Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom definitely has had better days than today but I will pull through like I always do. It will just take some time. I wasn't sure if I wanted to write to you right now or perhaps later as my emotions are running high but I figured what better time to actually write while my emotions are so raw. I know you have been watching exactly what has been going on.... I know you see Mom has been upset & hurting but I want you to know that I will indeed be ok. Like everything else time will heal all wounds. How much time will be the question but I will be ok....maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow but some time down the road Mom will be. I have always been one to be honest as lying gets no one no where but sometimes hearing someone being brutally honest with you slaps you in the face & stings like hell. That is what is happening. I have to have nothing but respect for this person for being honest with me but dang sometimes...no all the time it hurts. Words hurt as you know but I guess it is better to hear it all now then later down the road. No sugar coating anything...at least that is what we used to say, right? Anyways.... I could go on & on about this matter that Mom is going through but I won't. I just want you to know that as the days go by things will get better. I know this because you will be right by my side & you will be helping your Momma out. Thank you my sweet precious son. I love you with all my heart & soul. 
 The weather again today has been so rainy & cool. It is just nasty outside. It is dark as ever out again. It was like this yesterday too. Mom will be looking forward to tomorrow when the weather is actually 57 degrees & the sun will be shining. I can't believe that it will also be December 1st. Time is flying by & before we know it, it will be another new year. Another year without you. It makes me so sad to even think of this so I won't right now. 
 Mom is sure to have some updates for you in the coming days but unfortunately I have none for you at the moment. I thought Grandpa would call last night but he didn't so maybe tonight. I do know that Uncle Dick went in for surgery today on his arm. Haven't heard anything on that though. Hope everything went well. I think that maybe it has been a good thing for Mom not talking to anyone as honestly I have not been in the mood. Here is the daily prayer for today though. 
 November 30~ Happy are those people whose God is the Lord. I've said it before & I'll say it again, dear Lord: You are my greatest benefit & blessing. When I think of belonging to you, I get lost in the amazement of that thought. You have made me glad in your care. You have made me hope in your salvation. You have made me believe in your promises. You have made me to love you because you first loved me. What more could I want? God has me his own; he calls me his child; he promises me eternity with him in his heavenly home. I trust in him; we delight in each other. That is what it means to me that God is my Father. Amen.
Wow, that is the last pray for the month of November. Guess it is surreal to me still that its the last month of 2016. Well, Tyler... the night sky is upon us & Mom needs to go & prep dinner now. Maybe later I will relax & watch TV but for the time being I have things to do. I will be looking to the sky later but I don't think I will see anything as it is still raining. I know you are shining bright for someone to see it in the sky. Smile when you hear my voice & I will try to smile as well. Mom hopes your night is full of fun & adventure as I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you. Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Good night & sweet dreams Tyler. I love you my sweet precious son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!