Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! Happy Heavenly Birthday to you! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? I hope you are partying it up with all our family & friends that are up there in Heaven with you! I hope that you have had a wonderful day doing what you needed to do & what you had to do. As you know, it was a rough day for Mom. Lots of tears 7 emotions going on, but I am doing better now that I have let it all out. Mom sure misses you every second of every minute of every hour of the day, but during Holidays & Birthday's it is even harder. I missed spending the day with you up in NH. I miss planning the big party that I would throw for you every year with our family & friends. The laughs, the pictures, the stories that would be shared. They were just some of the best times with you. I can't get over how time goes by for us here. This is your 2nd Birthday that you have spent in Heaven. Just doesn't seem possible. As promised, balloons were released to you early this evening. What a mess that was. The plan was to go get balloons when Mark got out of work this afternoon & send them off to you around 5 pm, but when we were getting ready to go get them the sky here got dark & the clouds let loose. It rained heavy & hard for almost 2 hours. Thunder & lightning were right along with it. It was a pretty descent storm. Mom & Mark never made it out to get you the balloons like we wanted. I had sent you a message stating that you needed to stop the rain for this to happen. About 5 pm I received a text from a friend that lives where we do.. her name is Cara... she said she had a surprise for us. It was still raining a little bit so we walked over to the Leasing Office & when we got inside there were a dozen bright colored balloons awaiting to be sent to you. It was the kindest & sweetest thing that Cara could have done for Mom today. I did everything in my power not to cry... I did good because I held it back. Another one of our neighbors, another sweet friend of ours was in the office too.. her name is Miss Betty... she came over with us.... Mark held Snickers, while Cara video taped the balloons going up & Miss Betty helped me send them to you. Mom was so stunned at the kind gesture of these 2 young ladies. They really are sweet. You would have really liked them both & I know they would have really liked you. I have the short video of us that I will be posting on here for all to see. I hope you liked the bright colors... they were all your favorite colors. I hope they made you smile & you got the chance to float away on them all. It was amazing to watch. We could see them for quite some time in the sky. It made me smile to think of you! I remember the description that you gave me last year with the balloons... you told me you were like Superman... holding on & going up, up ,up higher & higher with you holding on to them! I loved hearing that & I could picture you doing this again tonight! 
 So many people called & text Mom today to see how I was doing. They checked in knowing that if was going to be a rough day for me. It was so sweet that they took time out of their day to think of me. I want you to know that I am taken really good care of. I have a wonderful support system. I know we used to talk about it a great deal & that was always the # 1 thing you were worried about. I want you to know that everyone is keeping their promises to you. I know that was very important to you & everyone takes it seriously. 
 The night sky is pretty overcast & cloudy. Looks like we will be getting some more rain this evening. I don't think that I will get the chance to see the moon & stars shining brightly but even so I know you are up there. I know you are watching over Mom, Mark & the rest of our family & friends. Thank you so much for all that you do, Tyler. You still make me so very proud every day. I will always be honored to have been chosen to be your Mom. As always, I will be whispering to you as I always do. I hope you will be able to hear Mom.
 I hope you have a restful & peaceful evening. May it be all you need it & want it to be. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my mind, heart, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!