Wednesday, November 30, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom definitely has had better days than today but I will pull through like I always do. It will just take some time. I wasn't sure if I wanted to write to you right now or perhaps later as my emotions are running high but I figured what better time to actually write while my emotions are so raw. I know you have been watching exactly what has been going on.... I know you see Mom has been upset & hurting but I want you to know that I will indeed be ok. Like everything else time will heal all wounds. How much time will be the question but I will be ok....maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow but some time down the road Mom will be. I have always been one to be honest as lying gets no one no where but sometimes hearing someone being brutally honest with you slaps you in the face & stings like hell. That is what is happening. I have to have nothing but respect for this person for being honest with me but dang sometimes...no all the time it hurts. Words hurt as you know but I guess it is better to hear it all now then later down the road. No sugar coating anything...at least that is what we used to say, right? Anyways.... I could go on & on about this matter that Mom is going through but I won't. I just want you to know that as the days go by things will get better. I know this because you will be right by my side & you will be helping your Momma out. Thank you my sweet precious son. I love you with all my heart & soul.
The weather again today has been so rainy & cool. It is just nasty outside. It is dark as ever out again. It was like this yesterday too. Mom will be looking forward to tomorrow when the weather is actually 57 degrees & the sun will be shining. I can't believe that it will also be December 1st. Time is flying by & before we know it, it will be another new year. Another year without you. It makes me so sad to even think of this so I won't right now.
Mom is sure to have some updates for you in the coming days but unfortunately I have none for you at the moment. I thought Grandpa would call last night but he didn't so maybe tonight. I do know that Uncle Dick went in for surgery today on his arm. Haven't heard anything on that though. Hope everything went well. I think that maybe it has been a good thing for Mom not talking to anyone as honestly I have not been in the mood. Here is the daily prayer for today though.
November 30~ Happy are those people whose God is the Lord. I've said it before & I'll say it again, dear Lord: You are my greatest benefit & blessing. When I think of belonging to you, I get lost in the amazement of that thought. You have made me glad in your care. You have made me hope in your salvation. You have made me believe in your promises. You have made me to love you because you first loved me. What more could I want? God has me his own; he calls me his child; he promises me eternity with him in his heavenly home. I trust in him; we delight in each other. That is what it means to me that God is my Father. Amen.
Wow, that is the last pray for the month of November. Guess it is surreal to me still that its the last month of 2016. Well, Tyler... the night sky is upon us & Mom needs to go & prep dinner now. Maybe later I will relax & watch TV but for the time being I have things to do. I will be looking to the sky later but I don't think I will see anything as it is still raining. I know you are shining bright for someone to see it in the sky. Smile when you hear my voice & I will try to smile as well. Mom hopes your night is full of fun & adventure as I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you. Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Good night & sweet dreams Tyler. I love you my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom definitely has had better days than today but I will pull through like I always do. It will just take some time. I wasn't sure if I wanted to write to you right now or perhaps later as my emotions are running high but I figured what better time to actually write while my emotions are so raw. I know you have been watching exactly what has been going on.... I know you see Mom has been upset & hurting but I want you to know that I will indeed be ok. Like everything else time will heal all wounds. How much time will be the question but I will be ok....maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow but some time down the road Mom will be. I have always been one to be honest as lying gets no one no where but sometimes hearing someone being brutally honest with you slaps you in the face & stings like hell. That is what is happening. I have to have nothing but respect for this person for being honest with me but dang sometimes...no all the time it hurts. Words hurt as you know but I guess it is better to hear it all now then later down the road. No sugar coating anything...at least that is what we used to say, right? Anyways.... I could go on & on about this matter that Mom is going through but I won't. I just want you to know that as the days go by things will get better. I know this because you will be right by my side & you will be helping your Momma out. Thank you my sweet precious son. I love you with all my heart & soul.
The weather again today has been so rainy & cool. It is just nasty outside. It is dark as ever out again. It was like this yesterday too. Mom will be looking forward to tomorrow when the weather is actually 57 degrees & the sun will be shining. I can't believe that it will also be December 1st. Time is flying by & before we know it, it will be another new year. Another year without you. It makes me so sad to even think of this so I won't right now.
Mom is sure to have some updates for you in the coming days but unfortunately I have none for you at the moment. I thought Grandpa would call last night but he didn't so maybe tonight. I do know that Uncle Dick went in for surgery today on his arm. Haven't heard anything on that though. Hope everything went well. I think that maybe it has been a good thing for Mom not talking to anyone as honestly I have not been in the mood. Here is the daily prayer for today though.
November 30~ Happy are those people whose God is the Lord. I've said it before & I'll say it again, dear Lord: You are my greatest benefit & blessing. When I think of belonging to you, I get lost in the amazement of that thought. You have made me glad in your care. You have made me hope in your salvation. You have made me believe in your promises. You have made me to love you because you first loved me. What more could I want? God has me his own; he calls me his child; he promises me eternity with him in his heavenly home. I trust in him; we delight in each other. That is what it means to me that God is my Father. Amen.
Wow, that is the last pray for the month of November. Guess it is surreal to me still that its the last month of 2016. Well, Tyler... the night sky is upon us & Mom needs to go & prep dinner now. Maybe later I will relax & watch TV but for the time being I have things to do. I will be looking to the sky later but I don't think I will see anything as it is still raining. I know you are shining bright for someone to see it in the sky. Smile when you hear my voice & I will try to smile as well. Mom hopes your night is full of fun & adventure as I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you. Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Good night & sweet dreams Tyler. I love you my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, November 29, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom has been quite busy today & it is getting late but I wanted to write to you a really quick letter seeings how I did not do one last night. Monday was kinda busy for Mom as I did a lot of rearranging in the apartment & getting little things done that I have been putting off for a bit. Later last night we had a late dinner & then we watch TV for a couple hours. We went to bed early because Mark & Mom both knew that today would be a busy day & indeed it has been. Mom was up early & did some housework, laundry, got ready & then hit the books & studied all day long. I have not done this in over a month & I have to say it felt great! I feel pretty accomplished with reading 4 chapters & submitting 2 exams. My grades were pretty good. A 90 on one of them & a 95 on the other. I am happy with those as I am still doing the Advanced Math. Tomorrow Mom will be reading her last 2 chapters & later starting a final exam. Hopefully by Friday I will have submitted that & my 2nd semester will start! Not much else has been going on here in the last couple days. Mom spoke to Auntie Kristina for a bit yesterday & Meme. I am sure I will be speaking to Grandpa either tonight or tomorrow. Yesterday I was a bit upset at a couple things but after talking to someone I felt a lot better. Mom is realizing that every day things change for the better or the worse. People grow, people drift apart... sometimes for the good & sometimes for the bad. Mom is actually experiencing this right now. Some hurtful things have happened & have been said by someone & I said some things right back to them. Am I proud of it? Not all but some things I don't take back. I was hurt, actually very hurt by one person & Mom needs time to just take it all in, have space to move forward & get on with my life. That is exactly what I am doing. I am keeping my distance & letting the dust settle. Maybe somewhere down the road the two of us can talk & become friends again but I don't think it will happen any time soon at all. Too many things have been said & have happened. Wounds are too raw at this point. Makes me sad but I know it is happening for a reason. I also know you are right beside Mom & helping me through it all. For that I thank you. Mom really wishes you were here though as I could use your advice & pep talk about all this. You would make me see things from a different perspective I am sure. I miss your voice, your laugh, your smile. I miss you so much. If only I could actually put it into words for people to know just how much. I love you like crazy & unconditionally. You were & always will be my everything. You are in my heart,mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings.
Mom needs to get going in a few. I need to get off my computer & let my eyes rest for the night. I am pretty tired as well. I know I will not be seeing anything in the sky tonight as it has been raining heavy all day & the wind is just terrible. We have been getting gusts up to 50 mph. It is terrible. The day has been so dark that we had to have lights on to see. Mom will whisper to you as I always do tonight so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too! Before I go though I want to write the daily prayers that I need catching up on. Here they are: November 28~ How very good & pleasant it is when kindred live together in unity. In this season of family get-togethers, my heavenly Father, I thank you for the good things about my family. And, Lord, where there are family challenges & strife, I pray that you would intervene. Please soften their hearts, change minds, grant grace & forgiveness....even miracles! Heal our broken relationships, dear Father & protect our healthy ones. Let unity ultimately prevail-----but not a thin, superficial unity that could break at any moment. Please forge an unbreakable unity within our hearts by your righteousness & peace. In Christ's name, I pray. Amen. Grace, forgiveness & love are essential ingredients for unity among believers. Amen.
November 29~ May you be blessed by the Lord, who made heaven & earth. My Lord, you made heaven & earth. You made them by speaking them into existence. When you created the heavens & the earth, you declared them good. You do all things well. Every blessing from your hand is a good & perfect gift. O, help me hold in gratitude what you give me today! Please keep me from losing what you have given me & may I be ready to share the bounty of your blessings with those around me. In the name of your precious Son, I pray. Amen. The real issue in life is not how many blessings we have, but what we do with our blessings. Some people have many blessings & hoard them. Some have few & give everything away. Amen.
