Tuesday, January 31, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is writing to you early as I have a few things that need to get done this afternoon plus have dinner prepped & made early as Mark has to work tonight again. He wasn't suppose to but this morning he received a message from his boss saying that he had to be doing a night job again tonight. Nothing like giving any notice for him but as Mark says...that is part of his job..... honestly I dislike his job when it comes to things like this but on the other hand we are blessed that he has a job & can support us. I try not to get angry or upset that often as I should be used to his line of work by now but sometimes it is easier said than done. He works a lot & long hours at that & Mom is lonely at times. We have been here 3 years now & I don't have 1 friend here. People come & go so quickly around this place...just like Oklahoma & Texas. It is a revolving door for the most part. All of the folks that lived here when we moved in are now gone & we know no one. It makes it hard for Mom as I am such a " people person. " Even when I take the pups for walks... I rarely ever seen anyone. Makes for long days & even longer nights when Mark is away. Well enough of that depressing stuff...lol....
The weather here was so sunny & nice this morning & just 4 hours later it turned overcast & cloudy & the temps dropped several degrees & it is snowing. It is going to be doing this until sometime tomorrow morning. We have a couple back to back storms coming this weekend too....Saturday into Sunday & a big one Monday into Tuesday. February seems to be the month that we get all the snow dumped on us or at least it has been that way for the last 2 winters. Mom is counting down to the days until Spring! There are 48 days...lol! I have not spoken to anyone at all since Sunday. The phone did ring last night & it was Grandpa but Mom was already in bed at 8 pm so I didn't answer the phone. I will touch base with him later this evening when I am alone. Hopefully I will have some kind of exciting news or updates for you in the next few days. Right now it is just quiet here.
Here is the daily prayer for the last day of January......January 31~ Blessed be the Lord, for he has heard the sound of my pleadings. Thank you for hearing my prayers, dear Lord & for being attentive to my needs & requests. Help me remember to speak often of the ways you have brought me help, deliverance, blessing & encouragement. I want my gratitude & praise to bless you, today & always. I love you! My need to pray increases as I realize how small I am; my desire to pray increases as I realize how great God is. Amen.
Here is a saying that Mom likes: " It isn't as small as it once was, but honestly, the world needs more of you. You look in the mirror like you've done something wrong, but you look perfect. Anyone who says otherwise is telling a lie, to make you feel weak & you know better. You've survived every single day for as long as you've been alive... You could spit fire if you wanted. "
Well pumpkin Mom needs to get going for now so I can get some things done before I need to do the night routine early. I hope that later your night is all that you need & want it to be. May you have fun while Mom sleeps tonight. I will whisper to you later so be listening out for my voice. Know that you live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you like crazy & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Until tomorrow......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is writing to you early as I have a few things that need to get done this afternoon plus have dinner prepped & made early as Mark has to work tonight again. He wasn't suppose to but this morning he received a message from his boss saying that he had to be doing a night job again tonight. Nothing like giving any notice for him but as Mark says...that is part of his job..... honestly I dislike his job when it comes to things like this but on the other hand we are blessed that he has a job & can support us. I try not to get angry or upset that often as I should be used to his line of work by now but sometimes it is easier said than done. He works a lot & long hours at that & Mom is lonely at times. We have been here 3 years now & I don't have 1 friend here. People come & go so quickly around this place...just like Oklahoma & Texas. It is a revolving door for the most part. All of the folks that lived here when we moved in are now gone & we know no one. It makes it hard for Mom as I am such a " people person. " Even when I take the pups for walks... I rarely ever seen anyone. Makes for long days & even longer nights when Mark is away. Well enough of that depressing stuff...lol....
The weather here was so sunny & nice this morning & just 4 hours later it turned overcast & cloudy & the temps dropped several degrees & it is snowing. It is going to be doing this until sometime tomorrow morning. We have a couple back to back storms coming this weekend too....Saturday into Sunday & a big one Monday into Tuesday. February seems to be the month that we get all the snow dumped on us or at least it has been that way for the last 2 winters. Mom is counting down to the days until Spring! There are 48 days...lol! I have not spoken to anyone at all since Sunday. The phone did ring last night & it was Grandpa but Mom was already in bed at 8 pm so I didn't answer the phone. I will touch base with him later this evening when I am alone. Hopefully I will have some kind of exciting news or updates for you in the next few days. Right now it is just quiet here.
Here is the daily prayer for the last day of January......January 31~ Blessed be the Lord, for he has heard the sound of my pleadings. Thank you for hearing my prayers, dear Lord & for being attentive to my needs & requests. Help me remember to speak often of the ways you have brought me help, deliverance, blessing & encouragement. I want my gratitude & praise to bless you, today & always. I love you! My need to pray increases as I realize how small I am; my desire to pray increases as I realize how great God is. Amen.
Here is a saying that Mom likes: " It isn't as small as it once was, but honestly, the world needs more of you. You look in the mirror like you've done something wrong, but you look perfect. Anyone who says otherwise is telling a lie, to make you feel weak & you know better. You've survived every single day for as long as you've been alive... You could spit fire if you wanted. "
Well pumpkin Mom needs to get going for now so I can get some things done before I need to do the night routine early. I hope that later your night is all that you need & want it to be. May you have fun while Mom sleeps tonight. I will whisper to you later so be listening out for my voice. Know that you live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you like crazy & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Until tomorrow......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, January 30, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday night? Mom is feeling better but still tired. t least I am able to function today. Mom is actually writing to you while dinner is cooking tonight. I had to prep everything earlier as it takes a bit to cook. Mom made homemade bread ( 2 loaves ) & homemade lasagna. Yup... I can see you know crinkling your nose at it. I know you loved the bread but not the lasagna. Just thinking about it makes me chuckle. Today was a fairly busy day for Mom. I finished up the rest of my lesson & did the assignment & the quiz. Another 100% on it. Wednesday is another new lesson. It will be # 5. I have 7 more to go in 3 weeks. I got this! I know you are right near Mom. The end of this lesson today was kind of hard for me as so much of it reminded me of you & the last few hours that you were physically here. I held back the tears but boy I wanted to cry. I am trying really hard to do my best at " moving forward " as you want Mom too. It is extremely hard & there are days that just are not good but I am doing the best I can. I hope that you can see Mom's progress even if they are indeed baby steps. Mark was able to work from home today. Not sure if he is still feeling under the weather or not. He hasn't said much at all today as he has been busy on the phone with his clients. Hopefully he has a slower week than last so he can recuperate from all the travel & late nights last week.
Mom got to chat with Auntie Kristina today for a bit. Things are well with her or at least they are the best to be expected. I also chatted with Uncle Chris. Him & Lacie are going to come for a visit this weekend. They will be here on Saturday & stay until Sunday evening. It will be nice to see them as we haven't for several months now. Mom is looking forward to it & I am sure it will be fun. I did not get the chance to speak to Grandpa last night but I know that he worked late so I am sure he was tired when he got home. I did speak to Meme though. All is well there. Mom hasn't heard anything from Aunt Beck so I guess that means she is in the jungle now for a couple weeks. I don't expect to hear anything for another couple weeks. I know you are with her & making sure she is safe. Thank you my sweet precious son. Thank you for watching over us all like you do. I am sure it is not an easy thing to do but I know you do it because you love us as we love & miss you so much. Not much else to add to updates for you but hopefully as the week progresses I will have things for you. I do have a couple daily prayers again to write to you so here they are: January 29~ Wait for the Lord; be strong & let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord! Dear Lord, you know that waiting doesn't suit me when I think something should be happening right now. But thank you for reminding me today that I don't see the whole picture as you do. Help me to not simply endure as I wait but rather to pluck up courage & live in an attitude of faith-filled anticipation of your good plan that is unfolding in your perfect timing. I want to praise you for that too. Absolutely everything you do is excellent! Waiting rooms of life are incubators of patience & trust, cocoons in which our struggling earthbound spirits develop wings of faith. Amen.
January 30~ " Come, " my heart says, " seek his face! " Your face, Lord, do I seek. When I wake up, you know my first thoughts, my Lord. You know what brings a smile to my face, what makes me groan & what motivates me to throw the covers back & get going. But before I go meet any of the pains or pleasures of the day, please remind me to look to you & to seek out your encouragement, counsel & strength. How much better my days are when I take your face & follow you through each hour! I seek your face right now & thank you for being here for me. God is not hiding that we need to seek him. No, the problem is that we are often wandering far afield from where he waits for us. We have to leave our cities of selfishness, fairs of foolishness & palaces of pride to find him where he is always waiting for us---in the quiet halls of prayer. We must seek him there. Amen.
