold is now in my chest as well. I coughed a lot last night but my fever finally broke after 3 days so that is wonderful news and my headache is gone.
Mom was up at 6:30 am this morning. Pups were fed and walked and then Mark went to the store for me. He got me tissues, cough drops and Mucinex for my coughing. Meme and Bob went out as well too. While they were all gone Mom changed the bed sheets and sprayed Lysol everywhere to disinfect our bedroom. Mom put our brand new sheets and comforter set on and it took me forever to do it but I did it and that is all that matters. I put everything in the wash to clean it up and then I got in the shower. I did a few things after that so that Mark could help me for my taxes for the business. It may be a holiday weekend and a long weekend but for us it is a regular weekend with no partying or cookouts or anything. Mom is hoping that the weekend will be quiet for the most part. We shall see though. Someone has been lighting fireworks off every night for the past 4 nights now. The pups have been pretty good through it though I must say. Mom is hoping to get a good night sleep tonight as it is desperately needed on my end.
Things are quiet right now here. Mark is doing his own thing, Meme and Bob are in their rooms and Mom is writing to you now as I know that the medicine that I took about an hour ago will kick in and make me sleepy. I see a nap coming in my very near future that is for sure. Today will be another quiet down day of doing nothing at all. Maybe tomorrow I will feel better enough to get outside and just sit by the pool. No promises to that though. I wanted to write to you so that I didn't miss a 3rd day. I hope that you know that you were in my thoughts every day and night. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You forever live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I still love you more than anything in this world. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. Always have and always will my sweet precious son.
There really isn't much else to say. I spoke to Grandpa a couple nights ago. They are good. His roof and skirting is done and he likes it a lot. Haven't heard anything from Aunt Beck so no clue if she is home yet or not. Never heard from Bean again on my birthday. Never do either...not for the last 5 years or so. Sad but it is the hard truth. As far as my car is concerned.... I haven't heard anything since Wednesday evening. They asked if I hit or ran something over as the wiring is all screwed up, a plug broke and the rack in pinion was busted. I told them I did nothing at all and I had witnesses to the whole thing. They said they would try to fix it but no promises at all. The guy then started sending me pictures of other cars he had for sale. That is never a good sign. I will wait until Tuesday to see what is going on as it will be 8 days since they have had the car and 4 day for them to be fixing it. Mom is not happy at all with this guy and I have an attorney lined up just incase I need it. Mom will keep you posted on things. For now though I am starting to cough a lot again and that means it is time to get comfortable and relax and maybe see that nap now. I will whisper to you later tonight before bed. I will put the candle warmer on as well for you. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Please watch over us and keep us safe and healthy. Thank you, pumpkin. Mom will try to write tomorrow but it depends on how I am feeling to be honest. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams. I miss you more than words....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💜
Wednesday, May 26, 2021
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is not doing the greatest but I will explain down below. I am so sorry that I have not written in 4 days. It has been crazy and busy and just a hot mess here. Let me explain to you what has been going on....
Saturday~ Mom, Mark and Meme went out for the day. We went to Disney Springs and then Old Town shopping. Bob stayed home as he didn't want to come with us. We left at 9:30 am and got home at 3:30 pm. We put stuff away and had dinner. The rest of the night we all crashed as we were tired.
Sunday~ We were all up early and decided to head back to Old Town for a bit. We got there right as they opened at 10 am. We stayed there until 1 pm. We hit a couple other stores, and then the grocery store before returning home at 3 pm. Another long day out. Mom got home and went in the pool. It was cold but felt great to get in it again after 7 months! I was in it until 4:15 pm. Got out, dried off and then we grilled for dinner. We ate, Mom cleaned up and then we headed upstairs for the evening. Mom crashed early as I was so tired.
Monday~ We were up at the typical time. Pups fed and walked. Mark went to the office. He left at 8 am. Mom worked in Mark's office for a couple hours fixing it up for him as a surprise. Meme shampooed all the carpets and Mom vacuumed them after they were dried. The rest of the day was spent in my office until 5 pm. Mark called at 5 pm and said he would be home in 15 minutes as he was at Publix... I said why...he got the Covid shot. I was surprised at that. I didn't know he was doing it. Since he got it...46.5 hours later, he is still sick as a dog. He has the chills, fever, everything aches to his bones. He can barely walk. He is still working though. He is staying hydrated and is eating which is good. Mom is keeping a very close eye on him. Monday night we had dinner and then went upstairs and watched tv so that he could relax. we both fell asleep quickly. Guess we were tired.
