Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I am sorry that I was not able to write to you yesterday. It was a bit crazy here as we got massive thunderstorms all day and afternoon. We have had them now for the last 5 days and we are still having them today. We will continue to have them the rest of this week, over the  weekend and now all next week. Very little sun at all and that really plays on Mom and he behavior. I am not happy go lucky and I am tired and drained. Doesn't help that the renters that came in 4 nights ago are loud until 12 midnight or so. Very little sleep for Mom this week along with not feeling well....just tummy issues...nothing major. I am writing to you right now and in between the thunderstorms. We had a really good one a little bit ago and it was thundering again so another one is coming. This is crazy and the pups are not doing well through it....especially Princess. I will be glad when this month is over. This is the rainy month for us here and I am about done with that! 

Mom hasn't been too social lately at all. This is just a very hard week for Mom. I have been keeping to myself and staying quiet a lot of the time. I have been seeing videos and commercials or shows and I just start crying. It is a very emotional time for me. No one is saying anything which I am not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. It is the 16th of June and the next few days are going to be very very hard on Mom. You will see me cry even more but just know that I will be ok. I have to allow myself this sorrow for me to grow. I will never move on from it but I can try to help myself with the grieving. Please send Mom signs that you are near. I need a bit extra. Thanks pumpkin. 

Aunt Beck called today. We chatted for a bit. Her and John are off for a few days with friends camping and having fun. She will check in when she returns home at the beginning of next week. I guess Bean is good. Never hear from her so I assume all is well. I spoke to Grandpa a couple times this week. All is well there. Not only is Sunday your Angelversary but it is Father's Day. mark and Mom bought Grandpa a new laptop for him to have as his other one crapped out a couple months ago. We told him so he already knows and he is so happy. That made me feel better as I was hoping he did not get angry at Mom. I have spoken to friends and caught up on things. That was nice. My cousin, Kathy...her daughter Jaidyn's leukemia is back again. 2 days after her graduation, she became quite ill and in a lot of pain. She was rushed to DHMC and many tests were performed on her including a bone marrow test. Today the results came in and crushed her and the entire family. Mom is so heartbroken for her. She was doing so well the last year and things were looking up for them all finally. They are not sure what is going to happen next. They were talking about Boston Children's Hospital but not sure. They were mentioning that she will need a bone marrow transplant at some point. All that is not good news and it will be a struggle again for quite some time. My heart and prayers are with them all. I will do all that I can from here. Please watch over them for Mom. I worry about Kathy as she is a single Mom and it reminds me of you and I and all that we went through alone. Thank you my sweet precious son. I will update when I know more.

I have to close this letter as it is 5 pm and it is not raining at the moment. The pups need to be fed and I have to get dinner going as well. Tonight will be very quiet and relaxing or at least I hope so. We shall see. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. I will whisper to you tonight so smile for Mom and I will smile to you. Have fun while I get some much needed rest tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams. I miss you more than words.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