Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom has been quite busy today & it is getting late but I wanted to write to you a really quick letter seeings how I did not do one last night. Monday was kinda busy for Mom as I did a lot of rearranging in the apartment & getting little things done that I have been putting off for a bit. Later last night we had a late dinner & then we watch TV for a couple hours. We went to bed early because Mark & Mom both knew that today would be a busy day & indeed it has been. Mom was up early & did some housework, laundry, got ready & then hit the books & studied all day long. I have not done this in over a month & I have to say it felt great! I feel pretty accomplished with reading 4 chapters & submitting 2 exams. My grades were pretty good. A 90 on one of them & a 95 on the other. I am happy with those as I am still doing the Advanced Math. Tomorrow Mom will be reading her last 2 chapters & later starting a final exam. Hopefully by Friday I will have submitted that & my 2nd semester will start! Not much else has been going on here in the last couple days. Mom spoke to Auntie Kristina for a bit yesterday & Meme. I am sure I will be speaking to Grandpa either tonight or tomorrow. Yesterday I was a bit upset at a couple things but after talking to someone I felt a lot better. Mom is realizing that every day things change for the better or the worse. People grow, people drift apart... sometimes for the good & sometimes for the bad. Mom is actually experiencing this right now. Some hurtful things have happened & have been said by someone & I said some things right back to them. Am I proud of it? Not all but some things I don't take back. I was hurt, actually very hurt by one person & Mom needs time to just take it all in, have space to move forward & get on with my life. That is exactly what I am doing. I am keeping my distance & letting the dust settle. Maybe somewhere down the road the two of us can talk & become friends again but I don't think it will happen any time soon at all. Too many things have been said & have happened. Wounds are too raw at this point. Makes me sad but I know it is happening for a reason. I also know you are right beside Mom & helping me through it all. For that I thank you. Mom really wishes you were here though as I could use your advice & pep talk about all this. You would make me see things from a different perspective I am sure. I miss your voice, your laugh, your smile. I miss you so much. If only I could actually put it into words for people to know just how much. I love you like crazy & unconditionally. You were & always will be my everything. You are in my heart,mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. 
 Mom needs to get going in a few. I need to get off my computer & let my eyes rest for the night. I am pretty tired as well. I know I will not be seeing anything in the sky tonight as it has been raining heavy all day & the wind is just terrible. We have been getting gusts up to 50 mph. It is terrible. The day has been so dark that we had to have lights on to see. Mom will whisper to you as I always do tonight so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too! Before I go though I want to write the daily prayers that I need catching up on. Here they are:  November 28~ How very good & pleasant it is when kindred live together in unity. In this season of family get-togethers, my heavenly Father, I thank you for the good things about my family. And, Lord, where there are family challenges & strife, I pray that you would intervene. Please soften their hearts, change minds, grant grace & forgiveness....even miracles! Heal our broken relationships, dear Father & protect our healthy ones. Let unity ultimately prevail-----but not a thin, superficial unity that could break at any moment. Please forge an unbreakable unity within our hearts by your righteousness & peace. In Christ's name, I pray. Amen. Grace, forgiveness & love are essential ingredients for unity among believers. Amen.
 November 29~ May you be blessed by the Lord, who made heaven & earth. My Lord, you made heaven & earth. You made them by speaking them into existence. When you created the heavens & the earth, you declared them good. You do all things well. Every blessing from your hand is a good & perfect gift. O, help me hold in gratitude what you give me today! Please keep me from losing what you have given me & may I be ready to share the bounty of your blessings with those around me. In the name of your precious Son, I pray. Amen. The real issue in life is not how many blessings we have, but what we do with our blessings. Some people have many blessings & hoard them. Some have few & give everything away. Amen.
Mom is all caught up again. Hope that you have a fun night tonight while Mom is sleeping. May it be all that you need & want it to be my sweet precious son! Come be with Mom if you can as well. I really would love that. I need you, Tyler. Thank you. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!