Mom is all caught up again. Hope that you have a fun night tonight while Mom is sleeping. May it be all that you need & want it to be my sweet precious son! Come be with Mom if you can as well. I really would love that. I need you, Tyler. Thank you. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom has been quite busy today & it is getting late but I wanted to write to you a really quick letter seeings how I did not do one last night. Monday was kinda busy for Mom as I did a lot of rearranging in the apartment & getting little things done that I have been putting off for a bit. Later last night we had a late dinner & then we watch TV for a couple hours. We went to bed early because Mark & Mom both knew that today would be a busy day & indeed it has been. Mom was up early & did some housework, laundry, got ready & then hit the books & studied all day long. I have not done this in over a month & I have to say it felt great! I feel pretty accomplished with reading 4 chapters & submitting 2 exams. My grades were pretty good. A 90 on one of them & a 95 on the other. I am happy with those as I am still doing the Advanced Math. Tomorrow Mom will be reading her last 2 chapters & later starting a final exam. Hopefully by Friday I will have submitted that & my 2nd semester will start! Not much else has been going on here in the last couple days. Mom spoke to Auntie Kristina for a bit yesterday & Meme. I am sure I will be speaking to Grandpa either tonight or tomorrow. Yesterday I was a bit upset at a couple things but after talking to someone I felt a lot better. Mom is realizing that every day things change for the better or the worse. People grow, people drift apart... sometimes for the good & sometimes for the bad. Mom is actually experiencing this right now. Some hurtful things have happened & have been said by someone & I said some things right back to them. Am I proud of it? Not all but some things I don't take back. I was hurt, actually very hurt by one person & Mom needs time to just take it all in, have space to move forward & get on with my life. That is exactly what I am doing. I am keeping my distance & letting the dust settle. Maybe somewhere down the road the two of us can talk & become friends again but I don't think it will happen any time soon at all. Too many things have been said & have happened. Wounds are too raw at this point. Makes me sad but I know it is happening for a reason. I also know you are right beside Mom & helping me through it all. For that I thank you. Mom really wishes you were here though as I could use your advice & pep talk about all this. You would make me see things from a different perspective I am sure. I miss your voice, your laugh, your smile. I miss you so much. If only I could actually put it into words for people to know just how much. I love you like crazy & unconditionally. You were & always will be my everything. You are in my heart,mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings.
Mom needs to get going in a few. I need to get off my computer & let my eyes rest for the night. I am pretty tired as well. I know I will not be seeing anything in the sky tonight as it has been raining heavy all day & the wind is just terrible. We have been getting gusts up to 50 mph. It is terrible. The day has been so dark that we had to have lights on to see. Mom will whisper to you as I always do tonight so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too! Before I go though I want to write the daily prayers that I need catching up on. Here they are: November 28~ How very good & pleasant it is when kindred live together in unity. In this season of family get-togethers, my heavenly Father, I thank you for the good things about my family. And, Lord, where there are family challenges & strife, I pray that you would intervene. Please soften their hearts, change minds, grant grace & forgiveness....even miracles! Heal our broken relationships, dear Father & protect our healthy ones. Let unity ultimately prevail-----but not a thin, superficial unity that could break at any moment. Please forge an unbreakable unity within our hearts by your righteousness & peace. In Christ's name, I pray. Amen. Grace, forgiveness & love are essential ingredients for unity among believers. Amen.
November 29~ May you be blessed by the Lord, who made heaven & earth. My Lord, you made heaven & earth. You made them by speaking them into existence. When you created the heavens & the earth, you declared them good. You do all things well. Every blessing from your hand is a good & perfect gift. O, help me hold in gratitude what you give me today! Please keep me from losing what you have given me & may I be ready to share the bounty of your blessings with those around me. In the name of your precious Son, I pray. Amen. The real issue in life is not how many blessings we have, but what we do with our blessings. Some people have many blessings & hoard them. Some have few & give everything away. Amen.
Mom is all caught up again. Hope that you have a fun night tonight while Mom is sleeping. May it be all that you need & want it to be my sweet precious son! Come be with Mom if you can as well. I really would love that. I need you, Tyler. Thank you. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, November 27, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom had another good day today shopping! The weather was nice for a bit but then it got cold & overcast. I know we are suppose to be getting some rain for the next couple days so the clouds were definitely rolling in. While dinner is cooking I thought that i would take a couple minutes to write you a quick letter. This weekend sure did go by fast! It was one of the better weekends that I have had in a while. Sure it had some ups & downs today but overall nothing to loose sleep over. Mark & Mom did get a few calls today. Not sure what is happening but several family members & friends are sick & being rushed to hospitals. One because her PIC Line was infected, two because of strokes, one because of a cyst or appendix burst... it is just crazy. My heart is with every one of them. I know you are watching over them as well my sweet precious son.
Mom & Mark did a good deed today as well. Someone I know had a baby almost a week ago. She is a single Mom & the daughter of one of my friends. She got mostly everything she needed for her sweet baby girl but a few things she didn't so Mark & Mom went out & got her a couple things & something for her son as well. We were thanked beyond what needed to be. They all were so sweet. Mom is trying to set up a time to go meet the little baby. Hopefully before Christmas. Another friend's daughter wants to change her room over to Paris & the color Pink.....right up my alley, huh? My friend sent me a message last night saying she needed me to help her decorate her daughters room! I was in my glory! I love doing stuff like that & you know my love for Paris. It made Mom feel good, Tyler. There is so much hate in this world we live in right now & hearing nice things, doing nice things for others & paying it forward makes it a little brighter.
Mom doesn't really have any updates on Meme, Bob, Grandpa or Debbie as I have not spoken to any of them in a few days. Grandpa might call later tonight or tomorrow night. I do know that Aunt Shirley has to go back to the doctors this week. Things don't really look good there, Uncle Dick is out of the hospital again....he burst a muscle & that what was causing the redness/bruising/swelling in his arm. Great Grammy is doing well. I can't wait to go visit her in a couple weeks when I am there for Christmas. Aunt Beck, John & Bean are all well. They are just really busy too. I guess all in all we are doing well. We should as we have you for an Angel that is watching over us. That makes me so proud & it makes me smile under all the sadness that I have. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. You will forever live in my heart, mind & soul. Mom will whisper to you like I do every night. Be listening out for my voice. I will indeed smile for you & I will close my eyes & see you smiling back at Mom. Not sure if I will see the moon or stars but I will be looking for them in a little bit. Mom hopes that your night is all that you need & want it to be. Have fun & I am sure there will be an adventure or two for you as well! Come visit me when I am sleeping tonight. I love seeing you in my dreams. It lets me know that you are doing well. Thank you, Tyler! Before I finish this letter up I will write to you the daily prayer. Here it is: November 27~ I will praise the Lord as long as I live; i will sing praises to my God all my life long. Even if my ability to utter a sound gives way to silence in my old age, dear Lord, I ask that you would grant me grace to make music to you in my heart & mind to praise you even when my life is coming to an end. By then I should have a treasure trove of memories of the way you've blessed my life. There will be reasons, I'm sure, to be sad, but I'm hoping I will be long practiced in praise & thanksgiving so that I'll be more prone to see your graces in my situation than the disgraces of decline. Let me praise you today in preparation for those days ahead. Amen. You can guess the ending of your story with a fair amount of accuracy by the direction you are taking the plot today. Amen.
Mom needs to end this letter now as I stopped a few minutes ago to eat dinner & now I have to do all the clean up. I think I will go watch one of our favorite movies & cuddle on the couch to feel closer to you. Hope you are with me. Good night & sweet dreams, Ty. Until tomorrow..... I love you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom had another good day today shopping! The weather was nice for a bit but then it got cold & overcast. I know we are suppose to be getting some rain for the next couple days so the clouds were definitely rolling in. While dinner is cooking I thought that i would take a couple minutes to write you a quick letter. This weekend sure did go by fast! It was one of the better weekends that I have had in a while. Sure it had some ups & downs today but overall nothing to loose sleep over. Mark & Mom did get a few calls today. Not sure what is happening but several family members & friends are sick & being rushed to hospitals. One because her PIC Line was infected, two because of strokes, one because of a cyst or appendix burst... it is just crazy. My heart is with every one of them. I know you are watching over them as well my sweet precious son.
Mom & Mark did a good deed today as well. Someone I know had a baby almost a week ago. She is a single Mom & the daughter of one of my friends. She got mostly everything she needed for her sweet baby girl but a few things she didn't so Mark & Mom went out & got her a couple things & something for her son as well. We were thanked beyond what needed to be. They all were so sweet. Mom is trying to set up a time to go meet the little baby. Hopefully before Christmas. Another friend's daughter wants to change her room over to Paris & the color Pink.....right up my alley, huh? My friend sent me a message last night saying she needed me to help her decorate her daughters room! I was in my glory! I love doing stuff like that & you know my love for Paris. It made Mom feel good, Tyler. There is so much hate in this world we live in right now & hearing nice things, doing nice things for others & paying it forward makes it a little brighter.
Mom doesn't really have any updates on Meme, Bob, Grandpa or Debbie as I have not spoken to any of them in a few days. Grandpa might call later tonight or tomorrow night. I do know that Aunt Shirley has to go back to the doctors this week. Things don't really look good there, Uncle Dick is out of the hospital again....he burst a muscle & that what was causing the redness/bruising/swelling in his arm. Great Grammy is doing well. I can't wait to go visit her in a couple weeks when I am there for Christmas. Aunt Beck, John & Bean are all well. They are just really busy too. I guess all in all we are doing well. We should as we have you for an Angel that is watching over us. That makes me so proud & it makes me smile under all the sadness that I have. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. You will forever live in my heart, mind & soul. Mom will whisper to you like I do every night. Be listening out for my voice. I will indeed smile for you & I will close my eyes & see you smiling back at Mom. Not sure if I will see the moon or stars but I will be looking for them in a little bit. Mom hopes that your night is all that you need & want it to be. Have fun & I am sure there will be an adventure or two for you as well! Come visit me when I am sleeping tonight. I love seeing you in my dreams. It lets me know that you are doing well. Thank you, Tyler! Before I finish this letter up I will write to you the daily prayer. Here it is: November 27~ I will praise the Lord as long as I live; i will sing praises to my God all my life long. Even if my ability to utter a sound gives way to silence in my old age, dear Lord, I ask that you would grant me grace to make music to you in my heart & mind to praise you even when my life is coming to an end. By then I should have a treasure trove of memories of the way you've blessed my life. There will be reasons, I'm sure, to be sad, but I'm hoping I will be long practiced in praise & thanksgiving so that I'll be more prone to see your graces in my situation than the disgraces of decline. Let me praise you today in preparation for those days ahead. Amen. You can guess the ending of your story with a fair amount of accuracy by the direction you are taking the plot today. Amen.
Mom needs to end this letter now as I stopped a few minutes ago to eat dinner & now I have to do all the clean up. I think I will go watch one of our favorite movies & cuddle on the couch to feel closer to you. Hope you are with me. Good night & sweet dreams, Ty. Until tomorrow..... I love you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Saturday, November 26, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Mom is doing pretty good. Sorry I did not write to you last night but I didn't even get on my computer at all. Mark & Mom put together a puzzle for me of the Eiffel Tower & then I kinda watched TV all day as the weather was cloudy, cold & raining. Mom went to bed around 10:30 pm & got up early this morning as Princess had a vet appointment for her shots..... then Mark & Mom went shopping for the day. Neither of us could remember a time where we didn't have a hair cut, nail appointment, grocery shopping to do, etc... it's been a very long time that is for sure. We enjoyed the day out with the weather being really nice. Partly sunny in the high 40's. We ventured out to a couple places we didn't know about & found an Olive Garden to have an early dinner at. Mom was so happy! Only took me 2 years to find one & it is only 10 minutes down the road. Think we may have found another apartment complex to move to when our lease is up next year. They are really nice & it is closer to Mark's office. It is in a smaller town then where we live now! The rent is also cheaper & it is in a gated community as well. Who knows but at least we have some kind of a lead. More than we had before! The rest of the day & evening Mom has spent on line doing some Xmas shopping for the family while Mark is watching a movie. Later I will go & watch one with him & call it an early night as we plan on going shopping again tomorrow as well for a couple hours. I want to enjoy the down time while it can last as Monday it will be back to the books for me & keeping a very structured & discipline schedule for myself as I had a few months ago. I have let it go now for a bit but I think it was much needed. I am ready to go back to getting this done! Mark will be back to work again as well & he will be just as busy. I can't believe that Christmas is in 29 days....holy smokes. I guess it does not seem possible at all. Another new year will be upon us as well in 5 weeks. It will be 4 years since you have been gone. 4 long years. Mom misses you so much. No words will ever describe the pain, the sadness, the loneliness, the heartache Mom feels every day. I think the only thing that helps me out is the fact that I know you are happy & free. That at least makes me smile. I love you so much. My love for you is & always will be unconditional. You forever will be my everything. You live in my heart, mind , body & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I know you know this as you feel it in your soul, Tyler.
Mom does not really have any updates for you. I did get to speak to Meme & Grandpa over the last couple of days. All is well there & Mom can't wait to go back to NH to see them. It has been too long since I have been there. I miss everyone. Mom was able to book a hotel room for 4 nights during the holiday so that was great! I look forward to going back there & visiting you. I know it will be snowy & cold but I don't care. I found another ornament for your stone. A similar one like I give you every year so when I come at Christmas time I will be leaving it for you to see. I just hope no one takes it like they have all the rest of them. That makes me upset but I know you see it there & you know exactly who keeps taking them. Oh yeah... today is Aunt Donna's Birthday. She is having a hard time as her Dad, Ron had a stroke last night. I spoke to her briefly when she was in the ambulance. So sad as Ron is such a sweetheart. If you can...please watch over him & say hello to Aunt Donna. Thanks, Tyler! I think that is all I have for you right now. I do have the daily prayer for you. Here it is:
November 25~ Bless the Lord, O my soul & do not forget all his benefits. Today I will remember that you have given me clothes, shelter & food. Beyond these things, heavenly Father, I've got running water---& warm water, at that!-----electricity, heat, lights, pets, plants & music. All that is well in my body, my senses & my mind. And while that list is not even close to be exhaustive, I never want to forget that you yourself are my greatest joy & my most precious gift. Help me always remember all your benefits. Bless the Lord, O my soul. Is something insignificant just because it happens every day? If the sun wouldn't shine for ten days, suddenly it would be a great thing when it began shining again. If fire existed only in one place on earth, I think it would be more precious than gold or silver. If there were only one well in the world, I would imagine that a drop of water would be worth more than a thousand dollars. Amen.
November 26~ Let everything that breathes praise the Lord! To see things that live & breathe on earth is to witness your genius, almighty Creator. What a treat to see the strange & wonderful creatures & plant life you've made! How intriguing they are with their special defenses & ways of getting food! How they move & migrate & reproduce..... What a fantastic menagerie! Everything that breathes praises you in its own way, Lord God. Praise the Lord, indeed! Science still has not been able to discover exactly how a cat is able to purr. And let us not forget that God created both cats & us. Amen.
Mom is all caught up yet again. The evening sky has been upon us for a few hours now. I will be looking up to the sky to see if I see the moon & stars. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. Mom hopes you have a wonderful night doing all the things you need to & want to do. Come be with me if you can. Please continue to watch over us all. Fly high & free my sweet precious son. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Mom is doing pretty good. Sorry I did not write to you last night but I didn't even get on my computer at all. Mark & Mom put together a puzzle for me of the Eiffel Tower & then I kinda watched TV all day as the weather was cloudy, cold & raining. Mom went to bed around 10:30 pm & got up early this morning as Princess had a vet appointment for her shots..... then Mark & Mom went shopping for the day. Neither of us could remember a time where we didn't have a hair cut, nail appointment, grocery shopping to do, etc... it's been a very long time that is for sure. We enjoyed the day out with the weather being really nice. Partly sunny in the high 40's. We ventured out to a couple places we didn't know about & found an Olive Garden to have an early dinner at. Mom was so happy! Only took me 2 years to find one & it is only 10 minutes down the road. Think we may have found another apartment complex to move to when our lease is up next year. They are really nice & it is closer to Mark's office. It is in a smaller town then where we live now! The rent is also cheaper & it is in a gated community as well. Who knows but at least we have some kind of a lead. More than we had before! The rest of the day & evening Mom has spent on line doing some Xmas shopping for the family while Mark is watching a movie. Later I will go & watch one with him & call it an early night as we plan on going shopping again tomorrow as well for a couple hours. I want to enjoy the down time while it can last as Monday it will be back to the books for me & keeping a very structured & discipline schedule for myself as I had a few months ago. I have let it go now for a bit but I think it was much needed. I am ready to go back to getting this done! Mark will be back to work again as well & he will be just as busy. I can't believe that Christmas is in 29 days....holy smokes. I guess it does not seem possible at all. Another new year will be upon us as well in 5 weeks. It will be 4 years since you have been gone. 4 long years. Mom misses you so much. No words will ever describe the pain, the sadness, the loneliness, the heartache Mom feels every day. I think the only thing that helps me out is the fact that I know you are happy & free. That at least makes me smile. I love you so much. My love for you is & always will be unconditional. You forever will be my everything. You live in my heart, mind , body & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I know you know this as you feel it in your soul, Tyler.
Mom does not really have any updates for you. I did get to speak to Meme & Grandpa over the last couple of days. All is well there & Mom can't wait to go back to NH to see them. It has been too long since I have been there. I miss everyone. Mom was able to book a hotel room for 4 nights during the holiday so that was great! I look forward to going back there & visiting you. I know it will be snowy & cold but I don't care. I found another ornament for your stone. A similar one like I give you every year so when I come at Christmas time I will be leaving it for you to see. I just hope no one takes it like they have all the rest of them. That makes me upset but I know you see it there & you know exactly who keeps taking them. Oh yeah... today is Aunt Donna's Birthday. She is having a hard time as her Dad, Ron had a stroke last night. I spoke to her briefly when she was in the ambulance. So sad as Ron is such a sweetheart. If you can...please watch over him & say hello to Aunt Donna. Thanks, Tyler! I think that is all I have for you right now. I do have the daily prayer for you. Here it is:
November 25~ Bless the Lord, O my soul & do not forget all his benefits. Today I will remember that you have given me clothes, shelter & food. Beyond these things, heavenly Father, I've got running water---& warm water, at that!-----electricity, heat, lights, pets, plants & music. All that is well in my body, my senses & my mind. And while that list is not even close to be exhaustive, I never want to forget that you yourself are my greatest joy & my most precious gift. Help me always remember all your benefits. Bless the Lord, O my soul. Is something insignificant just because it happens every day? If the sun wouldn't shine for ten days, suddenly it would be a great thing when it began shining again. If fire existed only in one place on earth, I think it would be more precious than gold or silver. If there were only one well in the world, I would imagine that a drop of water would be worth more than a thousand dollars. Amen.
November 26~ Let everything that breathes praise the Lord! To see things that live & breathe on earth is to witness your genius, almighty Creator. What a treat to see the strange & wonderful creatures & plant life you've made! How intriguing they are with their special defenses & ways of getting food! How they move & migrate & reproduce..... What a fantastic menagerie! Everything that breathes praises you in its own way, Lord God. Praise the Lord, indeed! Science still has not been able to discover exactly how a cat is able to purr. And let us not forget that God created both cats & us. Amen.
Mom is all caught up yet again. The evening sky has been upon us for a few hours now. I will be looking up to the sky to see if I see the moon & stars. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. Mom hopes you have a wonderful night doing all the things you need to & want to do. Come be with me if you can. Please continue to watch over us all. Fly high & free my sweet precious son. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, November 24, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! Happy Thanksgiving to you in Heaven today. Yes it is another holiday without you & Mom is not really having the best of day today. Many family & friends are gathering around the table having a holiday feast, sharing stories, remembering old times, making new memories, laughing & enjoying their time together. Not here I am afraid. The weather up North is a winter mix of snow, sleet & rain which prevented us from going to visit family & friends today. We are home & treating it as another day. Mark is not a holiday person at all & never has been. He prefers to have this day & every holiday to be nonexistence. As you know Mom has always been a holiday person but since I lost you I still like to decorate & be with family & friends but it is just very different for me. Sadness replaces the happiness Mom once had. I guess it is just too hard to put into words for anyone to really understand what I am trying to say. Mom has basically shut down & has not been on social media much at all today. I don't want to see pictures of families or hearing about all the good times today, etc.... I am not trying to be bitter in the least it is I just don't really want to deal with any of it. Later today Mom will be watching the Cowboys play & then make a small dinner for Mark & I. I will watch tv for most of the night & maybe have a nice glass of wine to relax. Then I will go to bed. That is about the excitement of my day. It's a 3 day weekend as well & Mom is planning to just go shopping Friday & Saturday to see if I can get all the Christmas shopping done all at once. Don't have much left to buy but I would love to be ahead of the game & finish it up! I think Sunday will be a day of just doing nothing at all....just hanging around & being lazy! Monday will be the start of me getting back into the swing of my studying routine again. I really need to crack the books if I want to graduate in May. I have a final coming up & then it is another class. I know that you continue to be with Mom every step of the way. Thank you my sweet precious son! I miss you so much & I love you unconditionally. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond.
