Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this very rainy Tuesday night? Mom is doing well. Didn't sleep all that much but hopefully I will tonight. The weather today is just cold & miserable outside. The wind is whipping like crazy & the rain is really coming down. Mark was saying that his drive home was pretty bad. You could barely see the road. Mom can just hear the rain coming down while I am typing to you. Nights like these remind me of when you were just a toddler & you wanted Mom to read you a story out of your Disney Baby Book..... I don't remember it at all really but your favorite was the one that said" The rain taps my windows, the rain taps my door, it's raining on my house, is it raining on yours? " You used to laugh & laugh at that one for some reason. Just thinking about it is making me smile & laugh. I can see your sweet innocent face in my head. I am sure that you know exactly what I am talking about too. I know you are smiling remembering that thought like Mom!
 Mom's day was basically spent in front of the computer & on the phone. I spoke to Meme, Auntie Kristina & a couple friends. I was so absorbed in everything this afternoon that when Mark called to tell me he was on his way home... I then remembered that I never made the beef stew that we were suppose to have for dinner tonight. So to say the least we ordered pizza tonight & the beef stew will be tomorrow night. I just can't believe that I did that as that is not usual for Mom. Oh well... it was good for a laugh, I suppose. Mom just spoke to Grandpa. He is all happy that we will be there next week for Thanksgiving Day. It won't be what we wanted for a stay but at lease we will see everyone for a few hours! This Saturday, I believe that they are coming here for a few hours as well. I will get to see Grandpa, Debbie & also Andrea, her wife & their son, Christian. I can't wait. Its been almost 2 years since we saw them. I miss them all so much. I miss you more than anything though. I miss everything but you know that & you can feel that in your soul. We have unconditional love for each other that will never go away. I love you beyond any words my sweet precious son. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. 
 Mom hopes that you have a restful night if that is the way you want it to be. If you want adventure then I hope you have that. If you have things you need to do & may want to do then I hope you get the chance to do everything. Please come & visit Mom tonight though. I always love that. I need you by my side at all times. Thank you, Tyler. Mom will look to the sky tonight but I don't think I will see anything as it has been cloudy & rainy all day. There has not been a sunset in about a week now either. I sure am missing your " paintings " in the sky! Hope to see one soon again. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. I will smile & I know you will too. Before I close this letter I have 3 daily prayers to write out to you so here they are:
 November 13~ The Lord has done great things for us, and we rejoice. I want to take this minute, my Lord, to recite back to you as many things as I can think of that you have done for me this day, this wee, this month, this past year. You have done great things for me! May a spirit of rejoicing rise up in me as I fill the air with testimonies of all the miracles, graces & blessings you've poured out on my life. Always give thanks to the Lord in the manner you appreciate receiving God's blessings---sincerely, thoughtfully & with exceeding joy. Amen.
 November 14~ May those who sow in tears reap with shouts of joy. Thank you, almighty Father, for the " reaping times " of joy after periods of difficulty, hard work, or sorrow. When the dark times engulf me, please keep my heart faithful to you so that I will not miss the inevitable outcome of restoration & rejoicing. Let my love for you be tempered & matured in the seasons of sorrow so that my joy may be made complete in that love, fully ripened at harvest time. The best way to show our gratitude to God & the people is to accept everything with joy. A joyful heart is the inevitable result of a heart burning with love. Amen.
 November 15~ Sing to the Lord, bless his name; tell of his salvation from day to day. There are so many ways your salvation comes to me, my Savior. I truly can speak of it from day to day. You have kept me safe from death on my journey to understanding your grace. You have saved me from bad decisions & mistakes, whether that means rescuing me after making them or keeping me from them in the first place. You protect me in the course of the day, often in ways I don't see, but when I lie down, I feel safe from harm at night because of your presence. Your salvation surrounds me, Lord. May I speak of it whenever & wherever I see or experience it. To be saved by God is no small thing; not that it is a difficult thing for him, but it is an extremely gracious act on his part. To understand that I don't deserve this gift of salvation is the first step in knowing how to be truly grateful for it. Amen. 
 Mom is all caught up. I am going to go relax for a few before I need to get some sleep. I guess I will watch a couple of my shows that I taped. Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. I love you. Until tomorrow.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!