Mom is all caught up with those once again. The evening sky is upon us but I am pretty sure I will see nothing shining as the weather today has been overcast & very cloudy. I will look to the sky anyways & whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice & smile & Mom will too. I hope that your night is all that you want & need it to be for you. Have fun while I sleep tonight & come be with me. Thanks for visiting me in my dreams last night. I was so happy you did. I miss you so much, Tyler. I know you feel it so no words need to be expressed at all. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Remember that you are my true hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live forever in my heart, mind & soul. Mom needs to get going as dinner is almost ready but I will be back tomorrow night to write to you. Until then.... good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Here is my quote for the day: It's your road & yours alone. Others may walk it with you but no one can walk it for you. "
" In the end, we only regret the chances that we didn't take. "
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday night? Mom is feeling better but still tired. t least I am able to function today. Mom is actually writing to you while dinner is cooking tonight. I had to prep everything earlier as it takes a bit to cook. Mom made homemade bread ( 2 loaves ) & homemade lasagna. Yup... I can see you know crinkling your nose at it. I know you loved the bread but not the lasagna. Just thinking about it makes me chuckle. Today was a fairly busy day for Mom. I finished up the rest of my lesson & did the assignment & the quiz. Another 100% on it. Wednesday is another new lesson. It will be # 5. I have 7 more to go in 3 weeks. I got this! I know you are right near Mom. The end of this lesson today was kind of hard for me as so much of it reminded me of you & the last few hours that you were physically here. I held back the tears but boy I wanted to cry. I am trying really hard to do my best at " moving forward " as you want Mom too. It is extremely hard & there are days that just are not good but I am doing the best I can. I hope that you can see Mom's progress even if they are indeed baby steps. Mark was able to work from home today. Not sure if he is still feeling under the weather or not. He hasn't said much at all today as he has been busy on the phone with his clients. Hopefully he has a slower week than last so he can recuperate from all the travel & late nights last week.
Mom got to chat with Auntie Kristina today for a bit. Things are well with her or at least they are the best to be expected. I also chatted with Uncle Chris. Him & Lacie are going to come for a visit this weekend. They will be here on Saturday & stay until Sunday evening. It will be nice to see them as we haven't for several months now. Mom is looking forward to it & I am sure it will be fun. I did not get the chance to speak to Grandpa last night but I know that he worked late so I am sure he was tired when he got home. I did speak to Meme though. All is well there. Mom hasn't heard anything from Aunt Beck so I guess that means she is in the jungle now for a couple weeks. I don't expect to hear anything for another couple weeks. I know you are with her & making sure she is safe. Thank you my sweet precious son. Thank you for watching over us all like you do. I am sure it is not an easy thing to do but I know you do it because you love us as we love & miss you so much. Not much else to add to updates for you but hopefully as the week progresses I will have things for you. I do have a couple daily prayers again to write to you so here they are: January 29~ Wait for the Lord; be strong & let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord! Dear Lord, you know that waiting doesn't suit me when I think something should be happening right now. But thank you for reminding me today that I don't see the whole picture as you do. Help me to not simply endure as I wait but rather to pluck up courage & live in an attitude of faith-filled anticipation of your good plan that is unfolding in your perfect timing. I want to praise you for that too. Absolutely everything you do is excellent! Waiting rooms of life are incubators of patience & trust, cocoons in which our struggling earthbound spirits develop wings of faith. Amen.
January 30~ " Come, " my heart says, " seek his face! " Your face, Lord, do I seek. When I wake up, you know my first thoughts, my Lord. You know what brings a smile to my face, what makes me groan & what motivates me to throw the covers back & get going. But before I go meet any of the pains or pleasures of the day, please remind me to look to you & to seek out your encouragement, counsel & strength. How much better my days are when I take your face & follow you through each hour! I seek your face right now & thank you for being here for me. God is not hiding that we need to seek him. No, the problem is that we are often wandering far afield from where he waits for us. We have to leave our cities of selfishness, fairs of foolishness & palaces of pride to find him where he is always waiting for us---in the quiet halls of prayer. We must seek him there. Amen.
Mom is all caught up with those once again. The evening sky is upon us but I am pretty sure I will see nothing shining as the weather today has been overcast & very cloudy. I will look to the sky anyways & whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice & smile & Mom will too. I hope that your night is all that you want & need it to be for you. Have fun while I sleep tonight & come be with me. Thanks for visiting me in my dreams last night. I was so happy you did. I miss you so much, Tyler. I know you feel it so no words need to be expressed at all. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Remember that you are my true hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live forever in my heart, mind & soul. Mom needs to get going as dinner is almost ready but I will be back tomorrow night to write to you. Until then.... good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Here is my quote for the day: It's your road & yours alone. Others may walk it with you but no one can walk it for you. "
" In the end, we only regret the chances that we didn't take. "
Sunday, January 29, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom is not feeling all that great tonight but instead of not writing to you at all I wanted to at least tell you that I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. Mom is hoping to go to bed & get a good nights sleep so I will be ready to get up in the morning & study & write you a longer letter. Mark has been sick all weekend so I hope I am not coming down with what he has or had. Mom doesn't need that. I am going to take some medicine & call it a night even though it is only 8:30 pm. Please be with me & come visit Mom tonight while I am sleeping. Have a good evening yourself doing all the things you need & want to do. Mom will whisper to you in a little bit so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. I will do the daily prayers & Mom's quotes on tomorrows letter as well. Remember you forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul. I am so sorry, Tyler but Mom really needs to go for now. I really am not feeling well. Please forgive me. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom is not feeling all that great tonight but instead of not writing to you at all I wanted to at least tell you that I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. Mom is hoping to go to bed & get a good nights sleep so I will be ready to get up in the morning & study & write you a longer letter. Mark has been sick all weekend so I hope I am not coming down with what he has or had. Mom doesn't need that. I am going to take some medicine & call it a night even though it is only 8:30 pm. Please be with me & come visit Mom tonight while I am sleeping. Have a good evening yourself doing all the things you need & want to do. Mom will whisper to you in a little bit so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. I will do the daily prayers & Mom's quotes on tomorrows letter as well. Remember you forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul. I am so sorry, Tyler but Mom really needs to go for now. I really am not feeling well. Please forgive me. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Saturday, January 28, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday night? Mom has been crazy busy again today. I was up early & I did more laundry, gave both pups a bath, got ready & then I headed out to do errands that consisted of going to the mall to exchange a couple things & then grocery shop & do other shopping. I got home at 3:30 pm. Mark is sick today....hope I do not come down with it! The rest of my night will be Mom sitting on the couch & watching TV for a couple hours & then it will be time for me to go to bed as tomorrow will be kind of busy. I have to finish shopping & then go to an appointment for 12:30 pm. I won't be home until 4 pm or so. Crazy weekend for sure! Mom is feeling better today. I did a lot of thinking last night & some today. I have to figure everything out & make some changes for me to be happy. I did realize that some people that I thought were my friends are really not. They are what I call " fair weather friends "..... I am only good when they need someone to listen to them vent & anything else they may need but when the shoe is on the other foot & Mom needs someone to talk to or needs an opinion or advice they always say " they have to go " & they blow Mom off. Well... those tables are definitely have turned....not any longer. I am tired of the BS that goes with that & I will not tolerate it any longer or waste my time anymore. People can dislike me all they want to for this but oh well. I need to look out for myself & my true friends! Boy... I wish you were here! I could use a Tyler talk for sure. I would listen to your advice that you would give me & take it to heart. What I wouldn't do to hear your voice, to see your face & your smile. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Please never forget this.
This week has been so quiet. Mark was gone most of the days & half the nights & the phone hardly rang. I haven't even spoken to Grandpa all week & I just spoke to Meme today really quick. It is a little odd but I know they are fine. Guess we are all just busy. Today in the mail came Mom's Certificate for her Medical Coding & Billing course she took. I was really happy! I am now 1/2 way through my Medical Terminology II class & after that I will be back on track with my college classes. Hopefully by July...your Birthday I will be finished & graduated with my degree. That is my goal at least! Mom really doesn't have any updates for you but hopefully in the next couple days I will. Please just continue to watch over us like I know you do. Thank you so much for that. It means a lot to Mom & our family. Oh yeah.... I wanted you to know that Mom got you a Valentines Day gift. You always were my Valentine. It is a stepping stone that says " Love you to the moon & back. " I will put it in the part where Meme has the flowers for you. I hope no one steals it. I saw it & just had to get it for you. I hope it makes you smile because I sure did when I saw it. Anyways..... here is the daily prayer for tonight: January 28~ One thing I asked of the Lord, that will I seek after; to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life. I want to be where you are, dear Lord. I always want to be able to hear you-----to always be communing with you. " Pray continually, " your Word tells me. Please hold me in that place of prayer. It is prayer that helps keep me near your " throne of grace. " throughout the day. Thank you for inviting me here. In your presence----in the house of the Lord----is where I long to abide forever. Let us then approach God's throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy & find grace to help us in our time of need. Amen.
Mom found something that I wanted to write to you tonight...it is not a quote but a poem. Here it is:
We Remember You in the rising sun & in it's going down, We remember you. In the blowing of the wind & in the chill of winter, we remember you. In the opening of the buds & in the warmth of Summer, we remember you. In the rustling of leaves & in the beauty of Autumn, we remember you. In the beginning of the year & when it ends, we remember you. As long as we live, you shall live too, for you are a part of us as, we remember you.
I thought that was really nice so I hope you like it as much as I do.
