Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom started out by having a good day & as the hours went by I have been kinda sick. Tummy issues tonight....it has been ginger ale & peppermints for me. I seem to be doing a little better right now though. Anyways...enough of that subject... The weather today was so sunny & warm. It hit 75 degrees today. Mom took Princess & Ozzy for a long walk & just enjoyed the warm sun on my face as I looked up to the sky. It made me think of you when I closed my eyes...Mom saw your face & what you used to look like when you looked to the sky. It brought a smile to my face but also some tears. I miss you like crazy my sweet precious son. I miss your face, your voice, your smile, your laugh, your advice you gave me... I just miss it all. I love you so much still & Mom always will. It is unconditional love that we had for one another. You taught Mom so much in the short years that you were here with me but unconditional love was the biggest & the most special. I think... no I know you taught so many of us this. You were a wonderful teacher you just didn't know it. You were & still are so loved. Mom always told you this but you always refused to believe it. I hope now you know & realize just how much. I hope it puts a smile on your face as it does for Mom. I know you are busy wherever you may be & I know you are learning so much. I can't physically see it but I can feel it & Mom is just so proud. I was always proud of all you did & accomplished in your lifetime here & I always will be proud of you. Never forget that, ok?
 Not many updates for you today. Mom spoke to Auntie Kristina for a little bit. That was a great conversation as it always is. We are like sisters. We get each other...but you already know that. You saw it with your own eyes. Do you remember all the times with Dad, Mom, Auntie Kristina, Bob & Ryan? Even though times had changed we still had many great times to look back on. Auntie Kristina & I talk about them quite a bit actually. We have some good laughs & we also shed some tears too. Mom also had another conversation that was a bit tougher today. It was a struggle but I feel it was necessary. Some things got accomplished but not all. There needs to be a few more talks to get through this. I know you saw Mom being sad. There are a lot of those days but always know that Mom will be ok. I am strong. I now get my strength from you as you did from me when you were here. I am hoping that in time things will get better. Mom could sure use your help through this one. Thanks pumpkin! Every one else seems to be doing well. As you know, life is tough. We all have our ups & downs & do our best to get through all the hurdles that we are given. Sometimes we do really well & other times we don't get anything right. This is where we are suppose to learn & grow. I know you know that all to well. Tyler, you were Mom's inspiration. I say that from the bottom of my heart & I know you know because you can feel it. When there were days I didn't think I could carry on, I would look at you, I would watch you & say if you could do it then so could I. There were so many of those days that you just didn't know about but you do right now this very moment. You were a smart guy. Some days & sometimes you knew more than I. God, I miss you. No words can describe just how much Mom does. Mom saw today that Megan is engaged. The ring is beautiful. I am so happy for her as I know you are too. I know you were smiling down upon her as it happened! The only updates that I have for you is that the world lost a couple stars today. I know you already know about them but boy Mom was shocked about Prince passing & also Chyna. I remember you liked her & loved to watch her wrestle. Many folks across the world are mourning these losses. Always tragic when someone loses a loved one. May they R.I.P. now.
 That is all for the updates but I do have the daily prayer for you. April 21~ For, lo, he that formeth the mountains & createth the wind & declareth unto man what is his thought, that maketh the morning darkness & treadeth upon the high places of the earth, The Lord, The God of hosts, is his name. Amen. Lord, we praise you for all the beauty & wonder you've placed in the world. How creative of you to think of a creature as exuberant & joyful as the hummingbird! How interesting that you sprinkled spots on the backs of the newborn fawns that follow along behind their mother through our backyard. Let us never become so accustomed to your glorious creation that we take it for granted, Lord. You've blessed us with a wonderland & we thank you for it. Amen. 
 The night sky is & has been upon us for a couple hours now. The sunset was quite pretty tonight. It was just like a painting. The skyline is gorgeous as ever. Mom loves to look at it from our balcony. Sometimes I just get lost in thought when I am out there. My mind wanders about so many things. It is a peaceful place for me. I know you see Mom at those times too. I know these are the times you are at peace while looking at me or perhaps when you are right next to me. You know that I will get through whatever is going on in my life. You are content in feeling this & seeing this. Thank you for always being next to Mom. Thank you for always watching over me, all our family & friends. Again, it means so much to us all.
 Mom is hoping that wherever you may be tonight that your evening will be all that you need & want it to be. I am hoping that I get to see the moon shining bright again tonight & maybe some stars too. No matter what I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice. Mom sure hopes you can hear me talking to you. Don't forget to smile & I won't either. 
 Rest easy if you can & have sweet dreams. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight if you get the chance. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You will forever be my hero & my wind beneath my wings. Good night, Tyler. I love you.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!