Mom spoke to Meme, Bob, Grandpa, Debbie, Bean, Aunt Beck yesterday & today. Our family is not doing anything on Thanksgiving really. Bean actually was making dinner for some friends & her husband today. Aunt Beck was going somewhere & everyone else was staying home because of the weather that I had told you about already. As you can see... things are just all over the place, they are crazy just like they always were with us. Mom does not have much else for updates but I am sure I will come the weekend. Mom does have a couple daily prayers for you though that I need to get caught up with so here they are:
November 22~ Great are the works of the Lord, studied by all who delight in them. I study my own hand, dear Lord----how it moves, the way my fingers & thumb work together. How amazing the design! How wise you are! And I could study it in more depth from a textbook & my wonder would only increase. Thank you for revealing your greatness in so many ways----both to the casual observer & the scholar. We all delight in your knowledge, insight, & power. To study even a single cell is to know that there is a supreme God. Amen.
November 23~ For the Lord will vindicate his people & have compassion on his servants. Thank you for your compassion, dear Lord. Thank you that you have seen my predicament & shown your mercy to me. Thank you for vindicating me from my enemy, the devil, by bringing your redemption where he had incited rebellion against you & had introduced slavery to sin. By your compassion you have saved me from my rebellion & by your mercy you have set me free from my sin. Thank you, Lord! I praise your name forever! " Free at last, Free at last! Thank God Almighty, I'm free at last! " Amen.
November 24~ Enter his gates with thanksgiving & his courts with praise. Give thanks to him, bless his name. I want to come to you, into your presence, with praise on my lips right now, my Lord. How well you deserve it! How sad it would be for me to sweep aside your many blessings to focus only on the problems of the day! I won't do that. Instead, I'll praise you. There will be time for addressing the concerns I have, but I will set my soul & my lips free to thank you & to bless your name. Gratitude is the most exquisite form of courtesy. Amen.
Mom is all caught up. The night sky is almost upon us & I know that nothing will be shining in the sky. The day here was cloudy & overcast & the evening sky is just the same. We are going to be getting rain here soon for the next several days. Doesn't matter as Mom will be whispering to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice. I will try to smile tonight. I hope you will too. Mom hopes that your evening is filled with all the things you need & want it to be. Have fun tonight while I sleep. Come visit Mom if you can. I would really like that. Thank you, pumpkin! Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow..... Happy Heavenly Thanksgiving. I miss you so & I love you beyond words.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! Happy Thanksgiving to you in Heaven today. Yes it is another holiday without you & Mom is not really having the best of day today. Many family & friends are gathering around the table having a holiday feast, sharing stories, remembering old times, making new memories, laughing & enjoying their time together. Not here I am afraid. The weather up North is a winter mix of snow, sleet & rain which prevented us from going to visit family & friends today. We are home & treating it as another day. Mark is not a holiday person at all & never has been. He prefers to have this day & every holiday to be nonexistence. As you know Mom has always been a holiday person but since I lost you I still like to decorate & be with family & friends but it is just very different for me. Sadness replaces the happiness Mom once had. I guess it is just too hard to put into words for anyone to really understand what I am trying to say. Mom has basically shut down & has not been on social media much at all today. I don't want to see pictures of families or hearing about all the good times today, etc.... I am not trying to be bitter in the least it is I just don't really want to deal with any of it. Later today Mom will be watching the Cowboys play & then make a small dinner for Mark & I. I will watch tv for most of the night & maybe have a nice glass of wine to relax. Then I will go to bed. That is about the excitement of my day. It's a 3 day weekend as well & Mom is planning to just go shopping Friday & Saturday to see if I can get all the Christmas shopping done all at once. Don't have much left to buy but I would love to be ahead of the game & finish it up! I think Sunday will be a day of just doing nothing at all....just hanging around & being lazy! Monday will be the start of me getting back into the swing of my studying routine again. I really need to crack the books if I want to graduate in May. I have a final coming up & then it is another class. I know that you continue to be with Mom every step of the way. Thank you my sweet precious son! I miss you so much & I love you unconditionally. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond.
Mom spoke to Meme, Bob, Grandpa, Debbie, Bean, Aunt Beck yesterday & today. Our family is not doing anything on Thanksgiving really. Bean actually was making dinner for some friends & her husband today. Aunt Beck was going somewhere & everyone else was staying home because of the weather that I had told you about already. As you can see... things are just all over the place, they are crazy just like they always were with us. Mom does not have much else for updates but I am sure I will come the weekend. Mom does have a couple daily prayers for you though that I need to get caught up with so here they are:
November 22~ Great are the works of the Lord, studied by all who delight in them. I study my own hand, dear Lord----how it moves, the way my fingers & thumb work together. How amazing the design! How wise you are! And I could study it in more depth from a textbook & my wonder would only increase. Thank you for revealing your greatness in so many ways----both to the casual observer & the scholar. We all delight in your knowledge, insight, & power. To study even a single cell is to know that there is a supreme God. Amen.
November 23~ For the Lord will vindicate his people & have compassion on his servants. Thank you for your compassion, dear Lord. Thank you that you have seen my predicament & shown your mercy to me. Thank you for vindicating me from my enemy, the devil, by bringing your redemption where he had incited rebellion against you & had introduced slavery to sin. By your compassion you have saved me from my rebellion & by your mercy you have set me free from my sin. Thank you, Lord! I praise your name forever! " Free at last, Free at last! Thank God Almighty, I'm free at last! " Amen.
November 24~ Enter his gates with thanksgiving & his courts with praise. Give thanks to him, bless his name. I want to come to you, into your presence, with praise on my lips right now, my Lord. How well you deserve it! How sad it would be for me to sweep aside your many blessings to focus only on the problems of the day! I won't do that. Instead, I'll praise you. There will be time for addressing the concerns I have, but I will set my soul & my lips free to thank you & to bless your name. Gratitude is the most exquisite form of courtesy. Amen.
Mom is all caught up. The night sky is almost upon us & I know that nothing will be shining in the sky. The day here was cloudy & overcast & the evening sky is just the same. We are going to be getting rain here soon for the next several days. Doesn't matter as Mom will be whispering to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice. I will try to smile tonight. I hope you will too. Mom hopes that your evening is filled with all the things you need & want it to be. Have fun tonight while I sleep. Come visit Mom if you can. I would really like that. Thank you, pumpkin! Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow..... Happy Heavenly Thanksgiving. I miss you so & I love you beyond words.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, November 21, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? Mom is so sorry that again I didn't write to you last night but as you could see I was not really in the best mood nor place to write. Mom is still having a hard time but I am trying to smile behind all my hurt. I just don't understand it all. I always try to be nice & helpful to other people & in return I get told I am a liar or somehow I manage to screw things up. Everything that goes wrong always ends up being Mom's fault when it is not. It hurts me to no end & I am beginning to think being nice is not worth it. Remember Mow...your old nurse? He said it best to me when he said.... Protect myself but he knows I could never be anything but nice. He is so right. I get walked all over, lied to, etc... but still even knowing all that I continue to do what I do... be nice to all. I guess that is just the way I am & I will never change. Meme & Grandpa raised me that way. I know you are sadden to see the way Mom has been the last couple days & I am sorry my sweet precious son, but please know that under the sad face & the hurt that I am feeling I will be ok. I will pull through just like I always do.
Today was a busy day for Mom. I actually went out on my own & had some " me " time. It felt great. Mom had to use Mark's truck because for some reason Mom's vehicle is not running. Went to start it yesterday & nothing. When we have the money will will get it looked at so for the time being.... we are back to 1 vehicle again. Anyways... Mom was out for most of the day. The weather is so cold & windy. Yikes..... back home it was snowing! I think the winter time is finally upon us & Mom is not liking it at all...lol! It sure is pretty to look at but I still don't want the snow. Oh well... I will eventually learn to embrace that kind of weather again.
The last couple of days have been quiet as you have seen. Not much has gone on so I really don't have much for updates. My friend left on Saturday. He is staying with another one of his friends for a bit. Not sure when he will be coming back for a visit. It sure was nice to have someone to talk to when Mark was gone all the time. It definitely made it a helluva lot less lonely. Hopefully I will see him again soon. He may have a possible job & if that is the case it is in Claremont & I will rarely ever see him as he will be working all kinds of long hours & not have a set schedule. I am happy for him though. It is a step in the right direction that he needs! Mom got to speak to Meme & grandpa for a brief bit. They are still hoping that we will be making it to Thanksgiving dinner. The weather may just keep us home. I will be looking at the forecast in the next day or so to see. It would be nice to go up there as it has been almost 6 months. Anything you can do to make the weather fine...please, Tyler. I ask you to help Mom out. Thanks pumpkin! I do have many daily prayers to catch up on so here they are:
November 17~ Praise the Lord! How good it is to sing praises to our God; for he is gracious.....He heals the brokenhearted & binds up their wounds. The scars ou bear, Lord Jesus, are evidence of your wounds. You carry them in your own body, but let the scars in my own life not remind me of the wounds that made them as much as they remind me of your coming to heal them. Thank you for all the gracious ways you've brought healing into my life----to my soul, my mind, my body & my emotions. I wouldn't be praying this prayer if it weren't for your healing touch. I praise you in your precious name. Amen. Healing this side of heaven is a foreshadowing of the complete healing that awaits us. Amen.
November 18~ They shall celebrate the fame of your abundant goodness & shalt sing aloud of your righteousness. Mary said, " My soul magnifies the Lord & my spirit rejoices in God my Savior.... for the Mighty One has done great things for me & holy is his name. His mercy is for those who fear him from generation to generation. He has shown strength with his arm; he has scattered the proud in the thoughts down the powerful from their thrones & lifted up the lowly; he has filled the hungry with good things. It is a blessing in itself to celebrate God's goodness. The Bible records a number of the faithful who broke into ecstatic praise when God did good things in their lives; Moses, Miriam, Hannah, David, Mary, Elizabeth & Paul, as well as other apostles. Go ahead! You're in good company! Amen.
