Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? Mom was doing just fine until a few minutes ago. I am pretty sad right now so I thought I would write to you. I just got off the phone with one of my sweet friends. She is back in the hospital again. She has been in & out for a few months now with doctors not knowing what actually is going on but now they do. My heart is breaking at the news that was told to me but I kept it together for her. I didn't cry when she was crying to me. I couldn't. I felt I needed to be the strong one. Oh how I wish there was something I could do for her. The only thing is that I can listen to her & help her that way. If mom lived closer than I would be there visiting her daily as she needs that right now more than ever. She needs to keep her chin up , keep smiling & staying positive even through the tears & sadness. You know who Mom is talking about without the mention of her name. Please Tyler if there is anything that you can do or help her with please do. Thank you so much my sweet precious son. 
 Mom's day started out rough as last night I did not sleep well at all. I tossed & turned & listened to the heavy rain & wind. Everything seemed to keep me awake last night. I am hoping that I get some good sleep tonight though as I am so dang tired. The weather today was really beautiful. It was sunny, blue skies & 54 degrees here. I was shocked...never those temps here in the middle of January! The over foot of snow that we had just 4 days ago is almost completely melted & it is just wet & soggy grass. There are a few snow banks but they are definitely melting. I know tomorrow is suppose to be warm temps again but foggy & raining so I think the rest will be gone by Friday or Saturday. That doesn't make me sad in the very least....lol! 
 Other than a couple phone calls my day has been quiet & my night will be just as quiet as it will be early to bed for me tonight. Mark was on the phone most of the day with work & he actually still is while I am writing to you. I have my Secret Garden on & I am trying to relax. Mom is super late on getting things ready for dinner tonight. My head is just all over the place & I am having a very hard time staying focused on the things I need to do. Here is the daily prayer for you on January 11~ I say to the Lord, " You are my Lord; I have no good apart from you. " My Lord, you are the one who watches over me & keeps me, the one who provides for me & gives me strength for each day, the one who stays with me & leads me toward those places that will bring me peace & blessing, including heaven where I will enjoy eternal life with you. What would I do without your loving presence in my life? My heart brims over with appreciation & love whenever I consider all the goodness you've poured out into my life. The Jesus said to the twelve, " Do you also want to go away? " But Simon Peter answered Him, " to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. Also we have come to believe & know that You are the Christ, the Son of the living God. " Amen.
 Here is Mom's quote of the day " Surround yourself with people who know your worth. You don't need too many people in your life.....just a few real ones who appreciate you for exactly who you are. "
 The night sky is upon us & the sky is crystal clear. Mom went out on the balcony to view the Skyline & it is breathtaking tonight. The lights just twinkle in the sky. The moon is even out. Looks to appear to be almost full. I took some pictures. The camera didn't do it justice but that is ok. I can see it with my own eyes. I will look to the sky later & whisper to you my sweet Angel. I will smile & hope you will too. I miss you so much. I miss it all & I know you can feel just how much deep in your soul. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my hero, the wind beneath my wings. Mom hopes you have a peaceful evening. May you do all that you want & need to do. Have fun & come be with Mom tonight. Thank you. Good night Tyler & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow night.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!