Tuesday~ Another typical day. Up at the same time for the pups. They were walked and fed. Mark started working from home but was feeling even worse. Mom had a nail appointment to go to. I tried canceling it but I couldn't and Mark said he would be ok. Meme would watch him for me. I left at 12:15 pm. Go cash at the ATM and then heading to my appointment. I got all the way there and was turning into the parking lot when something happened....my car ceased up. steering wheel wouldn't turn, brakes didn't work and the dashboard lit up like a Christmas tree. Mom couldn't turn her car or stop it. I quickly put my hazard lights on and my emergency brake up and placed my car in park. People were getting mad at Mom but there was nothing I could do. Mom was ok.. I didn't panic....I stayed calm. Somehow I managed to get the car in a parking space. I called the guy who we bought it from and then a tow truck. I called Mark after to come get me. I had my nails done while waiting for the tow. Waited 90 minutes for him to arrive. Mom and Mark returned home at 3:15 pm. Mark was still sick, Mom was drained and the adrenaline hadn't kicked in yet. Mom stayed downstairs and had something to drink and a snack before it was time to make dinner. We ate at 5:30 pm, Mom cleaned up and then we went upstairs for the night for Mark to relax. We watched a bit of tv before Mom crashed at 10 pm. My day could have ended badly. It could have been fatal for me and for others but it didn't. I know you were watching over me and taken care of me at that moment. Thank you my sweet precious son. I love you with all my heart and soul. To the moon and back and all the way around the world.
Wednesday~ Didn't sleep much last night. I was up quite a bit but made no noise. Mark was sleeping soundly and he needed it. Mom had developed a stuffy nose and a sore throat. I was having a hard time sleeping and the renters 3 houses down were partying hard. Yelling and loud music until 3 am or so. Mark woke up feeling like poo again. He said the pain level was about 6. The night before was a 7. He got up and worked though and still is working. It is 4 pm now. Mom went out and got some ibuprofen, protein bars, water, etc... for him. I left at 10:30 am and got back at 12 noon. Mom feels like poo now too. I have a head cold for sure. I have a stuffy nose, sore throat, sneezing, blowing nose, etc... I needed to do some of my boxes today but they are going to have to wait until tomorrow. I have basically done nothing this afternoon. Chatted with a couple people and now writing to you but that is it. Mom is waiting for Mark to get done work and then we will feed the pups, walk them, have dinner and then we will be heading upstairs for the night so that the two of us can relax and feel better. If Mark is not feeling better by morning...he is going to the docs to see what can be done for him. Mom will be better in a couple days. I will take Tylenol and stay hydrated for sure. Please continue to watch over us, Tyler. We need to stay safe and healthy. Thank you.
Mom is waiting to hear back from the guys that have my car. They just texted me to say they are working on it right now. I am curious to what happened and I will get my answer soon enough. Mom will let you know on tomorrows letter. I am going to relax for the night, take meds, suck on cough drops and then get some much needed sleep. Have fun tonight and come visit Mom if you can. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom is going to relax now so until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams later. I miss you more than words can say...
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💛
Friday, May 21, 2021
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? It is 2:21 pm and Mom is awaiting groceries to be delivered. I was up early this morning helping Mark get his table up to his office and trying to get it all together. We finished at 8:30 am. It was good timing for sure. Mom got ready right after and started my day. I ate breakfast and then I did the online grocery shopping for us for the next couple of weeks. I did 2 separate orders. One will be here any minute and the other will be here in about 2 hours. It worked for us this week. The jeep was in my way so I couldn't get my car to go to the stores. It is all good though. It worked out in the end.
OK...Mom took a quick break to put away the groceries from store 1. After I did that, Mom had to clean up the 2nd huge mess from Princess. This morning when I got up, I had a huge mess again to clean on the carpet in the bedroom and I just had a second round from her to clean up. I am not sure what is going on but I hope it stops soon. I seem to be always cleaning up after the pups, Mark, Meme and Bob plus myself. It is getting a bit much now. Everyone in this house is a damn adult and should clean up after themselves. It is going to start and now! Anyways... groceries from store 2 will be here now within 1.5 hours. Just in time for Mom to feed the pups, walk them and then make dinner for us. Last night we had dinner and then Mark and Mom put the new table that was built in the space in the formal dining room. It looks really good. we are surprisingly happy with the outcome! Mom had to move a few things around after and vacuum the floors but I was done around 7:30 pm. we went upstairs after and Mark suggested that we golf on the PS4 as we haven't done that in years and it was fun. We played until 10 pm before calling it quits so we could get some sleep. Mom won! I was 7 UP from him...lol! I whooped his butt...hahaha! I think we are going to play again this evening after dinner. we laughed a lot. It was a fun time! This weekend will be all about getting some things done and taken care of that we have needed to. Also, we will be going to Disney Springs to poke around for a bit and then depending on the time maybe Old Town as well. We haven't been there in about 5 months or so. It has been a hot minute. Mom is hoping that when the pool guy comes today, he will tell us that is is alright to go swimming this weekend. That would make Mom so happy! If it is not this weekend then definitely next weekend as it is a long weekend and it is Memorial Day. This place will be a friggin zoo and loud... Mom is hoping that is not the case but time will tell. we can only hope for the best...right? Power of positive thinking!
