Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Wednesday night? As you can see Mom has not had a very good day at all. Everything went wrong very early this morning between my friend & I. Things were going so well...we were laughing, joking, talking & then 1 thing was said, Mom made a comment & it turned into a big argument. To say the least it didn't get better this morning either, actually it got worse. It did not end well at all either. As sad as it is & the things that were said to me....I don't have to like them at all but I will do 1 thing & I will respect his wishes. He told me we wouldn't talk again & that is exactly what will happen. Unfortunately his words stung & hurt me & there is just no turning back. Neither of us need to continue to be hurt. We will part as being friends. I wish him well. Everything happens for a reason, right???? That is what I will continue to believe. One of Mom's friends call me & we had a good talk. Things he said made so much sense to me. It was really good advice that's for sure. Mom is hurt as you can see but I will be ok. I just need you to know this. I know you don't like seeing me the way you did today. Wish you were hear so we could talk, so I could hear your thoughts about this whole ordeal. Anything you want to tell me please send me a sign. I would really love that so much. Thank you my sweet precious son. 
 Today was my friends son's surgery. I texted her early this morning & she will be getting in touch with me later. Mom has prayed that everything goes well for him. It breaks my heart as it takes me back 20 years with you. It sure is not easy being a parent at all.....definitely not during these times. I know you are watching over them all for me. Thank you, Tyler. 
 Mom got to speak to Meme & Grandpa today so that was nice. Grandpa & Debbie are supposed to come down Saturday but it now depends on the weather. It so hard to try & do anything during the winter months but that's New England weather for you. You remember those winter months....they were awful for you but we always made the best of it! I miss those times. I miss you like crazy. More than words can say. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. 
 This is where I usually write the daily prayers to you. I know I promised to catch up on them all on tonight's letter to you but I have to break that promise as I am not on my office computer. I am writing this letter to you on my cell phone & it is too difficult to do those prayers on such a small screen. I am sorry for that but tomorrow I will be on my office computer & I can do all the 5 that I am so behind. Please forgive me. 
 The night sky is upon us & the sky is clear. I have been seeing the stars & moon the last couple of nights & it sure does make Mom smile. Thank you for that. I will look to the sky later to see if I see them again. I will whisper to you as I always do so be sure to listen for my voice. Smile & I will too. Continue to fly high & free. Please watch over us all like I know you do. Mom hopes your night is all that you want & need it to be. Have fun while I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. Good night & sweetdreams. Until tomorrow..... I love you, unconditionally.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah