Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday night? Mom has been crazy busy again today. I was up early & I did more laundry, gave both pups a bath, got ready & then I headed out to do errands that consisted of going to the mall to exchange a couple things & then grocery shop & do other shopping. I got home at 3:30 pm. Mark is sick today....hope I do not come down with it! The rest of my night will be Mom sitting on the couch & watching TV for a couple hours & then it will be time for me to go to bed as tomorrow will be kind of busy. I have to finish shopping & then go to an appointment for 12:30 pm. I won't be home until 4 pm or so. Crazy weekend for sure! Mom is feeling better today. I did a lot of thinking last night & some today. I have to figure everything out & make some changes for me to be happy. I did realize that some people that I thought were my friends are really not. They are what I call " fair weather friends "..... I am only good when they need someone to listen to them vent & anything else they may need but when the shoe is on the other foot & Mom needs someone to talk to or needs an opinion or advice they always say " they have to go " & they blow Mom off. Well... those tables are definitely have turned....not any longer. I am tired of the BS that goes with that & I will not tolerate it any longer or waste my time anymore. People can dislike me all they want to for this but oh well. I need to look out for myself & my true friends! Boy... I wish you were here! I could use a Tyler talk for sure. I would listen to your advice that you would give me & take it to heart. What I wouldn't do to hear your voice, to see your face & your smile. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Please never forget this. 
 This week has been so quiet. Mark was gone most of the days & half the nights & the phone hardly rang. I haven't even spoken to Grandpa all week & I just spoke to Meme today really quick. It is a little odd but I know they are fine. Guess we are all just busy. Today in the mail came Mom's Certificate for her Medical Coding & Billing course she took. I was really happy! I am now 1/2 way through my Medical Terminology II class & after that I will be back on track with my college classes. Hopefully by July...your Birthday I will be finished & graduated with my degree. That is my goal at least! Mom really doesn't have any updates for you but hopefully in the next couple days I will. Please just continue to watch over us like I know you do. Thank you so much for that. It means a lot to Mom & our family. Oh yeah.... I wanted you to know that Mom got you a Valentines Day gift. You always were my Valentine. It is a stepping stone that says " Love you to the moon & back. " I will put it in the part where Meme has the flowers for you. I hope no one steals it. I saw it & just had to get it for you. I hope it makes you smile because I sure did when I saw it. Anyways..... here is the daily prayer for tonight: January 28~ One thing I asked of the Lord, that will I seek after; to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life. I want to be where you are, dear Lord. I always want to be able to hear you-----to always be communing with you. " Pray continually, " your Word tells me. Please hold me in that place of prayer. It is prayer that helps keep me near your " throne of grace. " throughout the day. Thank you for inviting me here. In your presence----in the house of the Lord----is where I long to abide forever. Let us then approach God's throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy & find grace to help us in our time of need. Amen.
 Mom found something that I wanted to write to you tonight...it is not a quote but a poem. Here it is:  
 We Remember You in the rising sun & in it's going down, We remember you. In the blowing of the wind & in the chill of winter, we remember you. In the opening of the buds & in the warmth of Summer, we remember you. In the rustling of leaves & in the beauty of Autumn, we remember you. In the beginning of the year & when it ends, we remember you. As long as we live, you shall live too, for you are a part of us as, we remember you.
I thought that was really nice so I hope you like it as much as I do. 
 Its that time of night...well actually it is later than the normal time. Mom has to get going now & do all the night things. May you have a restful & peaceful night. Have fun while Mom sleeps tonight. Come be with me or visit me in my dreams. Thanks, Ty! I will look to the sky later & whisper to you. Hope I get to see the stars shining bright tonight but its cloudy so I am not sure. Either way I know you are shining bright for someone who needs it. Smile when you hear my voice. I will too. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow..... I love you unconditionally.....forever you will live in my heart, mind, body & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!