Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? Mom honestly was not going to write a letter to you tonight because my head is in such a fog but I decided that I would write you a small one. Today started out as a typical Monday. Mark worked & i was going to do some studying but then I looked outside the window & saw that it had snowed a bit & then changed to sleet & freezing rain. Mom decided to take a " snow day. "  I did so things around the apartment, did laundry, etc... & finished up my Christmas Shopping online. Later on tonight Mom received a phone call that just left me speechless. For once I didn't know what to say, I just listened. I stayed strong on the telephone but after I hung it up I sure did have a good cry. I know you saw me, Tyler. I know you know what is going on. Please please please watch over this person for Mom. It would mean so much to me. Thank you. Mom doesn't have any other updates for you other than I did get the chance to speak to Aunt Beck. That was a wonderful conversation. That made me smile a lot. She always has the knack to help Mom put things into perspective & help me see things in a different way, from other side. I need that at times. She definitely keeps me on my toes! maybe later in the week I will have more updates for you. It is pretty late here & Mom is kind of tired but I wonder if I will sleep tonight. If you can, please be with me through the night so I can sleep. Mom has a busy day tomorrow & lots of studying to do. Mom is hoping that your night will be all that you need & want it to be. Hope you get to go somewhere & have an adventure or 2. Please remember that you will forever be in my heart, mind & soul. You really are my true hero & the wind beneath my wings. I miss you so much & I wish that I could see you face to face, to hear your voice telling me everything is going to be ok. I love you so much. Unconditionally.....to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Before I end this short letter I wanted to write to you the daily prayers that I missed for yesterday & tonight. Here they are:
 December 4~ You are a hiding place for me; you preserve me from trouble; you surround me with glad cries of deliverance. Dear Lord, it's a jungle out there. Everyone's rushing to meet their own needs, oblivious to anyone else's. People can be downright mean. They insult & slander me. Even when people act nice, I always wonder how sincere they are. Are they just waiting for me to slip up? But, Lord, I know I can come to you for genuine support. When life is at its craziest, let me hide in you for a while. Speak peace to me with your Spirit, Surround me with others who know what I'm going through. Heal me & renew my energy. Hiding is both bad & good in the Bible. Adam & Eve hid from God in the Garden, but Rahab did well to hide the Israelite spies in Jericho, Hiding from God is a major problem, but when we flee from harm by hiding in God, it's truly a blessing! Amen.
 December 5~Truly the eye of the Lord is on those who fear him, on those who hope in his steadfast love. When I think of your having your eye on me, I picture a stern teacher warning some misbehaving child. But that's not really the right picture, is it, Lord? Maybe you are more like the mother who watches her child playing in the park. She lets the child play, but she's always mindful of her child. If her child skins a knee or is in danger, Mom swoops in to help. In the same way, your eye is on me, heavenly Father, & I thank you. Then again I think of a loving couple having dinner together. The food hardly gets touched because their eyes are on each other. Could that be the relationship that you & I have-----my gaze riveted on you & your eyes enjoying me? Then the Lord said, " I have observed the misery of my people who are in Egypt; I have heard their cry on account of their taskmasters. Indeed, I know their sufferings. " Amen.
 Mom is all caught up. I will look to the sky in a little bit to see if I see anything shining bright. I don't think I will because of the cloudiness in the sky we had all day. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I sure will try tonight to smile back. Please forgive me if I don't though. It has nothing to do with you my sweet precious son. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow...... I love you.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!