Its that time of night...well actually it is later than the normal time. Mom has to get going now & do all the night things. May you have a restful & peaceful night. Have fun while Mom sleeps tonight. Come be with me or visit me in my dreams. Thanks, Ty! I will look to the sky later & whisper to you. Hope I get to see the stars shining bright tonight but its cloudy so I am not sure. Either way I know you are shining bright for someone who needs it. Smile when you hear my voice. I will too. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow..... I love you unconditionally.....forever you will live in my heart, mind, body & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday night? Mom has been crazy busy again today. I was up early & I did more laundry, gave both pups a bath, got ready & then I headed out to do errands that consisted of going to the mall to exchange a couple things & then grocery shop & do other shopping. I got home at 3:30 pm. Mark is sick today....hope I do not come down with it! The rest of my night will be Mom sitting on the couch & watching TV for a couple hours & then it will be time for me to go to bed as tomorrow will be kind of busy. I have to finish shopping & then go to an appointment for 12:30 pm. I won't be home until 4 pm or so. Crazy weekend for sure! Mom is feeling better today. I did a lot of thinking last night & some today. I have to figure everything out & make some changes for me to be happy. I did realize that some people that I thought were my friends are really not. They are what I call " fair weather friends "..... I am only good when they need someone to listen to them vent & anything else they may need but when the shoe is on the other foot & Mom needs someone to talk to or needs an opinion or advice they always say " they have to go " & they blow Mom off. Well... those tables are definitely have turned....not any longer. I am tired of the BS that goes with that & I will not tolerate it any longer or waste my time anymore. People can dislike me all they want to for this but oh well. I need to look out for myself & my true friends! Boy... I wish you were here! I could use a Tyler talk for sure. I would listen to your advice that you would give me & take it to heart. What I wouldn't do to hear your voice, to see your face & your smile. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Please never forget this.
This week has been so quiet. Mark was gone most of the days & half the nights & the phone hardly rang. I haven't even spoken to Grandpa all week & I just spoke to Meme today really quick. It is a little odd but I know they are fine. Guess we are all just busy. Today in the mail came Mom's Certificate for her Medical Coding & Billing course she took. I was really happy! I am now 1/2 way through my Medical Terminology II class & after that I will be back on track with my college classes. Hopefully by July...your Birthday I will be finished & graduated with my degree. That is my goal at least! Mom really doesn't have any updates for you but hopefully in the next couple days I will. Please just continue to watch over us like I know you do. Thank you so much for that. It means a lot to Mom & our family. Oh yeah.... I wanted you to know that Mom got you a Valentines Day gift. You always were my Valentine. It is a stepping stone that says " Love you to the moon & back. " I will put it in the part where Meme has the flowers for you. I hope no one steals it. I saw it & just had to get it for you. I hope it makes you smile because I sure did when I saw it. Anyways..... here is the daily prayer for tonight: January 28~ One thing I asked of the Lord, that will I seek after; to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life. I want to be where you are, dear Lord. I always want to be able to hear you-----to always be communing with you. " Pray continually, " your Word tells me. Please hold me in that place of prayer. It is prayer that helps keep me near your " throne of grace. " throughout the day. Thank you for inviting me here. In your presence----in the house of the Lord----is where I long to abide forever. Let us then approach God's throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy & find grace to help us in our time of need. Amen.
Mom found something that I wanted to write to you tonight...it is not a quote but a poem. Here it is:
We Remember You in the rising sun & in it's going down, We remember you. In the blowing of the wind & in the chill of winter, we remember you. In the opening of the buds & in the warmth of Summer, we remember you. In the rustling of leaves & in the beauty of Autumn, we remember you. In the beginning of the year & when it ends, we remember you. As long as we live, you shall live too, for you are a part of us as, we remember you.
I thought that was really nice so I hope you like it as much as I do.
Its that time of night...well actually it is later than the normal time. Mom has to get going now & do all the night things. May you have a restful & peaceful night. Have fun while Mom sleeps tonight. Come be with me or visit me in my dreams. Thanks, Ty! I will look to the sky later & whisper to you. Hope I get to see the stars shining bright tonight but its cloudy so I am not sure. Either way I know you are shining bright for someone who needs it. Smile when you hear my voice. I will too. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow..... I love you unconditionally.....forever you will live in my heart, mind, body & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Friday, January 27, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? Mom first wants to say that she is sorry for not writing again last night but it was crazy busy here with class, getting dinner going & then what I thought was going to be a fun day today ( prepping for that ) I got done after 8 pm & I needed to go to bed early to get up early. You see, Mark had to go to a demo for a client in York, ME today....he asked me to go along for the ride & we could spend the day there seeings how it was only going to be an hour long.... Mom went to bed, I got up & was getting ready & I guess I took 5 minutes too long because Mark left without me. I was upset but mostly hurt. That 2 hour drive to ME & 1 hour demo turned into him being there for 5 hours & then a 2 hour drive home ( he just got in & it is 5 pm ). He never apologized for anything. Mom spent the day after getting up at 6 am taking the pups for a walk & studying all day long. I have been so hurt & upset all day long. I know you have seen me shed many of tears today that is for sure. It just hurts that I don't seem to be good enough for anything when it comes to Mark. I try so hard to do everything & I get absolutely no respect for any of it. I don't know what to do anymore. I guess I am getting to the point of giving up....giving up on everything. So many people say Mom is so strong but honestly Mom is broken. I am not as strong as some may think. Mom is human, Mom has feelings. I think that someone better learn that quickly. I am sorry that you had to see Mom this way today but I guess it was needed. Guess I needed to have a good cry. Mom did have some friends call & message me today. That was very kind of them to do that. At least Mom knows that some care. Anyways....enough of this subject.....
Mom finished up her Respiratory System the other day & got a 100% on the exam. Today I did the Nervous System. I am almost done with it. I have 1 chapter left, 1 activity & then the exam. The rest I did today. Lots of notes though & my hand is hurting me like crazy tonight. I feel like I am back in high school with having 7 classes....lol. This coming week I will be 1/2 way done with the course. It will be week 3. It has gone by quite fast I must say. Before I know it I will be taking the final exam. Mom's CEUs will be all done & I can get back to my college courses again. It is very busy for me but I guess in a way that is very good!
Not much else is new. No one in the family has called all week long. It is strange but I am sure they are just as busy with their lives. Aunt Beck did send me a message stating that she got to South America just fine & she was safe. That was great news. Nothing else though. I am sure to catch up with everyone over the weekend though. I do have the daily prayers for you though: January 26~ Relieve the troubles of my heart & bring me out of my distress. While life's dark maze I tread and griefs around me spread, Be thou my guide; Bid darkness turn to day, Wipe sorrow's tears away, Nor let me ever stray, from Thee aside. The troubles of my heart today are not too small to be insignificant to God, nor are they too big to be insurmountable for him. The mere fact that my heart is troubled draws his attention, his mercy & his aid. Amen.
January 27~ The Lord is my light & my salvation; whom shall I fear? This psalm asks a rhetorical question, Lord but I will answer it anyway: No one! I need fear no one with you leading the way in my life. Search my heart, Lord. Please show me ways I have been allowing my fear of others to displace my trust in you. Help me to not compromise my faith in any way today because of being afraid of what someone else might think about me or say to me or do to me. As you go before me, help me stand strong in the light of your salvation & not give an inch of ground to fear. When I look to others for validation, I am continually battling either pride or fear; when I look to God, however, these battles cease & the peace of trust prevails. Amen.
All caught up again. Mom needs to get going so that I can do the night routine...get dinner going & feed the pups. I will look to the sky later to see if I can see the stars & the moon. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice. Smile & I will too. Hope that your night is everything you want & need it to be. Have fun while Mom sleeps tonight & come visit me in my dreams. Thanks pumpkin. I miss you so much. Days like this it is even worse for me. I wish you were here. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. My quote for the day is: " Today will never come again. Be a blessing. Be a friend. Encourage someone. Take time to care. Let your words heal & not wound. "
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? Mom first wants to say that she is sorry for not writing again last night but it was crazy busy here with class, getting dinner going & then what I thought was going to be a fun day today ( prepping for that ) I got done after 8 pm & I needed to go to bed early to get up early. You see, Mark had to go to a demo for a client in York, ME today....he asked me to go along for the ride & we could spend the day there seeings how it was only going to be an hour long.... Mom went to bed, I got up & was getting ready & I guess I took 5 minutes too long because Mark left without me. I was upset but mostly hurt. That 2 hour drive to ME & 1 hour demo turned into him being there for 5 hours & then a 2 hour drive home ( he just got in & it is 5 pm ). He never apologized for anything. Mom spent the day after getting up at 6 am taking the pups for a walk & studying all day long. I have been so hurt & upset all day long. I know you have seen me shed many of tears today that is for sure. It just hurts that I don't seem to be good enough for anything when it comes to Mark. I try so hard to do everything & I get absolutely no respect for any of it. I don't know what to do anymore. I guess I am getting to the point of giving up....giving up on everything. So many people say Mom is so strong but honestly Mom is broken. I am not as strong as some may think. Mom is human, Mom has feelings. I think that someone better learn that quickly. I am sorry that you had to see Mom this way today but I guess it was needed. Guess I needed to have a good cry. Mom did have some friends call & message me today. That was very kind of them to do that. At least Mom knows that some care. Anyways....enough of this subject.....
