Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! Happy Thanksgiving to you in Heaven today. Yes it is another holiday without you & Mom is not really having the best of day today. Many family & friends are gathering around the table having a holiday feast, sharing stories, remembering old times, making new memories, laughing & enjoying their time together. Not here I am afraid. The weather up North is a winter mix of snow, sleet & rain which prevented us from going to visit family & friends today. We are home & treating it as another day. Mark is not a holiday person at all & never has been. He prefers to have this day & every holiday to be nonexistence. As you know Mom has always been a holiday person but since I lost you I still like to decorate & be with family & friends but it is just very different for me. Sadness replaces the happiness Mom once had. I guess it is just too hard to put into words for anyone to really understand what I am trying to say. Mom has basically shut down & has not been on social media much at all today. I don't want to see pictures of families or hearing about all the good times today, etc.... I am not trying to be bitter in the least it is I just don't really want to deal with any of it. Later today Mom will be watching the Cowboys play & then make a small dinner for Mark & I. I will watch tv for most of the night & maybe have a nice glass of wine to relax. Then I will go to bed. That is about the excitement of my day. It's a 3 day weekend as well & Mom is planning to just go shopping Friday & Saturday to see if I can get all the Christmas shopping done all at once. Don't have much left to buy but I would love to be ahead of the game & finish it up! I think Sunday will be a day of just doing nothing at all....just hanging around & being lazy! Monday will be the start of me getting back into the swing of my studying routine again. I really need to crack the books if I want to graduate in May. I have a final coming up & then it is another class. I know that you continue to be with Mom every step of the way. Thank you my sweet precious son! I miss you so much & I love you unconditionally. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. 
 Mom spoke to Meme, Bob, Grandpa, Debbie, Bean, Aunt Beck yesterday & today. Our family is not doing anything on Thanksgiving really. Bean actually was making dinner for some friends & her husband today. Aunt Beck was going somewhere & everyone else was staying home because of the weather that I had told you about already. As you can see... things are just all over the place, they are crazy just like they always were with us. Mom does not have much else for updates but I am sure I will come the weekend. Mom does have a couple daily prayers for you though that I need to get caught up with so here they are:
 November 22~ Great are the works of the Lord, studied by all who delight in them. I study my own hand, dear Lord----how it moves, the way my fingers & thumb work together. How amazing the design! How wise you are! And I could study it in more depth from a textbook & my wonder would only increase. Thank you for revealing your greatness in so many ways----both to the casual observer & the scholar. We all delight in your knowledge, insight, & power. To study even a single cell is to know that there is a supreme God. Amen.
 November 23~ For the Lord will vindicate his people & have compassion on his servants. Thank you for your compassion, dear Lord. Thank you that you have seen my predicament & shown your mercy to me. Thank you for vindicating me from my enemy, the devil, by bringing your redemption where he had incited rebellion against you & had introduced slavery to sin. By your compassion you have saved me from my rebellion & by your mercy you have set me free from my sin. Thank you, Lord! I praise your name forever! " Free at last, Free at last! Thank God Almighty, I'm free at last! " Amen.
 November 24~ Enter his gates with thanksgiving & his courts with praise. Give thanks to him, bless his name. I want to come to you, into your presence, with praise on my lips right now, my Lord. How well you deserve it! How sad it would be for me to sweep aside your many blessings to focus only on the problems of the day! I won't do that. Instead, I'll praise you. There will be time for addressing the concerns I have, but I will set my soul & my lips free to thank you & to bless your name. Gratitude is the most exquisite form of courtesy. Amen.
 Mom is all caught up. The night sky is almost upon us & I know that nothing will be shining in the sky. The day here was cloudy & overcast & the evening sky is just the same. We are going to be getting rain here soon for the next several days. Doesn't matter as Mom will be whispering to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice. I will try to smile tonight. I hope you will too. Mom hopes that your evening is filled with all the things you need & want it to be. Have fun tonight while I sleep. Come visit Mom if you can. I would really like that. Thank you, pumpkin! Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow..... Happy Heavenly Thanksgiving. I miss you so & I love you beyond words.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!