Mom needs to finish this letter up to you as I need to look for those ear buds. I was suppose to yesterday but that didn't happen. I got a couple phone calls that I had to take so I was preoccupied with that. I need to take the time today to do it though. It is important. Mark is still working, so it will be the best time to do it. wish me luck, Tyler...lol.
Oh I never heard back from Charlie like he said he would do...go figure, right? I am sure he was just too busy to write back...whatever, but I did see that we are friends again on facebook. I will not go out of my way to talk to him at all. Just isn't going to happen. As far as I am concerned, he is not a friend...he is an acquaintance. Sad as it is...he made it that way, not Mom. Maybe someday it won't be that way but I won't hold my breath for it. Do you really blame me? I did a lot for him and Marion and I get treated the way that I did and still do...it is not right or fair. Ok...enough of this.....
Mom will light the candle warmer tonight for you. I have had one going all day again in my office. I will whisper to you like I always do. Smile for me and I will smile back. I love you with all my heart and soul. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are forever my hero and the wind beneath my wings. I will be back over the weekend to write to you...not both days but at least one of the days. It will be whatever day we stay home. I think the day we go out will be super crazy and busy and by night time Mom will be tired. I know you understand. I thank you for that. Please continue to keep us safe and healthy. Please watch over us all. Mom really appreciates it so much. Have fun while I get some sleep tonight. Hope you do all that is needed to get done and all that you may want to do.
Ok...it is after 3:30 pm and Mom is not on the hunt for those earbuds...lol. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams. I miss you so...You are in my heart, mind, body and soul. Forever is where you will stay. I love you, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💛
PS. Today is Uncle Dick's 76th Birthday! Hope you go send him a sign to tell him that you are around. Tomorrow is Aunt Jaqcui and Uncle Dick's 50th Anniversary too. Sunday they are having a party for both. The Bassett picture is for Uncle Dick today 🎉
Thursday, May 20, 2021
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is well. The sun is out and shining and it is warm as always but that is what you get in the Sunshine State and trust me I am not complaining at all!
Last night was interesting. We fed the pups, walked them, Mom made dinner, we ate and then we did what we said we would...we put the table together. We started at like 6:30 pm and finished at 7:45 pm. Not bad but poor Mark did most of it as Mom was not feeling the greatest. I ate something that gave me massive heartburn and I could not bend over as it made it worse for me. Mark was a good sport and didn't mind at all. After it was done and finished, Mark & Mom looked at it and thought it was much smaller than the pictures and measurements online. Not sure if it will do what we wanted it to do in the space but we will try and see. If not, Mark said he would take it in his office as it is a bigger desk than what he has now. Guess we will know later tonight on where it is going to go...lol!
Today has been a very slow day for me... It is 1:30 pm and it feels like it is 10 pm. I slept from 10:30 pm to 6:30 pm this morning. I didn't wake up once at all. Guess I was tired. Mark fell asleep around 9:30 pm. He was really tired and was snoring. Mom played her game for a bit and then went to bed.
We both were up at 6:30 am. Pups were fed and walked and then Mark was upstairs and getting ready to shower so that he could leave for the office. Mom got ready right after. I had breakfast and then was right in the office. Meme and Bob were out for about 1.5 hours this morning. Pups have been super for Mom today. Princess has been sleeping in my room along with Ozzy. It is pretty quiet right now. Meme must be downstairs and Bob is maybe outside again...not sure. Anyways... Mark will be home around 4:30 pm tonight. Mom is making a good dinner. Fried chicken, baked potato and crispy green beans. There will be cake and ice cream for dessert as well. Mark will be happy about that!
Mom saw some sad news yesterday after I wrote you your letter. A man, Michael Laplante who lived in NH and worked for Charlestown ambulance lost his battle with cancer the other night. He was a wonderful guy and leaves behind his wife and 2 children. He had a love for Superman like you did. I don't know if he ever knew that you had Superman's Van and that it was given to you from Dana and Will Reeves but I have a feeling that he will now and you both will have something to talk about with Christopher and Dana! Mom also did something as well. A few months ago, Mom reached out to Charlie to see how he was doing. I never heard back from him at all so I took it as a sign that he wanted to be left alone because I was off their social media pages as well. It's been several months now and Mom said nothing to no one but I kept getting this urge to reach out again so I did. I texted him and also called him. Let him know our number and if he wanted to call he could. Mom heard nothing at all. Again, I said nothing to one one about this. This afternoon, I got a text from him. He said he received the message a few months back but he has been busy. when I read that, I was kind of angry...really...you are so busy that you can't reach out to me after months? That is the same excuses that I got all the time. Too busy for me but never too busy for everyone else so that is where the distance started between us all. He said he would write more to me later but honestly I will not hold my breath at all. I guess at least he knows that I tried twice now. There is nothing else that I can do with this situation. I guess it will really continue to be like it has now for almost 2 years....