Mom finished up her Respiratory System the other day & got a 100% on the exam. Today I did the Nervous System. I am almost done with it. I have 1 chapter left, 1 activity & then the exam. The rest I did today. Lots of notes though & my hand is hurting me like crazy tonight. I feel like I am back in high school with having 7 classes....lol. This coming week I will be 1/2 way done with the course. It will be week 3. It has gone by quite fast I must say. Before I know it I will be taking the final exam. Mom's CEUs will be all done & I can get back to my college courses again. It is very busy for me but I guess in a way that is very good!
Not much else is new. No one in the family has called all week long. It is strange but I am sure they are just as busy with their lives. Aunt Beck did send me a message stating that she got to South America just fine & she was safe. That was great news. Nothing else though. I am sure to catch up with everyone over the weekend though. I do have the daily prayers for you though: January 26~ Relieve the troubles of my heart & bring me out of my distress. While life's dark maze I tread and griefs around me spread, Be thou my guide; Bid darkness turn to day, Wipe sorrow's tears away, Nor let me ever stray, from Thee aside. The troubles of my heart today are not too small to be insignificant to God, nor are they too big to be insurmountable for him. The mere fact that my heart is troubled draws his attention, his mercy & his aid. Amen.
January 27~ The Lord is my light & my salvation; whom shall I fear? This psalm asks a rhetorical question, Lord but I will answer it anyway: No one! I need fear no one with you leading the way in my life. Search my heart, Lord. Please show me ways I have been allowing my fear of others to displace my trust in you. Help me to not compromise my faith in any way today because of being afraid of what someone else might think about me or say to me or do to me. As you go before me, help me stand strong in the light of your salvation & not give an inch of ground to fear. When I look to others for validation, I am continually battling either pride or fear; when I look to God, however, these battles cease & the peace of trust prevails. Amen.
All caught up again. Mom needs to get going so that I can do the night routine...get dinner going & feed the pups. I will look to the sky later to see if I can see the stars & the moon. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice. Smile & I will too. Hope that your night is everything you want & need it to be. Have fun while Mom sleeps tonight & come visit me in my dreams. Thanks pumpkin. I miss you so much. Days like this it is even worse for me. I wish you were here. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. My quote for the day is: " Today will never come again. Be a blessing. Be a friend. Encourage someone. Take time to care. Let your words heal & not wound. "
Wednesday, January 25, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? Mom has to apologize to you & all who read my letters to you nightly. Last nights letter was so out there because Mom was just so tired & not feeling the greatest. Well, Mark got home from work last night around midnight & I was already in bed just laying there relaxing... I think after he got in bed & the pups were settled I fell right to sleep. I think I got about 7 hours. I woke up early this morning with the sun shining & the rain gone. Wind is still there though but I missed the sun so much I didn't even think about the wind at all. I am so sorry for the " out there " letter. I probably shouldn't have written one but I didn't want to go a night without something to you. Anyways.... Mom's day was good. I did laundry, dusted, took the pups for a nice walk & then I studied my next lesson. I made it to Chapter 4 today. I will finish up the next 2 chapters tomorrow & wait for my next one on Friday. The one I am working on is the Respiratory System. Sure did bring back a lot of things when it came to you my sweet precious son. Lots of writing today & my hands are hurting from it but I will be just fine...minor things! Mark did another long day of work himself. No rest for the wicked when it comes to a job. I think it will be a very early night with crawling into bed & watching TV for a bit. Chances are Mom will probably fall asleep while doing that but that is ok! Tomorrow will be another busy day for Mark & I. Looks like I will be going on a road trip with him on Friday to Maine. He has to go meet a potential client & I am going to wait for him to finish that up & then we are going to go to the ocean there & then a few other spots. It will be so much fun as I have not been to that area in about 8 years. It has always been a favorite of mine since I was a little girl. I took you there 1 time with Mike. You got to see the ocean & feel the breeze on your face. You loved it. I hope you go to the ocean as much as possible. I know you will go whenever the sun is. You get that from Mom!
Today was a very quiet day for the phone. No one called at all. I am sure I will hear from Grandpa & Meme in the next day or two. Aunt Beck had a beautiful day to fly to South America. I know you are with her so thank you. Our cousin, Nancy's Birthday is today so make sure to go visit her for a few! Not much else for updates for you so I will write the daily prayers to you. January 24~ My eyes are towards the Lord, for he will pluck my feet out of the net. My human instincts tell me to keep my eyes on those around me & to look out for what they might be doing or saying that could harm me. But your way, Lord is counterintuitive; you call me to keep my eyes on you, for you promise to take care of me, keeping me safe. So I have a choice today: I can try to take care of myself, which is a stressful & often unsuccessful means of seeking safety or I can trust you & enjoy a day in peace in your presence. I'm so thankful that I can choose you today. If I have stepped into a " net " recently, I must refuse to focus on my feet. Turning my eyes heavenward, I will call on the Lord & trust him to save me. Amen.
January 25~ Turn to me & be gracious to me, for I am lonely & afflicted. Loving Father, you know I don't mind being alone at times, but when loneliness sets in, there's a sense of isolation & sadness that overcomes me. You made me to be a relational person & yet sometimes you allow me to experience a famine of relationships in my life. It's at these times that I feel tremendous need for company to soothe the ache & fill the void. Please be my oasis in these times of drought. Be near me & remind me of your presence in ways I can grasp & in ways that comfort & console me. Thank you for always being with me. [ Jesus said, ] " You will leave me all alone. Yet I am not alone, for my Father is with me. " Amen.
Mom is all caught up again. Here are a couple quotes that I just really love:
" Laughter is timeless. Imagination has no age & dreams are forever. "
" Sometimes your heart needs more time to accept what your mind already knows. "
" You will begin to heal when you let go of the past hurts, forgive those who have wronged you & learn to forgive yourself for your mistakes. "
Mom is still working on the last quote. I have made many mistakes in my life & I am learning to forgive others & most importantly myself. I know it will take time. I need to heal & I know you want to see that as well.
The evening sky is upon us now. Mom needs to get going so I can finish prepping dinner. We are having one of your favorites... Willow Tree Pie....remember those? Oh you loved them so much! I always think of you & smile. Mom will whisper to you later tonight so be listening for my voice. Hope you night is all that you need & want it to be. Come visit me while I am sleeping. Thanks Tyler! Remember...you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you like crazy & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Good night & sweet dreams....until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? Mom has to apologize to you & all who read my letters to you nightly. Last nights letter was so out there because Mom was just so tired & not feeling the greatest. Well, Mark got home from work last night around midnight & I was already in bed just laying there relaxing... I think after he got in bed & the pups were settled I fell right to sleep. I think I got about 7 hours. I woke up early this morning with the sun shining & the rain gone. Wind is still there though but I missed the sun so much I didn't even think about the wind at all. I am so sorry for the " out there " letter. I probably shouldn't have written one but I didn't want to go a night without something to you. Anyways.... Mom's day was good. I did laundry, dusted, took the pups for a nice walk & then I studied my next lesson. I made it to Chapter 4 today. I will finish up the next 2 chapters tomorrow & wait for my next one on Friday. The one I am working on is the Respiratory System. Sure did bring back a lot of things when it came to you my sweet precious son. Lots of writing today & my hands are hurting from it but I will be just fine...minor things! Mark did another long day of work himself. No rest for the wicked when it comes to a job. I think it will be a very early night with crawling into bed & watching TV for a bit. Chances are Mom will probably fall asleep while doing that but that is ok! Tomorrow will be another busy day for Mark & I. Looks like I will be going on a road trip with him on Friday to Maine. He has to go meet a potential client & I am going to wait for him to finish that up & then we are going to go to the ocean there & then a few other spots. It will be so much fun as I have not been to that area in about 8 years. It has always been a favorite of mine since I was a little girl. I took you there 1 time with Mike. You got to see the ocean & feel the breeze on your face. You loved it. I hope you go to the ocean as much as possible. I know you will go whenever the sun is. You get that from Mom!
Today was a very quiet day for the phone. No one called at all. I am sure I will hear from Grandpa & Meme in the next day or two. Aunt Beck had a beautiful day to fly to South America. I know you are with her so thank you. Our cousin, Nancy's Birthday is today so make sure to go visit her for a few! Not much else for updates for you so I will write the daily prayers to you. January 24~ My eyes are towards the Lord, for he will pluck my feet out of the net. My human instincts tell me to keep my eyes on those around me & to look out for what they might be doing or saying that could harm me. But your way, Lord is counterintuitive; you call me to keep my eyes on you, for you promise to take care of me, keeping me safe. So I have a choice today: I can try to take care of myself, which is a stressful & often unsuccessful means of seeking safety or I can trust you & enjoy a day in peace in your presence. I'm so thankful that I can choose you today. If I have stepped into a " net " recently, I must refuse to focus on my feet. Turning my eyes heavenward, I will call on the Lord & trust him to save me. Amen.
January 25~ Turn to me & be gracious to me, for I am lonely & afflicted. Loving Father, you know I don't mind being alone at times, but when loneliness sets in, there's a sense of isolation & sadness that overcomes me. You made me to be a relational person & yet sometimes you allow me to experience a famine of relationships in my life. It's at these times that I feel tremendous need for company to soothe the ache & fill the void. Please be my oasis in these times of drought. Be near me & remind me of your presence in ways I can grasp & in ways that comfort & console me. Thank you for always being with me. [ Jesus said, ] " You will leave me all alone. Yet I am not alone, for my Father is with me. " Amen.
