Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing today on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is doing ok. Had a busy day so far. needed to go out & run errands today because I can't do anything over the weekend as both the pups are having surgery & someone needs to be at home with them at all times. I hope they do well & it is a fast recovery for them. I hate the fact that I am putting them in pain but I know it will be better for them health wise. I know you will be with them & you will watch over them for Mom. Thank you so much pumpkin.
 The weather today is so crappy again. It is so cold outside... it is snow weather. It was a little sketchy earlier as we were getting sleet & freezing rain. Mom is so not ready for this weather but it is going to come whether we want it or not. I guess we are getting rain for the next 3 days & then it is going to be just cold but sunny the rest of the week. I will take that for sure! I can't believe that today is the 1st of December. This year went by so fast. I can't believe that in 26 days Mark & Mom will be celebrating our 1st wedding anniversary. Just doesn't seem possible. Another Christmas without you. This makes 3 now. You know how much Mom loved the holidays..not so much anymore. It is just like another day for me. It really hurts so much. I know I put on the smiling face & the happy attitude but inside I am shattered. I don't need to tell you that though because Mom knows you know this already. 
 Mom is getting ready in the next few days to start studying for my board exam. It will be a tough one for Mom but I know I can do it. It will be a 5 hour test & 750 questions. I know you will be right by my side. I know you will help me & help me pass it! We were always a team when you were here & I know we still are. It will always be that way. It was always you & Mom. Nothing will break that from us being so close. You will always be & remain my everything.
 When Mark & Mom were walking the pups earlier today, I saw 2 of the most beautiful & brightest cardinals flying around near me. They were so pretty. I said hello to you. Did you hear Mom? I hope so. I tried to watch them & where they were going but I couldn't see them...it was like they disappeared. In my mind I thought of you & Amy. I wonder if it was you two or you & someone else. Keep sending me signs Ty. I love them. Thank you so much.
 No updates for you as I was not home for most of the day. Here is the daily prayer though. December 1~ These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world. Enliven my imagination, God of new life, so that I can see through today's troubles to coming newness. Surround me with your caring so that I can live as if the new has already begun. Amen.
 That was sure a short pray for today but a real nice one at that. All the prayers are nice. I know I started this book on May 17... right after Mom's Birthday & it was on Snicker's Birthday. Got a few more months to go & then I will have to think of something else to write to you. I have a few ideas, don't you worry. 
 Well, Ty.... the night is clearly upon us now & I know it is cold because my hands are once again freezing....lol. Time to go feed the pups & make dinner for Mark & Mom. Hope you have a restful & peaceful evening. May you do all that you want & need. Hope you take time to slow down, close your eyes & get some sleep. Mom hopes that you have sweet dreams & that I get to see you in my own dreams tonight when I fall asleep. Not sure if I will see the moon & the stars but I will be looking. Either way I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for Mom's voice. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world...unconditionally. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!