Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Hope the places you are going are warm & sunny because where I am it is once again cold, gray & raining. Seems like that is all we get lately for weather....ugh! I can't wait for the sunny days to start coming. Mom does so much better in the sun. My body doesn't hurt as much as it does on the cold & rainy days. The weather is changing though. The sky is trying to clear but there are still lots of clouds. Mom, again, didn't see any stars shining bright or the moon. Most likely it will be that way again tonight but it doesn't really matter as I will always whisper to you each & every night. I hope you hear my every word to you. I hope it makes you smile. It makes me smile but it makes me so sad. I try to hide it most days but I know you see Mom. You see everything now so it is much harder to keep things hidden now. I really do try my best. Some days are better than others but Mom gives it her all. Please be patient with me as this is the hardest thing I have ever had to do.... it is a daily head game I have to play. Some days I win & others not so much. I miss you so much. No words can describe how it feels so I don't even try to anymore. I just live with it. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world my sweet precious son. You will forever be my everything. You will always be in my heart, mind & soul. You are my ultimate hero & Mom's wind beneath my wings. Please never forget this. That is so important to me, Tyler.
 Not too much for updates today. Mark is working from home all this week again. A couple of quiet weeks was good for him after several weeks of running around here & there, working super late & traveling all over the place. The pups are doing good. They are on a diet though...lol. Ozzy has become a chunky guy. Mom calls him a tank. He reminds me of the build of Snapples. They are a little over weight so they are getting healthy treats & snacks now & going out for more walks. They need to lose a good 5 lbs a piece. They will do it... it will be warmer soon & they will eat less & drink more. Other that that they are well. Our family is doing well. All is good with everyone. Auntie Kristina's Dad is doing better so that is awesome. Uncle Dick is also doing better too. Don't really hear from Aunt Shirley much lately, not sure why but I don't think things have really changed with her. Think she is still in a lot of pain & I heard over the weekend that Grammy has her good days & bad days just like we all do. Please watch over us all. Keep us in line & on track, Tyler. Thank you.
 Here is your daily prayer for tonight. April 11~ And there shall be a tabernacle for a shadow in the day time from the heat & for a place of refuge & a covert from storm & from rain. We are grateful, O God, for your steadfastness. Thank you for showing us how, during raging winds, the mother cardinal refuses to move, standing like a mighty shelter over the fledglings beneath her wings. Secure us in the truth that we, the children of your heart, are likewise watched over & protected during life's storms. Amen.
 It feels good for writing to you & making sure that I get the daily prayer on the correct day. It has been awhile since Mom could do that& I am so sorry for all those nights for the last 2 weeks. I know you understand why & that is all that matters. Anyways.... it is a nice switch. Mom will have to figure things out when I do get a job & I go back to work. I might have to write to you every other night for a bit so I can get used to a new routine but lets worry about that when I have to & when that actually happens, right?
 Mom hopes that tonight your evening will be peaceful & restful. I hope it is filled with all things that you need to & want to do. Hope you get time to slow down & get some sleep. If you do then have the sweetest of dreams. Come see Mom in my own dreams tonight when I lay my head down to fall asleep. Thanks my sweet son. I miss you like crazy. I love you forever. Good night, Tyler.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!