Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? Mom is doing alright with all things considered. Today was an ok day for me. I kept busy with doing all kinds of things so that I could just make it through the day without losing it. 34 months ago you left us all here in the physical world. Some days it seems like yesterday & other days it seems like it was much longer than it really is. No matter how the days & nights feel there is not 1 second of 1 minute of 1 hour of 1 day that doesn't go by that you are not thought about. You are & always will be constantly in my heart, mind & soul. Mom misses you so much. So much more than I could ever explain to anyone. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 Yesterday, I did something different & I wrote to you on your facebook page. I thought that I would switch it up a bit & then realized that not everyone can get to your account now so I decided to go back to writing to you on here. I know that you don't mind where I write or how many times I write to you as you can see all now & you are right by my side when I am doing your letters & really...that is all that matters to Mom. 
 Last night I looked to the sky & saw the moon shining bright. I didn't see any stars though. When I saw it, I had the biggest smile on my face & I whispered to you. Did you hear Mom? Did you see me smile? I hope so. Mom is hoping to see the moon & stars shining bright again as today was so sunny & nice. The sky was a beautiful shade of blue & there were no clouds. Mom is hoping for a clear night as well. Be listening out again because no matter what I will be whispering to you as I always do.
 Mom went out again today on her own. I did it last week & I did it again today, like I said. It felt great to just get up & go. This time I was so much more confident than last week. I just hopped right into my vehicle & away I went. I ran a few errands & then did a little shopping. I was out for a couple hours. Mom came home & then I got onto my computer & did some job searching & other searches for my CEUs that I need to start working on. I also put my resume out there on a couple more websites.  would say that I had a very productive day & did exactly what I set out to do....stayed very busy so my mind would not start to wander & think. That is what I was avoiding but now things are done & it is time to settle down from a long day & relax. This is really when Mom starts to think & remember things. It is tough, Ty. Time is not making it any better. I think that time is making it much worse. I am doing all that I can & the best that I can with the circumstances that I have been left with. I know you see my emotional roller coaster ride of emotions all the time. I can't & won't apologize for them....all I can say is just please continue to be patience with Mom. Help me with the strength that I need to just continue on. That is what I need & ask of you. Thank you so much.
 Let's see...updates for you... Spoke to Meme today & she got her new vehicle finally. So happy for her. She got your favorite color...Red! I know you were smiling down when that happened. Her & Bob are doing well. Grandpa & Debbie are doing good too. I talk to them every couple of nights. Aunt Beck called yesterday & we had a great chat. Things there are pretty busy but they are well. Forrest was over for 4 nights visiting them. Guess that went great. Mom will be calling him shortly to get another reading done. I can only hope that this 2nd one goes just as well as the 1st one did. I hope you come though. I have so many questions for you! Aunt Shirley is still having pain in her back but finally is getting the help from the doctors that she needs. Great Grammy is still holding on as strong as she can. She has her days like we all do, but she is entitled to them. Aunt Jacqui & Uncle Dick are well. Things are better there. All your other Aunts & Uncles are doing well & all your cousins are all doing good too. Ray Jr. is going to be a Daddy come November. They announced it on facebook a week or so ago. Mom was really happy for them & I know you were as well. Something tells me you will have a hand in this one way or another. I know that you are always watching over us & making sure we are all happy, safe & healthy & it means the world to each & every one of us. Thank you my sweet precious son. Think that is all the updates for now. I am sure there will be more tomorrow or in the next few days.
 Mom has a couple daily prayers t catch up on so here they are. April 19~ And my people shall dwell in a peaceable habitation & in sure dwellings & in quiet resting places. O Holy Creator, who hath bound together heaven & earth, let me walk through your kingdom comforted & protected by the warm rays of your love. Let me be healed as I stand basking in the divine light of your presence, where strength & hope & joy are found. Let me sit at the rest in the valley of your peace, surrounded by the fortress of your loving care. Amen. 
 April 20~ To every thing there is a season & a time to every purpose under the heaven. How certain the seasons are, Lord! How faithfully you usher them in one after the other, each in its assigned order. The spring has come with its rain once again, just as I knew it would. And spring's arrival reminds me that you----the faithful creator----have promised to dwell with those who long to know you, those who search for you & look for your return. Amen.
 The evening sky is finally upon us as I am finishing up this letter to you. Soon the sky will be dark & Mom is hoping to look out & see a million stars shining. I hope that your evening is filled with all the things you need to do & want to do. I hope that you get a chance to slow down from all the things you are doing & the places that you are going. If you close your eyes, have the sweetest of dreams & come visit Mom tonight when I lay down to fall asleep. Remember forever that you are my true hero & you are my wind beneath my wings. Continue to fly high & free. Mom knows you are soaring! Good night, Tyler. I love you unconditionally.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!