Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? If Mom told you that I was doing good I would be lying so I will say that I am doing better than I was earlier this morning. Some things went down with a friend of mine....we exchanged some pretty harsh words to one another & then there was nothing. I did try to get in touch with them through text messaging but I receive no response back. I did try calling to make sure everything was ok but there was no answer & I did not leave a message. Later in the afternoon I don't know why a bell went off in my head several hours later realizing that my " friend " deleted & blocked me on social media. That hadn't even crossed my mind at all. Sure we have argued & said things we both didn't really mean but it has never come down to this. To say the least Mom is hurt, sad & it's a big slap in the face for what has been done, but I can not dwell on it as there is nothing I can do. This person made the decision to do this & now they are the ones who have to live with that. Life is painful at times like you know. People change, people drift apart in friendships, relationships or whatever it may be & I guess this is one of those times. The sting of it is very prominent at this time but as the days go by I am sure it will be better. I know you see Mom sad & just know that in time I will be ok. 
 Today was another day that I didn't do anything. This is day 3 & I am seeing that I am falling right back into a bad spot. I was actually going to deactivate all my social media stuff but Mark told me I would be silly to do that as I use that to keep in touch with so many people. I was surprised as he dislikes all that social media thing altogether. I really listened to what he said & so many other friends advice that I decided to listen to them all & not have a stubborn head for once. I will keep everything going but I will be self-disciplining myself to how often I go on it. I really need to get back into the mindset of studying & college if I want to graduate in May. If I kept going the way I am these past couple months I would not meet my goal & boy I would be very disappointed as I have been working so hard. Mom did a couple things around the apartment today but really just stayed really quiet & kept to myself. All in all it has been a day that I would like over with & just forget all about it. Tonight Mom is just going to cuddle up with a blanket & watch a movie after I make dinner & do the night routine. It will be bed early tonight so that i can start my morning off right & hit the books! I want you to be proud of Mom. I want to be proud of myself, but that needs more work. More time for that to blossom. 
 I have no updates for you at all but I do have the daily prayer for today. Here it is: December 7~ Great is our Lord & abundant in power; his understanding is beyond measure. Almighty God, when I watch a quality TV show or movie, I marvel at the way the writer weaves everything together. The character faced some problem at the beginning that turns out to be a benefit in the end. The plot unfolds perfectly so that the final resolution is surprising, yet somehow obvious. Sometimes my life is like that too, only you are the author. I'm amazed at your understanding & the way you take different elements of my my character, good & bad & weave them into something eternally valuable. Struggles of my past lead to victories in my future. It's hard to keep up with you moment by moment but every so often I look back & cry out " Wow! " O the depth of the riches & wisdom & knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgments & how inscrutable his ways! Amen.
 The evening sky is upon us now. It has been for about 2 hours. I don't think i will be seeing anything in the sky shining bright as it has been cloudy & rainy all day. I guess it is suppose to be that way for the next couple days. Regardless Mom will whisper to you as I always do. I hope that your night is everything you want it to be, need it to be & more. Come visit me tonight while I sleep. Mom could use several hours of sleep as I have not been doing so for a few nights now. Please continue to watch over us as I know you always do. Thank you my sweet precious son. You will forever be in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & the wind beneath my wings. I miss you more than words can say. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. My love for you is unconditional. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow, Tyler.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!