Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Mom is doing pretty good. Sorry I did not write to you last night but I didn't even get on my computer at all. Mark & Mom put together a puzzle for me of the Eiffel Tower & then I kinda watched TV all day as the weather was cloudy, cold & raining. Mom went to bed around 10:30 pm & got up early this morning as Princess had a vet appointment for her shots..... then Mark & Mom went shopping for the day. Neither of us could remember a time where we didn't have a hair cut, nail appointment, grocery shopping to do, etc... it's been a very long time that is for sure. We enjoyed the day out with the weather being really nice. Partly sunny in the high 40's. We ventured out to a couple places we didn't know about & found an Olive Garden to have an early dinner at. Mom was so happy! Only took me 2 years to find one & it is only 10 minutes down the road. Think we may have found another apartment complex to move to when our lease is up next year. They are really nice & it is closer to Mark's office. It is in a smaller town then where we live now! The rent is also cheaper & it is in a gated community as well. Who knows but at least we have some kind of a lead. More than we had before! The rest of the day & evening Mom has spent on line doing some Xmas shopping for the family while Mark is watching a movie. Later I will go & watch one with him & call it an early night as we plan on going shopping again tomorrow as well for a couple hours. I want to enjoy the down time while it can last as Monday it will be back to the books for me & keeping a very structured & discipline schedule for myself as I had a few months ago. I have let it go now for a bit but I think it was much needed. I am ready to go back to getting this done! Mark will be back to work again as well & he will be just as busy. I can't believe that Christmas is in 29 days....holy smokes. I guess it does not seem possible at all. Another new year will be upon us as well in 5 weeks. It will be 4 years since you have been gone. 4 long years. Mom misses you so much. No words will ever describe the pain, the sadness, the loneliness, the heartache Mom feels every day. I think the only thing that helps me out is the fact that I know you are happy & free. That at least makes me smile. I love you so much. My love for you is & always will be unconditional. You forever will be my everything. You live in my heart, mind , body & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I know you know this as you feel it in your soul, Tyler. 
 Mom does not really have any updates for you. I did get to speak to Meme & Grandpa over the last couple of days. All is well there & Mom can't wait to go back to NH to see them. It has been too long since I have been there. I miss everyone. Mom was able to book a hotel room for 4 nights during the holiday so that was great! I look forward to going back there & visiting you. I know it will be snowy & cold but I don't care. I found another ornament for your stone. A similar one like I give you every year so when I come at Christmas time I will be leaving it for you to see. I just hope no one takes it like they have all the rest of them. That makes me upset but I know you see it there & you know exactly who keeps taking them. Oh yeah... today is Aunt Donna's Birthday. She is having a hard time as her Dad, Ron had a stroke last night. I spoke to her briefly when she was in the ambulance. So sad as Ron is such a sweetheart. If you can...please watch over him & say hello to Aunt Donna. Thanks, Tyler! I think that is all I have for you right now. I do have the daily prayer for you. Here it is:
 November 25~ Bless the Lord, O my soul & do not forget all his benefits. Today I will remember that you have given me clothes, shelter & food. Beyond these things, heavenly Father, I've got running water---& warm water, at that!-----electricity, heat, lights, pets, plants & music. All that is well in my body, my senses & my mind. And while that list is not even close to be exhaustive, I never want to forget that you yourself are my greatest joy & my most precious gift. Help me always remember all your benefits. Bless the Lord, O my soul. Is something insignificant just because it happens every day? If the sun wouldn't shine for ten days, suddenly it would be a great thing when it began shining again. If fire existed only in one place on earth, I think it would be more precious than gold or silver. If there were only one well in the world, I would imagine that a drop of water would be worth more than a thousand dollars. Amen.
 November 26~ Let everything that breathes praise the Lord! To see things that live & breathe on earth is to witness your genius, almighty Creator. What a treat to see the strange & wonderful creatures & plant life you've made! How intriguing they are with their special defenses & ways of getting food! How they move & migrate & reproduce..... What a fantastic menagerie! Everything that breathes praises you in its own way, Lord God. Praise the Lord, indeed! Science still has not been able to discover exactly how a cat is able to purr. And let us not forget that God created both cats & us. Amen.
 Mom is all caught up yet again. The evening sky has been upon us for a few hours now. I will be looking up to the sky to see if I see the moon & stars. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. Mom hopes you have a wonderful night doing all the things you need to & want to do. Come be with me if you can. Please continue to watch over us all. Fly high & free my sweet precious son. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!