November 19~ Surely the righteous shall give thanks to your name; the upright shall live in your presence. Thank you for the righteousness I have in you, Lord Jesus. you have granted me the status of a righteous person in your redemption & you are transforming me in righteous living as I walk with you by your Spirit. I give you thanks for things----these amazing mysteries of your grace of which I am a blessed recipient. To live with you, now & forever, is the crowning glory of this journey. Blessed be your name, Lord Jesus! We walk daily by faith in Christ's presence until the moment we stand eternally before him, finally able to feast our eyes on his wondrous form. Amen.
November 20~ Your name, O Lord, endures forever, your renown, O lord, throughout all ages. From the Creation to the Judgement, you will cause your name to be exalted among all the peoples of the earth. I do not even know the names of my relatives three generations ago, but I know your name, you who revealed yourself at the dawn of time to the first man & woman. I worship you today, Great One! I'm humbled when I think of such things as this. Speaking of fame & renown...... The Bible is still the all time best-selling book of the ages! Amen.
November 21~ I give you thanks, O Lord, with my whole heart.....for your steadfast love & your faithfulness; for you have exalted your name & your word above everything. I praise you, almighty God. You are the Creator & Maker of all that is good & holy. I exalt your name & bow before your majesty. Your love for me are indeed wonderful & your words to me are indeed glorious. I sing your praises with this humble prayer now & forever. Amen. In a more rapidly changing world than ever, the unchangeableness of God---his faithfulness & his mercy---are precious realities on which we gratefully stand firm. Amen.
Wow... Mom is all caught up now. That was several prayers that I was behind. The night sky is upon us & there will not be any stars or moon shining bright for me to see. That is ok because I will whisper to you as I always do each & every night. Be listening for my voice & I will smile. I hope you will too. I will close my eyes & imagine your sweet face. I miss you so much, Tyler. Every day is tough & difficult but there are days that I drown in missing you. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Mom hopes that you have a peaceful night doing all the things you need & want to do. Please come visit me tonight in my dreams. Take away the nightmares that Mom has been having. Thank you! Please continue to watch over us all like I know you do. Continue to fly high & free. Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You are 7 always will be my everything! Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Tyler~ Mom is so excited to say that I have hit over 24,000 views on my blog & letters to you. I just wanted to say a BIG Thank You to all who continue to read them daily. It means a lot to me. Hugs going out to everyone in the United States, France, Germany, Portugal, India, Kenya, Mexico, Poland, & Canada! Love to you all xoxo.
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? Mom is so sorry that again I didn't write to you last night but as you could see I was not really in the best mood nor place to write. Mom is still having a hard time but I am trying to smile behind all my hurt. I just don't understand it all. I always try to be nice & helpful to other people & in return I get told I am a liar or somehow I manage to screw things up. Everything that goes wrong always ends up being Mom's fault when it is not. It hurts me to no end & I am beginning to think being nice is not worth it. Remember Mow...your old nurse? He said it best to me when he said.... Protect myself but he knows I could never be anything but nice. He is so right. I get walked all over, lied to, etc... but still even knowing all that I continue to do what I do... be nice to all. I guess that is just the way I am & I will never change. Meme & Grandpa raised me that way. I know you are sadden to see the way Mom has been the last couple days & I am sorry my sweet precious son, but please know that under the sad face & the hurt that I am feeling I will be ok. I will pull through just like I always do.
Today was a busy day for Mom. I actually went out on my own & had some " me " time. It felt great. Mom had to use Mark's truck because for some reason Mom's vehicle is not running. Went to start it yesterday & nothing. When we have the money will will get it looked at so for the time being.... we are back to 1 vehicle again. Anyways... Mom was out for most of the day. The weather is so cold & windy. Yikes..... back home it was snowing! I think the winter time is finally upon us & Mom is not liking it at all...lol! It sure is pretty to look at but I still don't want the snow. Oh well... I will eventually learn to embrace that kind of weather again.
The last couple of days have been quiet as you have seen. Not much has gone on so I really don't have much for updates. My friend left on Saturday. He is staying with another one of his friends for a bit. Not sure when he will be coming back for a visit. It sure was nice to have someone to talk to when Mark was gone all the time. It definitely made it a helluva lot less lonely. Hopefully I will see him again soon. He may have a possible job & if that is the case it is in Claremont & I will rarely ever see him as he will be working all kinds of long hours & not have a set schedule. I am happy for him though. It is a step in the right direction that he needs! Mom got to speak to Meme & grandpa for a brief bit. They are still hoping that we will be making it to Thanksgiving dinner. The weather may just keep us home. I will be looking at the forecast in the next day or so to see. It would be nice to go up there as it has been almost 6 months. Anything you can do to make the weather fine...please, Tyler. I ask you to help Mom out. Thanks pumpkin! I do have many daily prayers to catch up on so here they are:
November 17~ Praise the Lord! How good it is to sing praises to our God; for he is gracious.....He heals the brokenhearted & binds up their wounds. The scars ou bear, Lord Jesus, are evidence of your wounds. You carry them in your own body, but let the scars in my own life not remind me of the wounds that made them as much as they remind me of your coming to heal them. Thank you for all the gracious ways you've brought healing into my life----to my soul, my mind, my body & my emotions. I wouldn't be praying this prayer if it weren't for your healing touch. I praise you in your precious name. Amen. Healing this side of heaven is a foreshadowing of the complete healing that awaits us. Amen.
November 18~ They shall celebrate the fame of your abundant goodness & shalt sing aloud of your righteousness. Mary said, " My soul magnifies the Lord & my spirit rejoices in God my Savior.... for the Mighty One has done great things for me & holy is his name. His mercy is for those who fear him from generation to generation. He has shown strength with his arm; he has scattered the proud in the thoughts down the powerful from their thrones & lifted up the lowly; he has filled the hungry with good things. It is a blessing in itself to celebrate God's goodness. The Bible records a number of the faithful who broke into ecstatic praise when God did good things in their lives; Moses, Miriam, Hannah, David, Mary, Elizabeth & Paul, as well as other apostles. Go ahead! You're in good company! Amen.
November 19~ Surely the righteous shall give thanks to your name; the upright shall live in your presence. Thank you for the righteousness I have in you, Lord Jesus. you have granted me the status of a righteous person in your redemption & you are transforming me in righteous living as I walk with you by your Spirit. I give you thanks for things----these amazing mysteries of your grace of which I am a blessed recipient. To live with you, now & forever, is the crowning glory of this journey. Blessed be your name, Lord Jesus! We walk daily by faith in Christ's presence until the moment we stand eternally before him, finally able to feast our eyes on his wondrous form. Amen.
November 20~ Your name, O Lord, endures forever, your renown, O lord, throughout all ages. From the Creation to the Judgement, you will cause your name to be exalted among all the peoples of the earth. I do not even know the names of my relatives three generations ago, but I know your name, you who revealed yourself at the dawn of time to the first man & woman. I worship you today, Great One! I'm humbled when I think of such things as this. Speaking of fame & renown...... The Bible is still the all time best-selling book of the ages! Amen.
November 21~ I give you thanks, O Lord, with my whole heart.....for your steadfast love & your faithfulness; for you have exalted your name & your word above everything. I praise you, almighty God. You are the Creator & Maker of all that is good & holy. I exalt your name & bow before your majesty. Your love for me are indeed wonderful & your words to me are indeed glorious. I sing your praises with this humble prayer now & forever. Amen. In a more rapidly changing world than ever, the unchangeableness of God---his faithfulness & his mercy---are precious realities on which we gratefully stand firm. Amen.
Wow... Mom is all caught up now. That was several prayers that I was behind. The night sky is upon us & there will not be any stars or moon shining bright for me to see. That is ok because I will whisper to you as I always do each & every night. Be listening for my voice & I will smile. I hope you will too. I will close my eyes & imagine your sweet face. I miss you so much, Tyler. Every day is tough & difficult but there are days that I drown in missing you. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Mom hopes that you have a peaceful night doing all the things you need & want to do. Please come visit me tonight in my dreams. Take away the nightmares that Mom has been having. Thank you! Please continue to watch over us all like I know you do. Continue to fly high & free. Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You are 7 always will be my everything! Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Tyler~ Mom is so excited to say that I have hit over 24,000 views on my blog & letters to you. I just wanted to say a BIG Thank You to all who continue to read them daily. It means a lot to me. Hugs going out to everyone in the United States, France, Germany, Portugal, India, Kenya, Mexico, Poland, & Canada! Love to you all xoxo.
Saturday, November 19, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday night? Mom is so tired but I wanted to at least write to you quickly to tell you about my day. It has been crazy busy here. My friend that has been staying with us went to leave this morning but as he was leaving his vehicle would not start. There was not much he or we could do as it is the weekend so he took Mark's vehicle for a couple days & he will be back so that he can come back here & get his vehicle looked at & fixed. It's going to be super hard as this week is a holiday week. Lots of places only are working 2 days this coming week. Hopefully he will be able to get it fixed & fast too. Grandpa & Debbie came down today as well. It was nice to spend a few hours with them. Grandpa wanted to go to the mall to look at few stores & then we went out to lunch with them. We came back home for a bit & then they got back on the road because it gets dark so early now. We had a good day with them. We were also suppose to visit with Andrea, Christina & Christian tonight but when we got home Mark was not feeling all that well. I guess something did not sit well with him so it was better that we stayed in. There is a raincheck with Andrea though. I really wanted to visit with them but Mom will & soon. Tonight has just been a regular night here. I think Mark is sleeping on the couch while Mom is writing to you. I will be going to bed in a little bit so hopefully I will see you in my dreams tonight. I miss you so much. There were several things today that reminded Mom of you. It made me have so many emotions. I laughed, smiled, cried...just like I always do. I know you saw me. I know you were right there with me, helping me along the way. Thank you sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. Mom will write out the daily prayers to you on tomorrow's letter as I am just so tired right now.
Hope that your night is all that you want it to be & need it to be. Have fun while Mom sleeps. I am sure you will have some adventures too. Please watch over us all like I know you do. Continue to fly high & free. Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be sure to listen for my voice later. I will smile & hope you will to. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings.
Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. Until tomorrow....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday night? Mom is so tired but I wanted to at least write to you quickly to tell you about my day. It has been crazy busy here. My friend that has been staying with us went to leave this morning but as he was leaving his vehicle would not start. There was not much he or we could do as it is the weekend so he took Mark's vehicle for a couple days & he will be back so that he can come back here & get his vehicle looked at & fixed. It's going to be super hard as this week is a holiday week. Lots of places only are working 2 days this coming week. Hopefully he will be able to get it fixed & fast too. Grandpa & Debbie came down today as well. It was nice to spend a few hours with them. Grandpa wanted to go to the mall to look at few stores & then we went out to lunch with them. We came back home for a bit & then they got back on the road because it gets dark so early now. We had a good day with them. We were also suppose to visit with Andrea, Christina & Christian tonight but when we got home Mark was not feeling all that well. I guess something did not sit well with him so it was better that we stayed in. There is a raincheck with Andrea though. I really wanted to visit with them but Mom will & soon. Tonight has just been a regular night here. I think Mark is sleeping on the couch while Mom is writing to you. I will be going to bed in a little bit so hopefully I will see you in my dreams tonight. I miss you so much. There were several things today that reminded Mom of you. It made me have so many emotions. I laughed, smiled, cried...just like I always do. I know you saw me. I know you were right there with me, helping me along the way. Thank you sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. Mom will write out the daily prayers to you on tomorrow's letter as I am just so tired right now.
Hope that your night is all that you want it to be & need it to be. Have fun while Mom sleeps. I am sure you will have some adventures too. Please watch over us all like I know you do. Continue to fly high & free. Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be sure to listen for my voice later. I will smile & hope you will to. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings.
Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. Until tomorrow....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, November 17, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom has had such a busy day today that this is the 1st chance that I have gotten to write to you. I have not been on my computer at all. I spent the day hanging out with my friend & we went shopping. We had fun just laughing & joking around...being like 2 little kids. Now Mom is back, I put all the things away, took the pups for a walk & then prepped dinner. It is cooking as we speak so I thought that I would write to you for a couple minutes.
Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you last night but I spent the night having dinner & playing golf with Mark & my friend. After that it was bed time. I know that you don't mind when I skip a night & not write but it bothers Mom a lot as this is how I stay so close to you. Last night the stars & moon were out & it was so beautiful. I whispered to you as I always do. Did you hear Mom? I hope so. When I was walking the pups a few minutes ago the sun was setting & the sky was dark. It really is just so beautiful. The moon was not out for where I could see it but I did see some stars. Mom will whisper to you again tonight so be listening out for my voice.
I have not spoken to anyone today on the phone but I did speak to Meme & Grandpa the other day. Everything is going well with them & they are getting ready for the Thanksgiving holiday. I guess because of Mark's schedule we will not be able to go there early so we will be driving up to NH on Thanksgiving. Mom was pretty upset about it but not much I can really do as this is Mark's job & it is the only income we have so I have to be understanding to a certain point. Holidays are always tough for Mom since I lost you. You were so like Mom & you were into the decorating, the music, the festivities. It was great....but now I just can't seem to get into them anymore. Sure I decorate for Christmas & I still listen to the music but it's just not the same. I think that is why I enjoy helping others out that need it. It makes Mom feel so happy & brings me so much joy. I know when I do things like that you are smiling down on Mom. That in itself is so worth it to me! I miss you my sweet precious son & I love you tot he moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my everything & always will be. You are my hero, the wind beneath my wings. Never forget that, please! Hopefully Mom will have some updates for you by this weekend. Here are the daily prayers that I need to catch up on:
November 16~ Great is the Lord & greatly to be praised; his greatness is unsearchable. Dear Lord, I realize that the " unsearchableness " of your greatness isn't intended to discourage my searching for it. So many new things occur to me about your wisdom & greatness whenever I stop to examine the world around me. Part of what makes these discoveries so exciting is that I realize I cannot exhaust them. It doesn't matter how many treasures I dig up about your greatness. If I keep digging, I'll keep finding more. And it's wonderful how you tuck away such wonderful gems in the layers of your creation. I'll keep searching as long as I live. Thank you for disclosing yourself in so many ways, especially the ones that take a little " mining " to uncover. To examine God's work is to discover more about his greatness, which compels me to praise him even more. Amen.
November 17~ Praise the Lord! How good it is to sing praises to our God; for he is gracious.....He heals the brokenhearted & binds up their wounds. The scars you bear, Lord Jesus, are evidence of your wounds. You carry them in your own body. But let the scars in my own life not remind me of the wounds that made them as much as they remind me of your coming to heal them. Thank you for all the gracious ways you've brought healing to my life----to my soul, my mind, my body & my emotions. I wouldn't be praying this prayer if it weren't for your healing touch. I praise you in your precious name. Amen. Healing this side of heaven is a foreshadowing of the complete healing that awaits us. Amen.
Mom is all caught up again. I hope that you have a fun evening tonight doing all the things you want to do & need to do. I hope that you have a couple adventures along the way. Come visit Mom again tonight in my dreams like you did last night. It means so much to me. Thanks Tyler!
It is time for Mom to go have dinner so I have to go for now. Good night & sweet dreams, Ty. Until tomorrow.... I love you unconditionally.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom has had such a busy day today that this is the 1st chance that I have gotten to write to you. I have not been on my computer at all. I spent the day hanging out with my friend & we went shopping. We had fun just laughing & joking around...being like 2 little kids. Now Mom is back, I put all the things away, took the pups for a walk & then prepped dinner. It is cooking as we speak so I thought that I would write to you for a couple minutes.
Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you last night but I spent the night having dinner & playing golf with Mark & my friend. After that it was bed time. I know that you don't mind when I skip a night & not write but it bothers Mom a lot as this is how I stay so close to you. Last night the stars & moon were out & it was so beautiful. I whispered to you as I always do. Did you hear Mom? I hope so. When I was walking the pups a few minutes ago the sun was setting & the sky was dark. It really is just so beautiful. The moon was not out for where I could see it but I did see some stars. Mom will whisper to you again tonight so be listening out for my voice.
I have not spoken to anyone today on the phone but I did speak to Meme & Grandpa the other day. Everything is going well with them & they are getting ready for the Thanksgiving holiday. I guess because of Mark's schedule we will not be able to go there early so we will be driving up to NH on Thanksgiving. Mom was pretty upset about it but not much I can really do as this is Mark's job & it is the only income we have so I have to be understanding to a certain point. Holidays are always tough for Mom since I lost you. You were so like Mom & you were into the decorating, the music, the festivities. It was great....but now I just can't seem to get into them anymore. Sure I decorate for Christmas & I still listen to the music but it's just not the same. I think that is why I enjoy helping others out that need it. It makes Mom feel so happy & brings me so much joy. I know when I do things like that you are smiling down on Mom. That in itself is so worth it to me! I miss you my sweet precious son & I love you tot he moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my everything & always will be. You are my hero, the wind beneath my wings. Never forget that, please! Hopefully Mom will have some updates for you by this weekend. Here are the daily prayers that I need to catch up on:
November 16~ Great is the Lord & greatly to be praised; his greatness is unsearchable. Dear Lord, I realize that the " unsearchableness " of your greatness isn't intended to discourage my searching for it. So many new things occur to me about your wisdom & greatness whenever I stop to examine the world around me. Part of what makes these discoveries so exciting is that I realize I cannot exhaust them. It doesn't matter how many treasures I dig up about your greatness. If I keep digging, I'll keep finding more. And it's wonderful how you tuck away such wonderful gems in the layers of your creation. I'll keep searching as long as I live. Thank you for disclosing yourself in so many ways, especially the ones that take a little " mining " to uncover. To examine God's work is to discover more about his greatness, which compels me to praise him even more. Amen.
November 17~ Praise the Lord! How good it is to sing praises to our God; for he is gracious.....He heals the brokenhearted & binds up their wounds. The scars you bear, Lord Jesus, are evidence of your wounds. You carry them in your own body. But let the scars in my own life not remind me of the wounds that made them as much as they remind me of your coming to heal them. Thank you for all the gracious ways you've brought healing to my life----to my soul, my mind, my body & my emotions. I wouldn't be praying this prayer if it weren't for your healing touch. I praise you in your precious name. Amen. Healing this side of heaven is a foreshadowing of the complete healing that awaits us. Amen.
Mom is all caught up again. I hope that you have a fun evening tonight doing all the things you want to do & need to do. I hope that you have a couple adventures along the way. Come visit Mom again tonight in my dreams like you did last night. It means so much to me. Thanks Tyler!
It is time for Mom to go have dinner so I have to go for now. Good night & sweet dreams, Ty. Until tomorrow.... I love you unconditionally.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, November 15, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this very rainy Tuesday night? Mom is doing well. Didn't sleep all that much but hopefully I will tonight. The weather today is just cold & miserable outside. The wind is whipping like crazy & the rain is really coming down. Mark was saying that his drive home was pretty bad. You could barely see the road. Mom can just hear the rain coming down while I am typing to you. Nights like these remind me of when you were just a toddler & you wanted Mom to read you a story out of your Disney Baby Book..... I don't remember it at all really but your favorite was the one that said" The rain taps my windows, the rain taps my door, it's raining on my house, is it raining on yours? " You used to laugh & laugh at that one for some reason. Just thinking about it is making me smile & laugh. I can see your sweet innocent face in my head. I am sure that you know exactly what I am talking about too. I know you are smiling remembering that thought like Mom!
Mom's day was basically spent in front of the computer & on the phone. I spoke to Meme, Auntie Kristina & a couple friends. I was so absorbed in everything this afternoon that when Mark called to tell me he was on his way home... I then remembered that I never made the beef stew that we were suppose to have for dinner tonight. So to say the least we ordered pizza tonight & the beef stew will be tomorrow night. I just can't believe that I did that as that is not usual for Mom. Oh well... it was good for a laugh, I suppose. Mom just spoke to Grandpa. He is all happy that we will be there next week for Thanksgiving Day. It won't be what we wanted for a stay but at lease we will see everyone for a few hours! This Saturday, I believe that they are coming here for a few hours as well. I will get to see Grandpa, Debbie & also Andrea, her wife & their son, Christian. I can't wait. Its been almost 2 years since we saw them. I miss them all so much. I miss you more than anything though. I miss everything but you know that & you can feel that in your soul. We have unconditional love for each other that will never go away. I love you beyond any words my sweet precious son. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond.
