Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? Mom is so sorry that again I didn't write to you last night but as you could see I was not really in the best mood nor place to write. Mom is still having a hard time but I am trying to smile behind all my hurt. I just don't understand it all. I always try to be nice & helpful to other people & in return I get told I am a liar or somehow I manage to screw things up. Everything that goes wrong always ends up being Mom's fault when it is not. It hurts me to no end & I am beginning to think being nice is not worth it. Remember Mow...your old nurse? He said it best to me when he said.... Protect myself but he knows I could never be anything but nice. He is so right. I get walked all over, lied to, etc... but still even knowing all that I continue to do what I do... be nice to all. I guess that is just the way I am & I will never change. Meme & Grandpa raised me that way. I know you are sadden to see the way Mom has been the last couple days & I am sorry my sweet precious son, but please know that under the sad face & the hurt that I am feeling I will be ok. I will pull through just like I always do. 
 Today was a busy day for Mom. I actually went out on my own & had some " me " time. It felt great. Mom had to use Mark's truck because for some reason Mom's vehicle is not running. Went to start it yesterday & nothing. When we have the money will will get it looked at so for the time being.... we are back to 1 vehicle again. Anyways... Mom was out for most of the day. The weather is so cold & windy. Yikes..... back home it was snowing! I think the winter time is finally upon us & Mom is not liking it at all...lol! It sure is pretty to look at but I still don't want the snow. Oh well... I will eventually learn to embrace that kind of weather again. 
 The last couple of days have been quiet as you have seen. Not much has gone on so I really don't have much for updates. My friend left on Saturday. He is staying with another one of his friends for a bit. Not sure when he will be coming back for a visit. It sure was nice to have someone to talk to when Mark was gone all the time. It definitely made it a helluva lot less lonely. Hopefully I will see him again soon. He may have a possible job & if that is the case it is in Claremont & I will rarely ever see him as he will be working all kinds of long hours & not have a set schedule. I am happy for him though. It is a step in the right direction that he needs! Mom got to speak to Meme & grandpa for a brief bit. They are still hoping that we will be making it to Thanksgiving dinner. The weather may just keep us home. I will be looking at the forecast in the next day or so to see. It would be nice to go up there as it has been almost 6 months. Anything you can do to make the weather fine...please, Tyler. I ask you to help Mom out. Thanks pumpkin! I do have many daily prayers to catch up on so here they are:
 November 17~ Praise the Lord! How good it is to sing praises to our God; for he is gracious.....He heals the brokenhearted & binds up their wounds. The scars ou bear, Lord Jesus, are evidence of your wounds. You carry them in your own body, but let the scars in my own life not remind me of the wounds that made them as much as they remind me of your coming to heal them. Thank you for all the gracious ways you've brought healing into my life----to my soul, my mind, my body & my emotions. I wouldn't be praying this prayer if it weren't for your healing touch. I praise you in your precious name. Amen. Healing this side of heaven is a foreshadowing of the complete healing that awaits us. Amen. 
 November 18~ They shall celebrate the fame of your abundant goodness & shalt sing aloud of your righteousness. Mary said, " My soul magnifies the Lord & my spirit rejoices in God my Savior.... for the Mighty One has done great things for me & holy is his name. His mercy is for those who fear him from generation to generation. He has shown strength with his arm; he has scattered the proud in the thoughts down the powerful from their thrones & lifted up the lowly; he has filled the hungry with good things. It is a blessing in itself to celebrate God's goodness. The Bible records a number of the faithful who broke into ecstatic praise when God did good things in their lives; Moses, Miriam, Hannah, David, Mary, Elizabeth & Paul, as well as other apostles. Go ahead! You're in good company! Amen.
 November 19~ Surely the righteous shall give thanks to your name; the upright shall live in your presence. Thank you for the righteousness I have in you, Lord Jesus. you have granted me the status of a righteous person in your redemption & you are transforming me in righteous living as I walk with you by your Spirit. I give you thanks for things----these amazing mysteries of your grace of which I am a blessed recipient. To live with you, now & forever, is the crowning glory of this journey. Blessed be your name, Lord Jesus! We walk daily by faith in Christ's presence until the moment we stand eternally before him, finally able to feast our eyes on his wondrous form. Amen.
 November 20~ Your name, O Lord, endures forever, your renown, O lord, throughout all ages. From the Creation to the Judgement, you will cause your name to be exalted among all the peoples of the earth. I do not even know the names of my relatives three generations ago, but I know your name, you who revealed yourself at the dawn of time to the first man & woman. I worship you today, Great One! I'm humbled when I think of such things as this. Speaking of fame & renown...... The Bible is still the all time best-selling book of the ages! Amen.
 November 21~ I give you thanks, O Lord, with my whole heart.....for your steadfast love & your faithfulness; for you have exalted your name & your word above everything. I praise you, almighty God. You are the Creator & Maker of all that is good & holy. I exalt your name & bow before your majesty. Your love for me are indeed wonderful & your words to me are indeed glorious. I sing your praises with this humble prayer now & forever. Amen. In a more rapidly changing world than ever, the unchangeableness of God---his faithfulness & his mercy---are precious realities on which we gratefully stand firm. Amen.
Wow... Mom is all caught up now. That was several prayers that I was behind. The night sky is upon us & there will not be any stars or moon shining bright for me to see. That is ok because I will whisper to you as I always do each & every night. Be listening for my voice & I will smile. I hope you will too. I will close my eyes & imagine your sweet face. I miss you so much, Tyler. Every day is tough & difficult but there are days that I drown in missing you. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Mom hopes that you have a peaceful night doing all the things you need & want to do. Please come visit me tonight in my dreams. Take away the nightmares that Mom has been having. Thank you! Please continue to watch over us all like I know you do. Continue to fly high & free. Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You are 7 always will be my everything! Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S. Tyler~ Mom is so excited to say that I have hit over 24,000 views on my blog & letters to you. I just wanted to say a BIG Thank You to all who continue to read them daily. It means a lot to me. Hugs going out to everyone in the United States, France, Germany, Portugal, India, Kenya, Mexico, Poland, & Canada! Love to you all xoxo.