Mom is all caught up again. Here are a couple quotes that I just really love:
" Laughter is timeless. Imagination has no age & dreams are forever. "
" Sometimes your heart needs more time to accept what your mind already knows. "
" You will begin to heal when you let go of the past hurts, forgive those who have wronged you & learn to forgive yourself for your mistakes. "
Mom is still working on the last quote. I have made many mistakes in my life & I am learning to forgive others & most importantly myself. I know it will take time. I need to heal & I know you want to see that as well.
The evening sky is upon us now. Mom needs to get going so I can finish prepping dinner. We are having one of your favorites... Willow Tree Pie....remember those? Oh you loved them so much! I always think of you & smile. Mom will whisper to you later tonight so be listening for my voice. Hope you night is all that you need & want it to be. Come visit me while I am sleeping. Thanks Tyler! Remember...you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you like crazy & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Good night & sweet dreams....until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, January 24, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday night? Mom is completely exhausted as last night was another night with no sleep. The weather was horrific & the wind was just a howling & whipping. They got to 70 mph around 2 am this morning. I couldn't even sleep as I really was so scared. The pups were pretty restless as well. Today, Mom did absolutely nothing except sit on the couch & watched TV. Mark has been gone all day & still is not home. He has been working since 8 am this morning. He is going to be so tired & grumpy when he gets home....lucky me...not! These are the times I really dislike his job. I guess Mom is just not in the best of mood tonight. I am really hoping that I can get a lot of sleep as Mom starts her next lesson tomorrow. Can you please be with Mom tonight? I could really use your help tonight my sweet precious son.
The weather tonight is still nasty. It is still raining & the winds are still about 25 - 30 mph. Guess it is going to be that way through the evening & into tomorrow morning. This sure is one heck of a long storm. NH was suppose to get lots of snow but instead they got all freezing rain & ice. Meme said that she even called out of work because of it so I know it must have been bad as Meme never calls out of work. Mom's whole day was very quiet. One of my friends called me & we chatted for about 10 minutes maybe & other than that no one else called. Mom has no updates for you at all. I am sorry that this is not my usual letter to you but I at least wanted to write something to you instead of not writing to you at all. Tomorrow I will be back to myself with writing the daily prayers & quotes to you. I guess being up for almost 2 days is starting to get to me. It is after 9 pm right now so that really isn't helping either. My eyes are very heavy & it won't be long before I call it a night & go crawl into bed. Mom is hoping that your night will be all that you need & want it to be. Have fun tonight & come visit me. Continue to fly high & free like I know you are. Mom will whisper to you in a little bit so be listening out for my voice. I will smile & hope you will too. I will picture it in my mind. Please remember that you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you more than words can say. I love you with all my heart & soul. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. Good night & sweet dreams....until tomorrow.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Go visit Spencer as today is his Birthday!
P.P.S. Mom is sorry for the cheesy letter but Mom is just so tired & not myself. I promise Mom will be better tomorrow. I love you xoxoxo.
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday night? Mom is completely exhausted as last night was another night with no sleep. The weather was horrific & the wind was just a howling & whipping. They got to 70 mph around 2 am this morning. I couldn't even sleep as I really was so scared. The pups were pretty restless as well. Today, Mom did absolutely nothing except sit on the couch & watched TV. Mark has been gone all day & still is not home. He has been working since 8 am this morning. He is going to be so tired & grumpy when he gets home....lucky me...not! These are the times I really dislike his job. I guess Mom is just not in the best of mood tonight. I am really hoping that I can get a lot of sleep as Mom starts her next lesson tomorrow. Can you please be with Mom tonight? I could really use your help tonight my sweet precious son.
The weather tonight is still nasty. It is still raining & the winds are still about 25 - 30 mph. Guess it is going to be that way through the evening & into tomorrow morning. This sure is one heck of a long storm. NH was suppose to get lots of snow but instead they got all freezing rain & ice. Meme said that she even called out of work because of it so I know it must have been bad as Meme never calls out of work. Mom's whole day was very quiet. One of my friends called me & we chatted for about 10 minutes maybe & other than that no one else called. Mom has no updates for you at all. I am sorry that this is not my usual letter to you but I at least wanted to write something to you instead of not writing to you at all. Tomorrow I will be back to myself with writing the daily prayers & quotes to you. I guess being up for almost 2 days is starting to get to me. It is after 9 pm right now so that really isn't helping either. My eyes are very heavy & it won't be long before I call it a night & go crawl into bed. Mom is hoping that your night will be all that you need & want it to be. Have fun tonight & come visit me. Continue to fly high & free like I know you are. Mom will whisper to you in a little bit so be listening out for my voice. I will smile & hope you will too. I will picture it in my mind. Please remember that you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you more than words can say. I love you with all my heart & soul. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. Good night & sweet dreams....until tomorrow.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Go visit Spencer as today is his Birthday!
P.P.S. Mom is sorry for the cheesy letter but Mom is just so tired & not myself. I promise Mom will be better tomorrow. I love you xoxoxo.
Monday, January 23, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday night? Mom is doing ok. I am sorry that I didn't write to you last night but as you could see I was under the weather. Mom was in bed at 8 pm last night & honestly I didn't sleep at all as I was up with the pups as the wind here was awful & the rain was just coming down hard. Mom won't be able to write a long letter tonight either as we are getting extremely bad weather right now. It is suppose to only get worse as the night goes on & not stop until sometime Wednesday morning. The rain is heavy, it is sometimes sleeting & then other times it stops everything. The wind is around 35 - 40 mph at this time but will later get to 60 + mph. The weather stated that we will be in " hurricane " like situation. Mom would be lying if I told you I was not scared. I have been home all day by myself but now Mark is home. I know you are with me as well. Please watch over us all. Everyone in NH will be getting 8 - 10" of snow from this storm as well. Thank you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much & I wish Mom could express just how much but I know you feel it so that is what matters to me. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are my hero & always will be. You are Mom's wind beneath my wings. You forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul. Please never not feel this. That would tear Mom apart. We are so connected that I always want it to remain that way. Mom is hoping that you evening will be peaceful doing all things that you need & want to do. May you be able to come & be with Mom so that I can get some sleep tonight. I surely do need it. Thank you pumpkin.
Mom really doesn't have much for updates for you since the weekend was very quiet. I did chat with Meme & Aunt Beck. That made me happy as she is taking off on Wednesday morning for her trip. I am hoping to hear from her once she gets settled but there will not be any communication until after she is back in the States. I hope you will be with her as well. Hope she knows it too so she can tell me about it when we chat in a month. We skyped with Tubal & Karen last night. They are doing good. Mark spoke to his brother, Ellis. They are all well. Stacy is doing well in her recovery & so is Bill, her father. So I guess I would say all in all everyone is holding their own & are just really busy as Mark & Mom are. I finished up my 2nd lesson in my class. I received a 100 on my quiz. My next lesson starts on Wednesday so I am ready for it. It is on the Respiratory System....one I am very familiar with for sure. I know I will do pretty good in that. I think that's all I have for you but here are the 2 daily prayers I need to catch up on again: January 22: Lead me in your truth & teach me for you are the God of my salvation; for you I wait all day long. Sometimes you seem silent when I'm begging for answers, Lord. Sometimes your silence seems like absence but I know you are here. I know you are present with me & your silence is neither a no nor a yes answer. In your silence, you call me to wait for you--- to wait for your timing ahead. So I'll sit still. I'll learn to wait for your timing & to learn to trust you when I can't see what's ahead. So I'll sit still. I'll learn to wait patiently & appreciate the peace of your presence, knowing that you hold the past, present & future in your hands. The truth is that I don't really need answers, Lord. I need you. Thank you for reminding me with your silence what is really necessary. I can rest in you while I wait. We can always find God in the " waiting room " of our life, where he often has been waiting a long time for us to begin seeking him. Amen.
January 23~Do not remember the sins of my youth or my transgressions; according to you steadfast love remember me. May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through & through. May your whole spirit, soul & body be kept blameless at calls you is faithful & he will do it......The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. The Lord's lovingkindness indeed never cease, For His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; Great is Thy faithfulness. Amen.
Mom is caught up again. I am going to get going now as the weather just seems to be getting worse. That wind sounds terrible. I will write to you again tomorrow night & give you some quotes from me as I haven't done that in a few days. I will whisper to you later so be listening for me. I will smile & hope you will too. Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. My love for you is unconditional.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday night? Mom is doing ok. I am sorry that I didn't write to you last night but as you could see I was under the weather. Mom was in bed at 8 pm last night & honestly I didn't sleep at all as I was up with the pups as the wind here was awful & the rain was just coming down hard. Mom won't be able to write a long letter tonight either as we are getting extremely bad weather right now. It is suppose to only get worse as the night goes on & not stop until sometime Wednesday morning. The rain is heavy, it is sometimes sleeting & then other times it stops everything. The wind is around 35 - 40 mph at this time but will later get to 60 + mph. The weather stated that we will be in " hurricane " like situation. Mom would be lying if I told you I was not scared. I have been home all day by myself but now Mark is home. I know you are with me as well. Please watch over us all. Everyone in NH will be getting 8 - 10" of snow from this storm as well. Thank you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much & I wish Mom could express just how much but I know you feel it so that is what matters to me. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are my hero & always will be. You are Mom's wind beneath my wings. You forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul. Please never not feel this. That would tear Mom apart. We are so connected that I always want it to remain that way. Mom is hoping that you evening will be peaceful doing all things that you need & want to do. May you be able to come & be with Mom so that I can get some sleep tonight. I surely do need it. Thank you pumpkin.
