Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? Mom has to apologize to you & all who read my letters to you nightly. Last nights letter was so out there because Mom was just so tired & not feeling the greatest. Well, Mark got home from work last night around midnight & I was already in bed just laying there relaxing... I think after he got in bed & the pups were settled I fell right to sleep. I think I got about 7 hours. I woke up early this morning with the sun shining & the rain gone. Wind is still there though but I missed the sun so much I didn't even think about the wind at all. I am so sorry for the " out there " letter. I probably shouldn't have written one but I didn't want to go a night without something to you. Anyways.... Mom's day was good. I did laundry, dusted, took the pups for a nice walk & then I studied my next lesson. I made it to Chapter 4 today. I will finish up the next 2 chapters tomorrow & wait for my next one on Friday. The one I am working on is the Respiratory System. Sure did bring back a lot of things when it came to you my sweet precious son. Lots of writing today & my hands are hurting from it but I will be just fine...minor things! Mark did another long day of work himself. No rest for the wicked when it comes to a job. I think it will be a very early night with crawling into bed & watching TV for a bit. Chances are Mom will probably fall asleep while doing that but that is ok! Tomorrow will be another busy day for Mark & I. Looks like I will be going on a road trip with him on Friday to Maine. He has to go meet a potential client & I am going to wait for him to finish that up & then we are going to go to the ocean there & then a few other spots. It will be so much fun as I have not been to that area in about 8 years. It has always been a favorite of mine since I was a little girl. I took you there 1 time with Mike. You got to see the ocean & feel the breeze on your face. You loved it. I hope you go to the ocean as much as possible. I know you will go whenever the sun is. You get that from Mom! 
 Today was a very quiet day for the phone. No one called at all. I am sure I will hear from Grandpa & Meme in the next day or two. Aunt Beck had a beautiful day to fly to South America. I know you are with her so thank you. Our cousin, Nancy's Birthday is today so make sure to go visit her for a few! Not much else for updates for you so I will write the daily prayers to you. January 24~ My eyes are towards the Lord, for he will pluck my feet out of the net. My human instincts tell me to keep my eyes on those around me & to look out for what they might be doing or saying that could harm me. But your way, Lord is counterintuitive; you call me to keep my eyes on you, for you promise to take care of me, keeping me safe. So I have a choice today: I can try to take care of myself, which is a stressful & often unsuccessful means of seeking safety or I can trust you & enjoy a day in peace in your presence. I'm so thankful that I can choose you today. If I have stepped into a " net " recently, I must refuse to focus on my feet. Turning my eyes heavenward, I will call on the Lord & trust him to save me. Amen.
 January 25~ Turn to me & be gracious to me, for I am lonely & afflicted. Loving Father, you know I don't mind being alone at times, but when loneliness sets in, there's a sense of isolation & sadness that overcomes me. You made me to be a relational person & yet sometimes you allow me to experience a famine of relationships in my life. It's at these times that I feel tremendous need for company to soothe the ache & fill the void. Please be my oasis in these times of drought. Be near me & remind me of your presence in ways I can grasp & in ways that comfort & console me. Thank you for always being with me. [ Jesus said, ] " You will leave me all alone. Yet I am not alone, for my Father is with me. " Amen.
 Mom is all caught up again. Here are a couple quotes that I just really love:
 " Laughter is timeless. Imagination has no age & dreams are forever. "
 " Sometimes your heart needs more time to accept what your mind already knows. "
 " You will begin to heal when you let go of the past hurts, forgive those who have wronged you & learn to forgive yourself for your mistakes. " 
 Mom is still working on the last quote. I have made many mistakes in my life & I am learning to forgive others & most importantly myself. I know it will take time. I need to heal & I know you want to see that as well. 
 The evening sky is upon us now. Mom needs to get going so I can finish prepping dinner. We are having one of your favorites... Willow Tree Pie....remember those? Oh you loved them so much! I always think of you & smile. Mom will whisper to you later tonight so be listening for my voice. Hope you night is all that you need & want it to be. Come visit me while I am sleeping. Thanks Tyler! Remember...you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you like crazy & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Good night & sweet dreams....until tomorrow.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!