Mom hopes that you have a restful night if that is the way you want it to be. If you want adventure then I hope you have that. If you have things you need to do & may want to do then I hope you get the chance to do everything. Please come & visit Mom tonight though. I always love that. I need you by my side at all times. Thank you, Tyler. Mom will look to the sky tonight but I don't think I will see anything as it has been cloudy & rainy all day. There has not been a sunset in about a week now either. I sure am missing your " paintings " in the sky! Hope to see one soon again. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. I will smile & I know you will too. Before I close this letter I have 3 daily prayers to write out to you so here they are:
November 13~ The Lord has done great things for us, and we rejoice. I want to take this minute, my Lord, to recite back to you as many things as I can think of that you have done for me this day, this wee, this month, this past year. You have done great things for me! May a spirit of rejoicing rise up in me as I fill the air with testimonies of all the miracles, graces & blessings you've poured out on my life. Always give thanks to the Lord in the manner you appreciate receiving God's blessings---sincerely, thoughtfully & with exceeding joy. Amen.
November 14~ May those who sow in tears reap with shouts of joy. Thank you, almighty Father, for the " reaping times " of joy after periods of difficulty, hard work, or sorrow. When the dark times engulf me, please keep my heart faithful to you so that I will not miss the inevitable outcome of restoration & rejoicing. Let my love for you be tempered & matured in the seasons of sorrow so that my joy may be made complete in that love, fully ripened at harvest time. The best way to show our gratitude to God & the people is to accept everything with joy. A joyful heart is the inevitable result of a heart burning with love. Amen.
November 15~ Sing to the Lord, bless his name; tell of his salvation from day to day. There are so many ways your salvation comes to me, my Savior. I truly can speak of it from day to day. You have kept me safe from death on my journey to understanding your grace. You have saved me from bad decisions & mistakes, whether that means rescuing me after making them or keeping me from them in the first place. You protect me in the course of the day, often in ways I don't see, but when I lie down, I feel safe from harm at night because of your presence. Your salvation surrounds me, Lord. May I speak of it whenever & wherever I see or experience it. To be saved by God is no small thing; not that it is a difficult thing for him, but it is an extremely gracious act on his part. To understand that I don't deserve this gift of salvation is the first step in knowing how to be truly grateful for it. Amen.
Mom is all caught up. I am going to go relax for a few before I need to get some sleep. I guess I will watch a couple of my shows that I taped. Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. I love you. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, November 14, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday night? Mom is just all over the place tonight. It has been crazy busy here all day long & I just got done doing dinner dishes...it's after 8pm. You know me but that is so unlike Mom. Today went by so fast. Mom was up early this morning & has been straight out all day with running errands & then coming back & studying. This class is intense for Mom. I am just not good at Advanced math. Mom is pulling her hair out over it. I have a final at the end of the week & I would be lying if I said I was not scared of it. There are 100 questions, problem solving, etc.....ugh...I will be glad when it is all finished. I know you are right by my side during it all. Thank you my sweet precious son.
The weather today was so beautiful. The sun was out & the sky was blue. The temperature was 65 degrees today. Mom took the pups for a nice long walk. I want to take advantage of it while we can. Ozzy was to cute. He was chasing leaves & Princess just lived sniffing everything. Last night Mom got to see the Super Moon. It was really pretty. No pictures though. I guess depending on where you live you can see it tonight as well. Mom has not gone & looked yet. I will though. Hope I get to see it again & through stars too. I will whisper to you as I always do so be sure to listen for my voice. Smile and I will too.
Let's see here....Mark & Mom did a good deed for a lady that has become a sweet friend to me. She is having a rough time right now & she was pretty down in the dumps so to speak because Thanksgiving is coming & all she wanted was to have all her family with her for dinner. She expressed she was not going to be able to due to money being tight so Mark & Mom decided that we would send her the money so that she could. I told her about it today. Oh Tyler, she was so happy beyond words. She didn't know what to say. She made Mom cry. It felt really good to do that for her. I remember times when family & friends helped you & I out. It feels so good to pay it forward. I know that she appreciates it just like Mom did all those years ago. I will be smiling for days knowing her wish is going to come true!
I know you already know this but Mom saw today that your cousin, Ray Jr. will be becoming a Daddy in the next few hours. They induced Kayla this afternoon. Uncle Ray & Auntie Ann are super excited as it will be their 1st grand baby. As you know it's a girl & they chose Gabriella for her name. Something tells me that you have held that baby's soul before it will be brought into this world. I have nothing to back that up with as you know but it is a gut feeling I have.
Mom didn't talk to anyone today as I was so busy so hopefully I will connect with everyone tomorrow or later in the week. Mom said that I would write the daily prayers to you today but I am so behind in everything I will promise to do it tomorrow in your letter. I am so sorry, Ty. I really am. I am just so tired & running on adrenaline right now.
Mom hopes that you have a peaceful night with doing all the things you need & want to do. May you have fun while I am sleeping. Please come visit me in my dreams tonight. Mom sure does love it when you do. Thanks pumpkin. Well...it's pretty late now so Mom is going to close this letter & get ready for bed. I hope you will always remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I miss you so so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Mom's love for you is conditional. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday night? Mom is just all over the place tonight. It has been crazy busy here all day long & I just got done doing dinner dishes...it's after 8pm. You know me but that is so unlike Mom. Today went by so fast. Mom was up early this morning & has been straight out all day with running errands & then coming back & studying. This class is intense for Mom. I am just not good at Advanced math. Mom is pulling her hair out over it. I have a final at the end of the week & I would be lying if I said I was not scared of it. There are 100 questions, problem solving, etc.....ugh...I will be glad when it is all finished. I know you are right by my side during it all. Thank you my sweet precious son.
The weather today was so beautiful. The sun was out & the sky was blue. The temperature was 65 degrees today. Mom took the pups for a nice long walk. I want to take advantage of it while we can. Ozzy was to cute. He was chasing leaves & Princess just lived sniffing everything. Last night Mom got to see the Super Moon. It was really pretty. No pictures though. I guess depending on where you live you can see it tonight as well. Mom has not gone & looked yet. I will though. Hope I get to see it again & through stars too. I will whisper to you as I always do so be sure to listen for my voice. Smile and I will too.
Let's see here....Mark & Mom did a good deed for a lady that has become a sweet friend to me. She is having a rough time right now & she was pretty down in the dumps so to speak because Thanksgiving is coming & all she wanted was to have all her family with her for dinner. She expressed she was not going to be able to due to money being tight so Mark & Mom decided that we would send her the money so that she could. I told her about it today. Oh Tyler, she was so happy beyond words. She didn't know what to say. She made Mom cry. It felt really good to do that for her. I remember times when family & friends helped you & I out. It feels so good to pay it forward. I know that she appreciates it just like Mom did all those years ago. I will be smiling for days knowing her wish is going to come true!
I know you already know this but Mom saw today that your cousin, Ray Jr. will be becoming a Daddy in the next few hours. They induced Kayla this afternoon. Uncle Ray & Auntie Ann are super excited as it will be their 1st grand baby. As you know it's a girl & they chose Gabriella for her name. Something tells me that you have held that baby's soul before it will be brought into this world. I have nothing to back that up with as you know but it is a gut feeling I have.
Mom didn't talk to anyone today as I was so busy so hopefully I will connect with everyone tomorrow or later in the week. Mom said that I would write the daily prayers to you today but I am so behind in everything I will promise to do it tomorrow in your letter. I am so sorry, Ty. I really am. I am just so tired & running on adrenaline right now.
Mom hopes that you have a peaceful night with doing all the things you need & want to do. May you have fun while I am sleeping. Please come visit me in my dreams tonight. Mom sure does love it when you do. Thanks pumpkin. Well...it's pretty late now so Mom is going to close this letter & get ready for bed. I hope you will always remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I miss you so so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Mom's love for you is conditional. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, November 13, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday night? Mom is doing the best she can. Today was suppose to be a busy day for Mark & I but both of us woke up not feeling the greatest today. After a few hours, Mom felt better but Mark did not at all. We decided to put everything on hold for today & just go out & do everything tomorrow. Mom basically just took a relax day for a change. I played around on my computer for the most part & the watched the Cowboys/ Steelers football game. It sure was a nail biter again but 9 seconds left in the game & the rookie for Cowboys ran the ball down the field for a touchdown & won the game. The Cowboys are 8-1 & are in the lead. This makes Mom a very happy girl. Your dolphins won their game as well. Patriots are playing the Seahawks. That game starts in 5 minutes. I think this will be a good game as well. Both teams are playing good this season.
I am surprised but Mom has no updates for you at all. I was not on the phone at all today. It has been a very quiet day overall. The weather was nice today as it was sunny in the 60's. We did take the pups for a long walk today. They loved it! The sky is clear tonight & we are able to see the stars & the moon. Tonight is also what they call the super moon. It hasn't been seen in 69 or 70 years. It is really big & bright. I wish that I could get pictures of it but my camera is not that good. I wonder what the moon looks like where you are. Do you see the same thing as Mom does or is it different? I will be whispering to you later on tonight so be listening out for my voice. I will smile & I hope you will too.
Mom was scrolling through my memories on facebook today & it was 1 year ago that Paris was attacked. I can't believe how fast that year went by. That was a very sad day. I remember Mom watching it all over the news & tears rolled down my eyes. I wish there was not so much hate in this world. I wish that we all could get along. Mom has followers from France that read my letters to you. I hope that they know that even though I don't know them personally & I may never ever meet them, they are always in my thoughts & prayers.