Mom really doesn't have much for updates for you since the weekend was very quiet. I did chat with Meme & Aunt Beck. That made me happy as she is taking off on Wednesday morning for her trip. I am hoping to hear from her once she gets settled but there will not be any communication until after she is back in the States. I hope you will be with her as well. Hope she knows it too so she can tell me about it when we chat in a month. We skyped with Tubal & Karen last night. They are doing good. Mark spoke to his brother, Ellis. They are all well. Stacy is doing well in her recovery & so is Bill, her father. So I guess I would say all in all everyone is holding their own & are just really busy as Mark & Mom are. I finished up my 2nd lesson in my class. I received a 100 on my quiz. My next lesson starts on Wednesday so I am ready for it. It is on the Respiratory System....one I am very familiar with for sure. I know I will do pretty good in that. I think that's all I have for you but here are the 2 daily prayers I need to catch up on again: January 22: Lead me in your truth & teach me for you are the God of my salvation; for you I wait all day long. Sometimes you seem silent when I'm begging for answers, Lord. Sometimes your silence seems like absence but I know you are here. I know you are present with me & your silence is neither a no nor a yes answer. In your silence, you call me to wait for you--- to wait for your timing ahead. So I'll sit still. I'll learn to wait for your timing & to learn to trust you when I can't see what's ahead. So I'll sit still. I'll learn to wait patiently & appreciate the peace of your presence, knowing that you hold the past, present & future in your hands. The truth is that I don't really need answers, Lord. I need you. Thank you for reminding me with your silence what is really necessary. I can rest in you while I wait. We can always find God in the " waiting room " of our life, where he often has been waiting a long time for us to begin seeking him. Amen.
January 23~Do not remember the sins of my youth or my transgressions; according to you steadfast love remember me. May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through & through. May your whole spirit, soul & body be kept blameless at calls you is faithful & he will do it......The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. The Lord's lovingkindness indeed never cease, For His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; Great is Thy faithfulness. Amen.
Mom is caught up again. I am going to get going now as the weather just seems to be getting worse. That wind sounds terrible. I will write to you again tomorrow night & give you some quotes from me as I haven't done that in a few days. I will whisper to you later so be listening for me. I will smile & hope you will too. Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. My love for you is unconditional.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Saturday, January 21, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday afternoon? Mom is doing ok I guess. I am pretty tired though so I wanted to write to you now as I know I will be getting off my computer soon & won't get back on it until sometime tomorrow evening. Mom is sorry that I did not write to you last night but things were just crazy all day & before I knew it it was almost 7 pm & we still hadn't eaten dinner. The day was pretty much Mom studying her new lesson in her class & I did speak to Aunt Beck & Auntie Kristina for a few. Mom also did laundry during the day & some house cleaning. The night much much was Mom sitting on the couch & watching TV for a bit. I guess I got a 2nd or 3rd wind as Mark & I stayed up until 1 am this morning watching the whole President Trump Inauguration. Yep...yesterday was the day that President Obama stepped down after 8 years & Mr. Donald J. Trump became our nations President. There is so much controversy over this whole thing. Riots were in Washington DC, people chaining themselves together stating Black Lives Matter, people busting windows to a bank & right here where Mom lives someone tried yesterday to blow up a Police Officer. There is just so much hate right now in this world. It is so sad to have to witness it all. I understand that there are people out there who don't like him as a person, let alone now the leader of the United Sates, but there were so many that didn't like Hilary Clinton either. Everyone just has to learn to accept that things are going to be this way for the next 4 years or maybe even longer if he gets reelected. One thing Mom has never done & never will do is talk religion & politics with anyone because of all the opinions, debates, controversy, etc.... I just keep to myself on that! Yesterday was also a tough day for Mom as it was exactly 3 years & 7 months since you left this physical world. The 20th of every month is always hard for me so I try to stay as busy as I can. Yesterday though was maybe too busy for Mom...lol. Mark & I were suppose to go out today & enjoy just doing whatever but instead we have chose to go out tomorrow as Mom is so tired. Getting only 5 hours of sleep last night , actually this morning is definitely not enough for me at all. Tonight will be early to bed for sure. Sunday we will go out & do all the things we wanted to do today, plus it is the last 2 play off games for football before the Super Bowl. Your team...the Packers & the Patriots are playing so maybe just maybe they will both win & indeed go to the Super Bowl....that would be something, huh? Not sure who you would root for though as you liked both the teams. Mom will be choosing her Patriots as that is my 2nd favorite to the Cowboys! I guess Sunday will be a busy day for us! Looks like it will be a busy week for Mark & Mom as well with him working & Mom studying. I have a feeling that the weeks are going to go by quite quickly while I am enrolled in this class.
Mom spoke to Grandpa & Meme yesterday too. Everyone is well. That is nice to know & hear. Great Grammy is doing good too. I sure miss seeing her. I guess she is getting a new " roommate " this week as her friend that she has had for 3 years had to move out of her room. She was sad about that but understands. Hope her new one is just as nice to her. I know you watch over her for us & that means a lot. Mom knows you watch over us all....all the time. Thank you my sweet precious son. Aunt Beck is getting ready to leave on Wednesday for South America. She is excited & ready to go. Mom is happy for her but will miss talking with her. I have a feeling that you will be there with her. There is no doubt in my mind at all. I think that is all the updates that I have for you today. I do have the 2 daily prayers to catch up on though. Here they are: January 20~ Who shall ascend the hill of the Lord?.....Those who have clean hands & pure hearts, who do not lift up their souls to what is false. Examine my heart today, O God! I want to draw near to you. Open my eyes to those things in me that are false & that gets in the way of our fellowship. Please give me the courage to abandon any lies to which I may be clinging. Whether I've fabricated them for self-protection, self-pity, self-aggrandizement, or any other self-seeking thing. Please help me demolish each one, so that I may walk fully in the freedom of your right & true ways. Repetition does not transform a lie into a truth. Amen.
January 21~ Make me to know your ways, O Lord; teach me your paths. Life with you is an adventure of learning, gracious Father! Help me look to each day with joyful anticipation. Fill me with a readiness to do your will & to change my ways if necessary so that I may walk in yours. Being with you & learning from you are what make my life worthwhile. Thank you for being a patient & gentle teacher. A good student listens, tries, learns, applies.....then turns to help others find their way. Amen.
Mom is all caught up. I can't believe that today has gone by so fast. The evening sky will be upon us in a couple hours now. The sun will be setting shortly. I will look to the sky later to see the stars & moon. Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile & Mom will too. I hope that your evening will be all that you need & want it to be. Have fun while I sleep tonight & come visit me in my dreams if you can. That would be wonderful. I miss you so much, Tyler. No words can express just how much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You will forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday afternoon? Mom is doing ok I guess. I am pretty tired though so I wanted to write to you now as I know I will be getting off my computer soon & won't get back on it until sometime tomorrow evening. Mom is sorry that I did not write to you last night but things were just crazy all day & before I knew it it was almost 7 pm & we still hadn't eaten dinner. The day was pretty much Mom studying her new lesson in her class & I did speak to Aunt Beck & Auntie Kristina for a few. Mom also did laundry during the day & some house cleaning. The night much much was Mom sitting on the couch & watching TV for a bit. I guess I got a 2nd or 3rd wind as Mark & I stayed up until 1 am this morning watching the whole President Trump Inauguration. Yep...yesterday was the day that President Obama stepped down after 8 years & Mr. Donald J. Trump became our nations President. There is so much controversy over this whole thing. Riots were in Washington DC, people chaining themselves together stating Black Lives Matter, people busting windows to a bank & right here where Mom lives someone tried yesterday to blow up a Police Officer. There is just so much hate right now in this world. It is so sad to have to witness it all. I understand that there are people out there who don't like him as a person, let alone now the leader of the United Sates, but there were so many that didn't like Hilary Clinton either. Everyone just has to learn to accept that things are going to be this way for the next 4 years or maybe even longer if he gets reelected. One thing Mom has never done & never will do is talk religion & politics with anyone because of all the opinions, debates, controversy, etc.... I just keep to myself on that! Yesterday was also a tough day for Mom as it was exactly 3 years & 7 months since you left this physical world. The 20th of every month is always hard for me so I try to stay as busy as I can. Yesterday though was maybe too busy for Mom...lol. Mark & I were suppose to go out today & enjoy just doing whatever but instead we have chose to go out tomorrow as Mom is so tired. Getting only 5 hours of sleep last night , actually this morning is definitely not enough for me at all. Tonight will be early to bed for sure. Sunday we will go out & do all the things we wanted to do today, plus it is the last 2 play off games for football before the Super Bowl. Your team...the Packers & the Patriots are playing so maybe just maybe they will both win & indeed go to the Super Bowl....that would be something, huh? Not sure who you would root for though as you liked both the teams. Mom will be choosing her Patriots as that is my 2nd favorite to the Cowboys! I guess Sunday will be a busy day for us! Looks like it will be a busy week for Mark & Mom as well with him working & Mom studying. I have a feeling that the weeks are going to go by quite quickly while I am enrolled in this class.
