Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? Mom has not had the best of a day today but I am doing ok right now. Last night I really didn't get any sleep again & boy I am feeling it all day today. Mom has just not been herself at all. I feel weird & funny... like I am here but I am not kind of thing. I really didn't do much of anything at all because I just couldn't stay focus most of the time. I know I am tired, that is a given but it is something more than that. Just can't put my finger on it. Mom pretty much listened to music most of the day on my computer. I did talk to Auntie Kristina, Debbie & Charlie briefly on the phone. Mark left early this morning...around 7 am & it is now after 5 pm & I haven't heard from him all day. I thought he would be home well before this but I guess it is going to be a long day / night for him & same thing for tomorrow. Mom wanted to write to you really quick before I need to go feed the pups & also get something for dinner for myself tonight. 
 Nothing is really new for updates for you today. I spoke to Grandpa briefly last night & I told him that I would call him tonight along with Meme. I guess I will have some more updates for you later in the week. Mark & Mom were suppose to go to NH for the weekend but as of this morning that has changed. We will be staying home & we will try again another weekend. I am bummed out about it but really there is nothing that can be done. It is a part of life....the ups, the downs, the happy times, the sad times, the disappointments, etc..... Mom just remembered.... I did have a conversation with your friend Sam....She spoke to me about a week or so ago that she was having some issues medically. She spoke of them again today. She is having a very tough time right now with everything in her life. I told her that I would be here for her if she needed someone to talk to & I also said that I would ask if you could please just watch over her & help her out. Mom knows you will as she was such a good friend to you. She misses you a lot. Many people miss you but no one misses you more than Mom does! 
 Here is your daily prayer for today: November 2~ I will give thanks to the Lord with my whole heart; I will tell of all your wonderful deeds. What would it look like for me to give you thanks with my whole heart, Lord? I want to offer a thank offering like that to you, one that I am excited to give & that comes from the bottom of my heart. Please stir my heart toward that end, as you open up the wellspring of gratitude in my heart, I will meditate on & talk about all the ways you have blessed me from the earliest years of my life up to this present moment. Gratitude has eyes to see the subtlest shade of blessing, the ability to feel even the gentlest touch of God's goodness. Amen.
 The evening sky is almost upon us now. The sky is getting dark. The weather today was so nice. It was partly cloudy with sunny peaking through every once in awhile. The temp was 68 degrees. It was nice. I thought for sure that Mom would see a sunset of some sort as it has been days since the last one, but nothing again tonight. That stinks! Don't think I will be seeing any stars or the moon shining bright either again. Hopefully one night soon I will. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for Mom's voice. Smile & I will too. Mom hopes that you night is everything you want & need it to be. Come be with me tonight or come visit me in my dreams if you can. Have fun while I try to sleep. Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I miss you like crazy & my love for you will forever be unconditional. Good night my sweet precious son. Sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....I love you, Tyler.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!