Not much else is going on today. Mom needs to search for her ear buds that go with her cell phone. I know I had them but I can't find them anywhere so I am going to be searching for them until I do find those things. That is what I am doing after I finish this letter to you. Doesn't sound exciting and it is not but it is needed as those things were expensive. I know they are somewhere...lol. Mom will find them. Maybe you can help guide me? I knew where they were before we were moving but not now. It is so frustrating. Mark askes me all the time if I found them. For once I would like to tell him indeed I did! Help me out, Tyler...lol. Thanks pumpkin!
It is now 2:15 pm. Mom is going to finish this up and get searching. I have had a candle warmer burning all day for you and I will put one on this evening as well. I will whisper to you like I do nightly so smile when you hear Mom and I will smile back to you my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my true hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I miss you more than ever and more than words can say. have fun tonight while I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Mom looks nightly for a painting in the sky. Maybe tonight will be the night. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💛
Wednesday, May 19, 2021
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing okay today. More awake then I was yesterday. I was up several times during the night though as Princess was not feeling well again. I was up at 12 midnight with her while Mark was snoring away. I didn't mind. Mark had a long day yesterday. He was out the door at 8 am and got home at 7 pm last night. We ate dinner at 7:30 pm and then he was sleeping by 9:30 pm. We had a phone call with one of his buddies and that was not good news at all. It was actually sad news of one of there mutual friends... I know them as well but only have been around them about 4 or 5 times. Last time we saw these folks were about 3 years ago maybe at a wedding. Anyways... it was news to tell us that the lady... leaving her name out for personal reasons was just recently diagnosed with what seems to be all signs pointing to cancer. She has a mass that is the size of an orange and it is wrapping around her aorta. The mass is basically starting to cut of the blood and O2 flow to her body. Prognosis is maybe 20% at this point. It is not good. Her attitude is that she has given up but is just going through the motions for her husband at this point. She was told to stop smoking immediately and she hasn't and if anything she is smoking more...like 2 packs a day. The whole thing is grim and like Mom said...sad. We wish her the best. Our friend will be keeping us posted on everything. Our prayers are going out to her and her husband and kids.
Everything is good here. The weather is sunny and warm. Mark is working, Mom is in her office and finally have cleaned it...lol. I started yesterday after I wrote to you and finished it up this morning. Meme has been downstairs all day long and I bet Bob has been outside for most of the day. They are never in their spare room at all. Bob might be like maybe an hour or 2 and that is it and it is not every day either. Somehow, I would love to get that room and make it into a guest room seeing how Mark will not be using the garage as an office. That is going to be too expensive to convert...like $10,000.00 expensive! I know they will never give that room up though at all. They just use it for a catch all for their stuff...it is a room being wasted.
It is already 4 pm and Mom has just a bit of time to write to you and then it will be time to feed the pups and walk them and then make dinner for us. After dinner, Mark & Mom are going to build the new dining room table. It has been here now for 10 days just sitting in the boxes in the sitting room. Guess it is time to put it together. It really should not take long at all. There is not much to it and it is pretty simple and straight forward or at least we are hoping so. After that it finished we will head back upstairs and get ready for bed. Mom is hoping for a good nights sleep tonight. Mark is back at the office tomorrow as well so we want to make it an early night for sure. we have a few shows to watch and then we will crash for the evening! Mom will light the candle warmer for you and I will, as always, whisper to you before I fall asleep. Smile for me and I will smile for you my sweet precious son. Mom has a few things to do tomorrow but I will be back to write to you again in the afternoon. I did all my calls today that were needed so I have just a couple to make in the morning and my afternoon looks pretty free. Next week I will be busy doing my boxes for June. It is crazy to think that in 11 days it will be the 6th month of this year. I tend not to think about it as June is a very hard month for Mom. I will do my best though.
Oh before I forget, I called Grandpa last night and all is well there. His skirting for his house is being done today and the roof will be done next week so he is happy about that! Not much from anyone else though. I assume that all is good. I never heard from Bean on my Birthday...that makes the 4th one right in a row that she doesn't bother with me. Made me sad for a bit but then I was over it. Nothing new....
Well that is all for today. Mom is going to finish up a couple things and then head downstairs for a few hours. Have fun while I sleep tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I miss you like crazy, Tyler. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💙