Mom spoke to Grandpa & Meme yesterday too. Everyone is well. That is nice to know & hear. Great Grammy is doing good too. I sure miss seeing her. I guess she is getting a new " roommate " this week as her friend that she has had for 3 years had to move out of her room. She was sad about that but understands. Hope her new one is just as nice to her. I know you watch over her for us & that means a lot. Mom knows you watch over us all....all the time. Thank you my sweet precious son. Aunt Beck is getting ready to leave on Wednesday for South America. She is excited & ready to go. Mom is happy for her but will miss talking with her. I have a feeling that you will be there with her. There is no doubt in my mind at all. I think that is all the updates that I have for you today. I do have the 2 daily prayers to catch up on though. Here they are: January 20~ Who shall ascend the hill of the Lord?.....Those who have clean hands & pure hearts, who do not lift up their souls to what is false. Examine my heart today, O God! I want to draw near to you. Open my eyes to those things in me that are false & that gets in the way of our fellowship. Please give me the courage to abandon any lies to which I may be clinging. Whether I've fabricated them for self-protection, self-pity, self-aggrandizement, or any other self-seeking thing. Please help me demolish each one, so that I may walk fully in the freedom of your right & true ways. Repetition does not transform a lie into a truth. Amen.
January 21~ Make me to know your ways, O Lord; teach me your paths. Life with you is an adventure of learning, gracious Father! Help me look to each day with joyful anticipation. Fill me with a readiness to do your will & to change my ways if necessary so that I may walk in yours. Being with you & learning from you are what make my life worthwhile. Thank you for being a patient & gentle teacher. A good student listens, tries, learns, applies.....then turns to help others find their way. Amen.
Mom is all caught up. I can't believe that today has gone by so fast. The evening sky will be upon us in a couple hours now. The sun will be setting shortly. I will look to the sky later to see the stars & moon. Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile & Mom will too. I hope that your evening will be all that you need & want it to be. Have fun while I sleep tonight & come visit me in my dreams if you can. That would be wonderful. I miss you so much, Tyler. No words can express just how much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You will forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, January 19, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom is writing to you while dinner is in the oven so I apologize if this letter is rather short tonight. Mom's day was pretty good. I was able to get up this morning & do a few things around the house, took the pups for a walk & then got on my computer to just check things out. I should have done a couple of training sessions for my CEUs but I guess I just needed the day to chill out as tomorrow I have another long class to take. Mom kind of look at things for her Birthday party that Mark is going to throw me in May. I need to get on top of it as it will be here sooner than I think...lol. The rest of the day was really quiet. Only 1 phone call today & it was a wrong number. Other than that no one checked in on us & I didn't check in on them either. Guess life is pretty busy for us all these days. I know Mom's is getting rather busy & so is Mark's. I will assume & you know I hate to assume but I will this time that everything is going good for everyone. Still getting into the swing of it being a new year even though the 1st month is almost over with..... 12 days until its February. Sometimes it just blows my mind on how fast time is going for us here in the physical world. I am sure it is a lot faster where you are though. I think Mom kept busy today as I know that it is the 19th of January & it marks 31 months since I last spoke to you. It has been in the back of my head all day but staying busy has helped me not to shed the tears that I really want to. I know they will fall from my face later tonight when I am not as busy. Please forgive me for that my sweet precious son but it is still very hard for Mom. No time will ever make it easier for me. I know you want me to move on but it is easier said then done. I am trying but I guess it is at a turtle's pace. Mom is suppose to touch base with a call tomorrow with Aunt Beck so I am looking forward to that. She leaves next Wednesday for a month so I will sure miss talking to her but I know she will enjoy her time in South America. Please watch over her as I know you will. I am sure you will be right by her side. Thank you. Please continue to watch over us all as well. It means so much to us. Thank you.
Here is your daily prayer for today, January 19~ The earth is the Lord's & all that is in it, the world & those who live in it. So often I think of myself as being autonomous & independent or I think of myself in terms of my roles & relationships here on earth. The reality, dear Lord, is different than how I think & how I feel. The truth is that I belong to you. You made me, you sustain me, you have saved me & you promise me that I am eternally yours. Help me live wholeheartedly for you today & not merely to please myself or those around me. Help me trust you by giving you your rightful place as Lord of my life. Truth on the shelf of our lives is merely ornamental, but truth applied to our lives is powerful to transform us & influence those around us. Amen.
Here are a couple quotes for the day from Mom as well:
" The work of today is the history of tomorrow & we are it's makers. "
" Some people come into our lives & quickly go. Some people stay for awhile & move our souls to dance. They awaken us to a new understanding, leave footprints on our hearts & we are never, ever the same. "
Both quotes are so true. The 2nd one is very close to my heart though. I think back to how many people were in my life, our lives & most of them are no longer there....either they have passed on, moved away or just are no longer a part of my journey. Makes me sad at times for sure but change happens & we have to move forward & not look back. Tough lessons but they are needed.
Mom is hoping that tonight you have a peaceful & wonderful evening filled with things you need to do & want to do. Have fun while Mom sleeps. Come visit me. Thanks, Tyler. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. I will smile & hope that you will too. I miss you so much. It hurts my heart every day. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow night.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Go say hi to Uncle Ray as today is his Birthday. Just don't scare him....lol. Love you xoxoxo.
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom is writing to you while dinner is in the oven so I apologize if this letter is rather short tonight. Mom's day was pretty good. I was able to get up this morning & do a few things around the house, took the pups for a walk & then got on my computer to just check things out. I should have done a couple of training sessions for my CEUs but I guess I just needed the day to chill out as tomorrow I have another long class to take. Mom kind of look at things for her Birthday party that Mark is going to throw me in May. I need to get on top of it as it will be here sooner than I think...lol. The rest of the day was really quiet. Only 1 phone call today & it was a wrong number. Other than that no one checked in on us & I didn't check in on them either. Guess life is pretty busy for us all these days. I know Mom's is getting rather busy & so is Mark's. I will assume & you know I hate to assume but I will this time that everything is going good for everyone. Still getting into the swing of it being a new year even though the 1st month is almost over with..... 12 days until its February. Sometimes it just blows my mind on how fast time is going for us here in the physical world. I am sure it is a lot faster where you are though. I think Mom kept busy today as I know that it is the 19th of January & it marks 31 months since I last spoke to you. It has been in the back of my head all day but staying busy has helped me not to shed the tears that I really want to. I know they will fall from my face later tonight when I am not as busy. Please forgive me for that my sweet precious son but it is still very hard for Mom. No time will ever make it easier for me. I know you want me to move on but it is easier said then done. I am trying but I guess it is at a turtle's pace. Mom is suppose to touch base with a call tomorrow with Aunt Beck so I am looking forward to that. She leaves next Wednesday for a month so I will sure miss talking to her but I know she will enjoy her time in South America. Please watch over her as I know you will. I am sure you will be right by her side. Thank you. Please continue to watch over us all as well. It means so much to us. Thank you.
Here is your daily prayer for today, January 19~ The earth is the Lord's & all that is in it, the world & those who live in it. So often I think of myself as being autonomous & independent or I think of myself in terms of my roles & relationships here on earth. The reality, dear Lord, is different than how I think & how I feel. The truth is that I belong to you. You made me, you sustain me, you have saved me & you promise me that I am eternally yours. Help me live wholeheartedly for you today & not merely to please myself or those around me. Help me trust you by giving you your rightful place as Lord of my life. Truth on the shelf of our lives is merely ornamental, but truth applied to our lives is powerful to transform us & influence those around us. Amen.
Here are a couple quotes for the day from Mom as well:
" The work of today is the history of tomorrow & we are it's makers. "
" Some people come into our lives & quickly go. Some people stay for awhile & move our souls to dance. They awaken us to a new understanding, leave footprints on our hearts & we are never, ever the same. "
Both quotes are so true. The 2nd one is very close to my heart though. I think back to how many people were in my life, our lives & most of them are no longer there....either they have passed on, moved away or just are no longer a part of my journey. Makes me sad at times for sure but change happens & we have to move forward & not look back. Tough lessons but they are needed.
Mom is hoping that tonight you have a peaceful & wonderful evening filled with things you need to do & want to do. Have fun while Mom sleeps. Come visit me. Thanks, Tyler. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. I will smile & hope that you will too. I miss you so much. It hurts my heart every day. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow night.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Go say hi to Uncle Ray as today is his Birthday. Just don't scare him....lol. Love you xoxoxo.
Wednesday, January 18, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? Mom has had a pretty good day today. I was up early this morning & I did some cleaning on this very rainy day. I got that all done & then I got ready & got myself a snack & sat down to do my 1st lesson in my new course. I think Mom is going to learn a lot through this. Its a lot of note taking & my hands hurt from all the writing but that is ok. You have 5 chapters per lesson, activities after each chapter & the when you are done there is an assignment to do & then the quiz. Mom completed it all in 3 hours with a score of 100% for the quiz! I was pretty excited. Lessons are twice a week... Wednesday & Fridays & you have 2 weeks to finish it all. I am sure that as the course continues it will get harder but I am ready for this challenge & I know you are right there with Mom. In between this I will be doing more credits for my CEUs & also continuing a little at a time with my college courses. It will be busy but that is a good thing for Mom. Mark seems to be getting busier with his work as well so it keeps Mom occupied while he is working. That way I don't get bored myself or get lonely.
