Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet precious son! How are you doing today on this Wednesday late afternoon? It is 4:28 pm and Mom is just getting to write to you today. It has been a very busy one that is for sure. I started my day at 6:30 am. I lounged in bed until 7:15 am and then we fed the pups, walked them and sat outside in the warm air for about 20 minutes. Just Mark and I and it was truly really peaceful and nice. I think it was just what Mom was needing. You see, this morning I woke up to a memory on my facebook page from you. I remember this day very vividly. Today is June 9th... it is a day that is etched in my brain for the rest of my life. It is a day that changed our lives forever. Today is the anniversary of you getting sick. The morning that you were screaming and us taking you to the ER to be checked out. That is where the nightmare started. Mom was 22 years old and you were just 3. So tiny and fragile. You were scared, Mom was scared and Dad was too. We never knew what was about to happen and how tragically it was going to turn. The painful memories that I have from this day all the way until you passed on and still today almost 8 years later. I grieved for you every day after you got sick and I still grieve now that you are gone. I hold my head high every day and put on a good show but deep down I am so crushed, so hurt and so lost without you. I don't think that will ever change for Mom. I try, I really do and I know you see that but it is hard, Tyler. 

Today was the day that Mom was going to get her car back. we were suppose to leave early in the morning but that didn't happen for a few reasons so Mark said 11 am. Mom made sure she was done and ready but 11 am came and went as Mark was on a call. We finally left at 11:25 am. We got there rather quickly....just under 30 minutes so that was amazing. The guys at the dealership were super sweet. We were there for about 15 minutes and then on our way. Mark offered to drive my car but I told him no that I needed to get in it and drive again. I was nervous and scared but everything went smoothly. The car rides great and I couldn't be happier. When we were leaving the dealership and Mom was feeling uneasy about it all, we stopped at an intersection and Mom looked up at the street sign and it said Tyler Ave. I wanted to take a picture of it but I couldn't as someone was behind me. I knew at that point everything was going to be just fine. I whispered to you and thanked you for the sign I needed to let me know you were with me. I hope you heard Mom. I love you my sweet precious son. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. 

Mom is going to just take it easy this evening. I will feed the pups, walk them, make dinner and just relax tonight. Mark is off to the office tomorrow for the day so Mom will have time to do all kinds of things and get them done while is is gone. Meme and Bob will be going out as well so I will have some quiet time alone. Bob is very sick with the cough and cold that Mom had 2 weeks ago. He is being stubborn and won't take anything and will not do anything to help with not spreading the germs around. We have asked him to Lysol things when he touches them and he won't. I told Meme today that if he is not willing to do that then he needs to stay in his room until he feels better. I don't want it again and he needs to have that common courtesy for the rest of us. Mom stayed in her room for 3 days and wasn't around anyone so that they didn't catch it. I don't know why he is acting like a child but he is. Rocky is doing ok. He is being a good pup and taking his medicine. His little face is swollen but he is acting very normal otherwise which is a good thing. I check in with him a couple times a day to see. Mark has been coughing a lot today as well. I hope he is not coming down with it again....this just seems to be lingering. It needs to go away!

Not much else for updates. Mom will keep you posted though. I will light the candle this evening and whisper to you again tonight. Smile for me and I will smile to you as well. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Have fun while I sleep tonight. Come visit Mom in my dreams if you can. Thanks pumpkin. It is that time of the day where I have to feed the pups and get dinner going. I love you with all my heart. Please continue to watch over us and keep us safe and healthy. Thank you. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams. I miss you forever and a day...more than words.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💙