Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday night? Mom is feeling better but still tired. t least I am able to function today. Mom is actually writing to you while dinner is cooking tonight. I had to prep everything earlier as it takes a bit to cook. Mom made homemade bread ( 2 loaves ) & homemade lasagna. Yup... I can see you know crinkling your nose at it. I know you loved the bread but not the lasagna. Just thinking about it makes me chuckle. Today was a fairly busy day for Mom. I finished up the rest of my lesson & did the assignment & the quiz. Another 100% on it. Wednesday is another new lesson. It will be # 5. I have 7 more to go in 3 weeks. I got this! I know you are right near Mom. The end of this lesson today was kind of hard for me as so much of it reminded me of you & the last few hours that you were physically here. I held back the tears but boy I wanted to cry. I am trying really hard to do my best at " moving forward " as you want Mom too. It is extremely hard & there are days that just are not good but I am doing the best I can. I hope that you can see Mom's progress even if they are indeed baby steps. Mark was able to work from home today. Not sure if he is still feeling under the weather or not. He hasn't said much at all today as he has been busy on the phone with his clients. Hopefully he has a slower week than last so he can recuperate from all the travel & late nights last week. 
 Mom got to chat with Auntie Kristina today for a bit. Things are well with her or at least they are the best to be expected. I also chatted with Uncle Chris. Him & Lacie are going to come for a visit this weekend. They will be here on Saturday & stay until Sunday evening. It will be nice to see them as we haven't for several months now. Mom is looking forward to it & I am sure it will be fun. I did not get the chance to speak to Grandpa last night but I know that he worked late so I am sure he was tired when he got home. I did speak to Meme though. All is well there. Mom hasn't heard anything from Aunt Beck so I guess that means she is in the jungle now for a couple weeks. I don't expect to hear anything for another couple weeks. I know you are with her & making sure she is safe. Thank you my sweet precious son. Thank you for watching over us all like you do. I am sure it is not an easy thing to do but I know you do it because you love us as we love & miss you so much. Not much else to add to updates for you but hopefully as the week progresses I will have things for you. I do have a couple daily prayers again to write to you so here they are: January 29~ Wait for the Lord; be strong & let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord! Dear Lord, you know that waiting doesn't suit me when I think something should be happening right now. But thank you for reminding me today that I don't see the whole picture as you do. Help me to not simply endure as I wait but rather to pluck up courage & live in an attitude of faith-filled anticipation of your good plan that is unfolding in your perfect timing. I want to praise you for that too. Absolutely everything you do is excellent! Waiting rooms of life are incubators of patience & trust, cocoons in which our struggling earthbound spirits develop wings of faith. Amen.
 January 30~ " Come, " my heart says, " seek his face! " Your face, Lord, do I seek. When I wake up, you know my first thoughts, my Lord. You know what brings a smile to my face, what makes me groan & what motivates me to throw the covers back & get going. But before I go meet any of the pains or pleasures of the day, please remind me to look to you & to seek out your encouragement, counsel & strength. How much better my days are when I take your face & follow you through each hour! I seek your face right now & thank you for being here for me. God is not hiding that we need to seek him. No, the problem is that we are often wandering far afield from where he waits for us. We have to leave our cities of selfishness, fairs of foolishness & palaces of pride to find him where he is always waiting for us---in the quiet halls of prayer. We must seek him there. Amen.
 Mom is all caught up with those once again. The evening sky is upon us but I am pretty sure I will see nothing shining as the weather today has been overcast & very cloudy. I will look to the sky anyways & whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice & smile & Mom will too. I hope that your night is all that you want & need it to be for you. Have fun while I sleep tonight & come be with me. Thanks for visiting me in my dreams last night. I was so happy you did. I miss you so much, Tyler. I know you feel it so no words need to be expressed at all. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Remember that you are my true hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live forever in my heart, mind & soul. Mom needs to get going as dinner is almost ready but I will be back tomorrow night to write to you. Until then.... good night & sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S. Here is my quote for the day: It's your road & yours alone. Others may walk it with you but no one can walk it for you. "
" In the end, we only regret the chances that we didn't take. "