Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing ok. I just got done doing one of my training classes. I received a 90% on the test & I have my 1st CEU so that made me smile today! Mark is working from home as he is not 100% better but he definitely is doing a lot better than what he was over the weekend. Mom got some sleep at least last night & I am aiming for a full night sleep tonight! If you can please be with Mom as I need you by my side. I always will need you. I miss you so much. I miss everything about you...your laugh, your voice, your smile, your advice, your kisses on my cheek, you telling me that you love me. Oh how I wish I could hear you. I love you unconditionally. I always will. You are my hero, Tyler. I know I tell you this in every letter but it is true. I am not sure you realized this when you were here with Mom but I know you feel it now. You made me a better person, a better Mom, daughter, sister, wife. You taught me so much about life.....that the little things meant the most & not the big things. You taught so much to so many. You were & still continue to be such an inspiration to Mom & others. I hope you are able to see this on a daily basis. You are my wind beneath my wings. Thank you for everything....the things you did back then & what you still continue to do now for Mom, for our family & friends. It means so much to me. 
 Mom spoke to Grandpa last night briefly as he was headed to work. He wasn't too happy to be doing the night shift for inventory & I don't blame him. He worked late last night & he had to work today as well. I worry about that. I worry about Meme as well. They both worked so hard all their life & this should be the time that they just relax & enjoy things but instead they are still busting their butts just so they can pay bills. It makes me so sad. I wish I had enough money so that I could pay of their bills for them..houses, cars, etc... so they could live comfortable & not worry. Maybe one day this will come true. I didn't speak to anyone else last night or all today. Its been pretty quiet so far. I am ok with that though. There is enough to do here to keep Mom busy....lol! 
 The weather today was sunny & windy. The temp was pretty cold though. I think it was maybe 15 degrees today are the highest. The sun seems to be setting right now. It is starting to get dark. Mom is hoping to see the stars & moon shining bright. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice later. I am sure we will be smiling at the same time when I do. Here is the daily prayer for January 9~ The promises of the Lord are promises that are pure, silver refined in a furnace on the ground, purified seven times. With you, dear Lord, a promise made is a promise kept. There is no question of your faithfulness in keeping your word. You have a perfect track record. That's why there is every reason for me to trust you today----to trust that you will keep your word & carry out your good purposes for my life as I keep my focus on you. Help me be patient & faithful as I wait for your fulfillment of your pure & perfect promises. I claim God's promise for my life & look to their fulfillment & rightly so, but that shows only the human perspective on them. God's perspective is that through His promises I will come to recognize His claim of ownership on me. Amen.
 Here are a couple quotes that are near & dear to Mom's heart: " I fall. I raise. I make mistakes. I live. I learn. I've been hurt but I am alive. I'm human. I am not perfect, but I am thankful. " 
 " Today will never come again. Be a blessing. Be a friend. Encourage someone. Take time to care. Let your words heal & not wound. "
 " Laughter is timeless. Imagination has no age & dreams are forever. "
 It is that time of the night where Mom needs to be going so that I can do all the nightly stuff for Mark, myself & the pups. Mom is hoping your evening will be all that you want & need it to be. Hope you have fun while I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. Thank you my sweet precious son. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow night..... I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!