Dear Tyler,

Good evening my sweet son! I hope you are doing well today! Mom & Mark are doing ok. Boy is it hot hot hot here today! The next 6 days are complete sunshine & will be 100 degrees each day. Not going to be doing too much that is for sure! Just too humid for us to even move. The month of July & August are brutal, but it is so nice the rest of the 9 months. It is definitely worth the 2 months of nasty heat! The pups have a very hard time in the heat as well. They don't go out as much & they enjoy the AC. I don't think they are missing the winter months either or the snow. Guess they are spoiled little ones now  = )
 Today is July 10th...usually not a date that means anything to me or anyone else, but this year it is. Today marks the day that I started my blog to you. Today it has been 1 solid year that I have been writing to you, quoting songs, posting serious quotes & pictures, and also pictures of cute dogs & some other animals. Through this year I have had folks from United States, Canada, Australia, Austria, New Zealand, France, India, Ecuador, Poland, Germany, Italy, Malaysia, Indonesia, Ukraine, and so many more Countries/ Continents that have followed me through these 365 days. I have over 13, 400 hits on my blog as well. I have said it several times & I will say it again today... I do this blog for me. It is a healing for me to get through the days without you. I feel closer to you when I write to you for some reason. I don't do it for anyone else. I don't mean to be selfish in the least. If I can continue to heal by writing & it can help others as well along the way then that it wonderful & maybe I am doing something right in my life. I hope that you, Tyler & anyone else that reads my letters to you can understand where I am, that I have grown in this 1 year, and I would like to think that I am in a different place, a different healing stage in my life now. Please don't think that I am completely healed because that is so far from the truth. I miss you like crazy, The void of losing you will always be deep & in my heart. I don't really think I will ever be healed from losing you. I think of you all the time, laugh, shed tears of joy & sadness. I think it is easier for me when I get little messages from family & friends telling me that you are doing well, you are happy, you are always with me, etc... it helps Mom to validate that you are doing things that you need to do, that you are leaning new things, and that you continue to wiser in your young years. I love you so much, T. You will always continue to be my everything through & through. 
 Last night I got to see the moon & stars shining bright up in the Heavens. I whispered to you as I always do. I hope you got to hear Mom. I hope you hear me every night. Tonight will be a clear night sky so I will be smiling as I look to the sky knowing that you are with me & beside me. I will whisper to you again so I hope you will be listening! Please continue to watch over Mom, Mark, & the rest of our family & friends. Thank you pumpkin! Means a lot to me.
 I hope you have a wonderful, restful, & peaceful night. May it be all that you want it to be & more. Sweet dreams my precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Forever in my heart, mind, body, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS. Here is to another 365 days , more letters to you & serious quotes, & funny animal pics! Hope you will enjoy them as much as I like writing & posting them to you xoxoxo  = )