It has been a quiet day else wise. The phone has not rang at all. I am sure it will later tonight. Grandpa may call but if not he will on Thursday night. Some days are crazy & other days it is so quiet. Mom's friend told me to tell you hello. We talk every once in awhile...not like before where it was all the time. We have different schedules & looks to appear that our lives are going in very different directions these days. We are lucky to chat for about 5 or 10 minutes every few days. It is sad but I understand that life happens & he is starting over & trying to figure out his life. I wish him well with it all. Anyways.....Mom doesn't have anything else for an update for you so I will write the daily prayer for today: January 18~ Let the words of my mouth & the meditation of my heart be acceptable to you, O Lord, my rock & my redeemer. You see my focus, heavenly Father. You see where my mind & my mouth have been straying. I pray you will draw my thoughts to what is noble, true, encouraging & loving right now so that my words may follow in kind. Please keep me from nursing hurts & grudges, keeping records of wrongs & harboring criticisms against others. Set me free from any such destructive ways. And may my thoughts, words, attitudes & actions please you. Finally, beloved whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is pleasing, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence & if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. Amen.
Mom didn't get a chance to look for a quote tonight as I was so busy with my lessons today. I will make sure to have a couple of these for you on tomorrow nights letter as I will have the extra time.
Right now it is that time of night that Mom really needs to get going & get dinner started & ready as Mark is working tonight & I want him to have a good meal before he has to go to work. Mom is hoping that you will have a night that will be all things that you need & want to do. Come be with Mom & visit me in my dreams when I fall asleep tonight. Thank you my sweet precious son. I love when you get the chance to do that as it shows me that you are alright & happy. Mom will whisper to you later tonight as well. Be listening when I do & smile that smile that I love & miss so much. I will smile too. Please remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I miss you so dang much. I miss it all. I know you feel it in your soul. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. This will never change. Mom has to go for now but I will be back tomorrow to write to you again. Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? Mom has had a pretty good day today. I was up early this morning & I did some cleaning on this very rainy day. I got that all done & then I got ready & got myself a snack & sat down to do my 1st lesson in my new course. I think Mom is going to learn a lot through this. Its a lot of note taking & my hands hurt from all the writing but that is ok. You have 5 chapters per lesson, activities after each chapter & the when you are done there is an assignment to do & then the quiz. Mom completed it all in 3 hours with a score of 100% for the quiz! I was pretty excited. Lessons are twice a week... Wednesday & Fridays & you have 2 weeks to finish it all. I am sure that as the course continues it will get harder but I am ready for this challenge & I know you are right there with Mom. In between this I will be doing more credits for my CEUs & also continuing a little at a time with my college courses. It will be busy but that is a good thing for Mom. Mark seems to be getting busier with his work as well so it keeps Mom occupied while he is working. That way I don't get bored myself or get lonely.
It has been a quiet day else wise. The phone has not rang at all. I am sure it will later tonight. Grandpa may call but if not he will on Thursday night. Some days are crazy & other days it is so quiet. Mom's friend told me to tell you hello. We talk every once in awhile...not like before where it was all the time. We have different schedules & looks to appear that our lives are going in very different directions these days. We are lucky to chat for about 5 or 10 minutes every few days. It is sad but I understand that life happens & he is starting over & trying to figure out his life. I wish him well with it all. Anyways.....Mom doesn't have anything else for an update for you so I will write the daily prayer for today: January 18~ Let the words of my mouth & the meditation of my heart be acceptable to you, O Lord, my rock & my redeemer. You see my focus, heavenly Father. You see where my mind & my mouth have been straying. I pray you will draw my thoughts to what is noble, true, encouraging & loving right now so that my words may follow in kind. Please keep me from nursing hurts & grudges, keeping records of wrongs & harboring criticisms against others. Set me free from any such destructive ways. And may my thoughts, words, attitudes & actions please you. Finally, beloved whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is pleasing, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence & if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. Amen.
Mom didn't get a chance to look for a quote tonight as I was so busy with my lessons today. I will make sure to have a couple of these for you on tomorrow nights letter as I will have the extra time.
Right now it is that time of night that Mom really needs to get going & get dinner started & ready as Mark is working tonight & I want him to have a good meal before he has to go to work. Mom is hoping that you will have a night that will be all things that you need & want to do. Come be with Mom & visit me in my dreams when I fall asleep tonight. Thank you my sweet precious son. I love when you get the chance to do that as it shows me that you are alright & happy. Mom will whisper to you later tonight as well. Be listening when I do & smile that smile that I love & miss so much. I will smile too. Please remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I miss you so dang much. I miss it all. I know you feel it in your soul. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. This will never change. Mom has to go for now but I will be back tomorrow to write to you again. Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, January 17, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom is really had a day just to do what I want as tomorrow I start my new class. It sounds rough but with you by my side I know I will be able to do it. The weather today started out sunny & cold & went to really dark, overcast & cloudy. We are suppose to be getting some nasty weather tonight & all day tomorrow. In NH there are in a weather watch for ice & freezing rain from today until tomorrow night. Please watch over our family & friends there. Thanks!
Not much happened today. Mark was pretty much on conference calls all day & will be again all day tomorrow as well. The phone was quiet which was nice for a change. I did speak to Meme...she called on her break. All is well with her. She was just checking in to say hello. That was really nice. I am sure to hear from Grandpa either tonight or maybe tomorrow too. I guess Stacey, Bill & the rest of Mark's side of the family are holding on there own. Tubal is doing well since his surgery too. Mom will sure to have more updates in the next few days I am sure.
Here is your daily prayer for January 17~ The Lord lives! Blessed be my rock & exalted be the God of my salvation! Is there some way today, awesome God, that you can exalt your name through me? A way I might highlight the blessing of your salvation to those around me? I don't want to preach or push or pry in my desire for people to know how wonderful it is to belong to you. I just want to point to you in some encouraging & helpful way. Exalt yourself through me, I pray, in ways you see fit, in ways you know will be a benefit to those you've placed in my life & to those whom you send across my path. When humanity is exalted for some accomplishment, it is not long before it topples from its pedestal. When God's name is exalted, however, there is no fear of disillusionment or disappointment. Amen.
Here is Mom's quote for the day: " But the most beautiful things in life are not just things. They're people & places & memories & pictures. They're feelings & moments & smiles & laughter. "
It is that time of the night again for Mom. I need to get going & get dinner started & feed the pups. I hope that your evening is all that you need & want it to be my sweet precious son. I will look to the sky later & whisper to you so be listening out for Mom's voice. I will smile & hope you will to. Remember, you live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. You will always be my hero & Mom's wind beneath my wings. Have fun tonight while Mom tries to get some sleep. Come be with me if you can. Thanks Ty! I miss you so much & I love you unconditionally.....forever & ever! Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom is really had a day just to do what I want as tomorrow I start my new class. It sounds rough but with you by my side I know I will be able to do it. The weather today started out sunny & cold & went to really dark, overcast & cloudy. We are suppose to be getting some nasty weather tonight & all day tomorrow. In NH there are in a weather watch for ice & freezing rain from today until tomorrow night. Please watch over our family & friends there. Thanks!
Not much happened today. Mark was pretty much on conference calls all day & will be again all day tomorrow as well. The phone was quiet which was nice for a change. I did speak to Meme...she called on her break. All is well with her. She was just checking in to say hello. That was really nice. I am sure to hear from Grandpa either tonight or maybe tomorrow too. I guess Stacey, Bill & the rest of Mark's side of the family are holding on there own. Tubal is doing well since his surgery too. Mom will sure to have more updates in the next few days I am sure.
Here is your daily prayer for January 17~ The Lord lives! Blessed be my rock & exalted be the God of my salvation! Is there some way today, awesome God, that you can exalt your name through me? A way I might highlight the blessing of your salvation to those around me? I don't want to preach or push or pry in my desire for people to know how wonderful it is to belong to you. I just want to point to you in some encouraging & helpful way. Exalt yourself through me, I pray, in ways you see fit, in ways you know will be a benefit to those you've placed in my life & to those whom you send across my path. When humanity is exalted for some accomplishment, it is not long before it topples from its pedestal. When God's name is exalted, however, there is no fear of disillusionment or disappointment. Amen.
Here is Mom's quote for the day: " But the most beautiful things in life are not just things. They're people & places & memories & pictures. They're feelings & moments & smiles & laughter. "
It is that time of the night again for Mom. I need to get going & get dinner started & feed the pups. I hope that your evening is all that you need & want it to be my sweet precious son. I will look to the sky later & whisper to you so be listening out for Mom's voice. I will smile & hope you will to. Remember, you live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. You will always be my hero & Mom's wind beneath my wings. Have fun tonight while Mom tries to get some sleep. Come be with me if you can. Thanks Ty! I miss you so much & I love you unconditionally.....forever & ever! Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, January 16, 2017
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