Mom will write the daily prayer for tonight on tomorrows letter to you. It is getting late & Mom is getting pretty tired. I have a busy day tomorrow with running errands & then I have to crack the books & study as I have a final this week. I look forward to getting done this Math class....lol. I hope that you have a restful & peaceful night. May you get to do all the things you need & want to do. Come visit me in my dreams tonight when I am sleeping. Thank you my sweet precious son. Please continue to watch over us all. Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are & will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I miss you so much, Tyler. I can never express just how much but I know you can feel it. I love you more than words can say. To infinity & beyond....unconditional! Good night & sweet dreams. Fly high & free like I know you are. Until tomorrow......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday night? Mom is doing the best she can. Today was suppose to be a busy day for Mark & I but both of us woke up not feeling the greatest today. After a few hours, Mom felt better but Mark did not at all. We decided to put everything on hold for today & just go out & do everything tomorrow. Mom basically just took a relax day for a change. I played around on my computer for the most part & the watched the Cowboys/ Steelers football game. It sure was a nail biter again but 9 seconds left in the game & the rookie for Cowboys ran the ball down the field for a touchdown & won the game. The Cowboys are 8-1 & are in the lead. This makes Mom a very happy girl. Your dolphins won their game as well. Patriots are playing the Seahawks. That game starts in 5 minutes. I think this will be a good game as well. Both teams are playing good this season.
I am surprised but Mom has no updates for you at all. I was not on the phone at all today. It has been a very quiet day overall. The weather was nice today as it was sunny in the 60's. We did take the pups for a long walk today. They loved it! The sky is clear tonight & we are able to see the stars & the moon. Tonight is also what they call the super moon. It hasn't been seen in 69 or 70 years. It is really big & bright. I wish that I could get pictures of it but my camera is not that good. I wonder what the moon looks like where you are. Do you see the same thing as Mom does or is it different? I will be whispering to you later on tonight so be listening out for my voice. I will smile & I hope you will too.
Mom was scrolling through my memories on facebook today & it was 1 year ago that Paris was attacked. I can't believe how fast that year went by. That was a very sad day. I remember Mom watching it all over the news & tears rolled down my eyes. I wish there was not so much hate in this world. I wish that we all could get along. Mom has followers from France that read my letters to you. I hope that they know that even though I don't know them personally & I may never ever meet them, they are always in my thoughts & prayers.
Mom will write the daily prayer for tonight on tomorrows letter to you. It is getting late & Mom is getting pretty tired. I have a busy day tomorrow with running errands & then I have to crack the books & study as I have a final this week. I look forward to getting done this Math class....lol. I hope that you have a restful & peaceful night. May you get to do all the things you need & want to do. Come visit me in my dreams tonight when I am sleeping. Thank you my sweet precious son. Please continue to watch over us all. Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are & will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I miss you so much, Tyler. I can never express just how much but I know you can feel it. I love you more than words can say. To infinity & beyond....unconditional! Good night & sweet dreams. Fly high & free like I know you are. Until tomorrow......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Saturday, November 12, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday night? It is pretty late here but Mom wanted to write to you really quick before I head on to bed. Mom was extremely busy last night so that is why I didn't get the chance to write to you last night. Today has been just as crazy but I didn't want to go 2 nights without writing. Mark & Mom went out today to run errands & do some grocery shopping. We started looking for Christmas stuff as well. I saw a sign that said 49 days until Christmas... I thought it was wrong until I counted & was blown away. Holy smokes... I am not ready for it at all. Mom came home after seeing that & did some shopping for Meme, Bob, Grandpa & Debbie. At least they are taken care of. Now I just need to start looking for Mark. He has given me quite a few hints so that is good!
The weather today was cold but sunny. I guess it is suppose to be in the 60's again this week. That sure will be nice. The week is going to be busy again for Mark & for Mom. My friends will be coming back sometime this week as well. I felt so bad for him as he was traveling from Claremont to drop his daughter off in Manchester & they broke down while driving to Newport. Sometimes he has the worst luck. They are both safe & that is all that matters. He called Mom from the road to keep me updated. His daughter heard my voice & she told him that Mom sounded like a chipmunk...lol! That nickname is going to stick! He showed her a picture of me & she said I looked like a hot sh*t to hang out with. That made me smile. I have never met her but I hope to. I practically know his whole family....lol! They are all good people. You would have liked them all, Tyler.
Mom spoke to Meme & Grandpa tonight. All is well with them & they are happy that we will be going there for Thanksgiving. We haven't seen each other since vacation....almost 2 1/2 months ago. Mom plans on visiting with you as well for a bit. Hope the weather is nice & sunny but not too cold. I plan on leaving another ornament by your stone like I do every year for Christmas. I hope it doesn't get stolen or ruined. I guess that is a tradition that I will continue to do every year. It makes me smile & I hope it does you as well. Not much else to update you on. Maybe more this week though. There are a few Birthdays today though.... It is Pepe's Birthday. I wished him a Happy Birthday over facebook but if you could... please tell him I said I love him & I miss him. Give him ( and Nana ) a big hug & kiss from me. Thank you my sweet precious son! It is Auntie Kristina's Birthday as well so make sure you go say hello to her. I know she would love that! Just don't scare her! Your cousin's fiance, Heather's Birthday is today as well. You never met her but she is a sweetheart & you would love her. I don't think I am forgetting anyone...told you there were a few...lol! Mom has your daily prayers now to write so here they are:
November 11~ Ascribe to the Lord, O families of the people ascribe to the Lord glory & strength. Father in heaven, when I ascribe to you what belongs to you, I come into agreement with what is true about who you are. You are glorious! More glorious than the most awe-inspiring sunrise or the wonders of the night sky. You are strong, Lord! Stronger than the most powerful ocean currents or the quaking of the earth or the eruption of volcanic mountains. I call out your attributes to my family, point to them when they are evident, wonder at them aloud & declare them to the next generation. You are amazing, my God! I am full of wonder at your works & your ways! Ever notice how.....? is a nonthreatening invitation to converse with others about the Lord. Amen.
November 12~ Let the redeemed of the Lord say so, those he redeemed from trouble & gathered in from the lands, from the east & from the west, from the north & from the south. Dear Lord God, I rejoice that people from every land & of every nation sing your praises. We are all united in our love for you & in our deep appreciation for the fact that you have redeemed us & made us your beloved children. Thank you for being our God & heavenly Father. Amen. We are redeemed in Chris! Such a blessing is why we should be a truly grateful people on the face of the Earth. Amen.
Mom is all caught up again. It is extremely late here & Mom is going to go to bed as I am so tired & my eyes keep wanting to close. Mom hopes that you have a fun night with adventures along the way. May your evening be all that you need & want it to be. Come visit Mom if you can. I miss you so much & I love you beyond words. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I will whisper to you in a few minutes so be listening for my voice. Smile & Mom will too. Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler! Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday night? It is pretty late here but Mom wanted to write to you really quick before I head on to bed. Mom was extremely busy last night so that is why I didn't get the chance to write to you last night. Today has been just as crazy but I didn't want to go 2 nights without writing. Mark & Mom went out today to run errands & do some grocery shopping. We started looking for Christmas stuff as well. I saw a sign that said 49 days until Christmas... I thought it was wrong until I counted & was blown away. Holy smokes... I am not ready for it at all. Mom came home after seeing that & did some shopping for Meme, Bob, Grandpa & Debbie. At least they are taken care of. Now I just need to start looking for Mark. He has given me quite a few hints so that is good!
The weather today was cold but sunny. I guess it is suppose to be in the 60's again this week. That sure will be nice. The week is going to be busy again for Mark & for Mom. My friends will be coming back sometime this week as well. I felt so bad for him as he was traveling from Claremont to drop his daughter off in Manchester & they broke down while driving to Newport. Sometimes he has the worst luck. They are both safe & that is all that matters. He called Mom from the road to keep me updated. His daughter heard my voice & she told him that Mom sounded like a chipmunk...lol! That nickname is going to stick! He showed her a picture of me & she said I looked like a hot sh*t to hang out with. That made me smile. I have never met her but I hope to. I practically know his whole family....lol! They are all good people. You would have liked them all, Tyler.
Mom spoke to Meme & Grandpa tonight. All is well with them & they are happy that we will be going there for Thanksgiving. We haven't seen each other since vacation....almost 2 1/2 months ago. Mom plans on visiting with you as well for a bit. Hope the weather is nice & sunny but not too cold. I plan on leaving another ornament by your stone like I do every year for Christmas. I hope it doesn't get stolen or ruined. I guess that is a tradition that I will continue to do every year. It makes me smile & I hope it does you as well. Not much else to update you on. Maybe more this week though. There are a few Birthdays today though.... It is Pepe's Birthday. I wished him a Happy Birthday over facebook but if you could... please tell him I said I love him & I miss him. Give him ( and Nana ) a big hug & kiss from me. Thank you my sweet precious son! It is Auntie Kristina's Birthday as well so make sure you go say hello to her. I know she would love that! Just don't scare her! Your cousin's fiance, Heather's Birthday is today as well. You never met her but she is a sweetheart & you would love her. I don't think I am forgetting anyone...told you there were a few...lol! Mom has your daily prayers now to write so here they are:
November 11~ Ascribe to the Lord, O families of the people ascribe to the Lord glory & strength. Father in heaven, when I ascribe to you what belongs to you, I come into agreement with what is true about who you are. You are glorious! More glorious than the most awe-inspiring sunrise or the wonders of the night sky. You are strong, Lord! Stronger than the most powerful ocean currents or the quaking of the earth or the eruption of volcanic mountains. I call out your attributes to my family, point to them when they are evident, wonder at them aloud & declare them to the next generation. You are amazing, my God! I am full of wonder at your works & your ways! Ever notice how.....? is a nonthreatening invitation to converse with others about the Lord. Amen.
November 12~ Let the redeemed of the Lord say so, those he redeemed from trouble & gathered in from the lands, from the east & from the west, from the north & from the south. Dear Lord God, I rejoice that people from every land & of every nation sing your praises. We are all united in our love for you & in our deep appreciation for the fact that you have redeemed us & made us your beloved children. Thank you for being our God & heavenly Father. Amen. We are redeemed in Chris! Such a blessing is why we should be a truly grateful people on the face of the Earth. Amen.
Mom is all caught up again. It is extremely late here & Mom is going to go to bed as I am so tired & my eyes keep wanting to close. Mom hopes that you have a fun night with adventures along the way. May your evening be all that you need & want it to be. Come visit Mom if you can. I miss you so much & I love you beyond words. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I will whisper to you in a few minutes so be listening for my voice. Smile & Mom will too. Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler! Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, November 10, 2016
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