Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you on this Friday afternoon? It has been a quiet day here with Mark working & no telephones ringing at all. Mom is doing okay. Last night was an even quieter night because Mark was angry with Mom & we didn't even speak to one another. I ate dinner alone while he was on the telephone with a co-worker & then Mom went into the bedroom to watch TV while Mark watched the Cowboys game in the living room. I went to bed around 10:30 pm & fell right to sleep. Guess I was so emotionally exhausted from the whole day. Today is a little better. At least Mark is talking to Mom now. I have done housework...vacuumed, laundry, trash, mail run & a couple other small things today. Now I have the time to write to you for a few minutes before I need to start doing the night routine stuff as it is already 3:30 pm. This day has flown by that is for sure. Oh yeah before I forget... Happy 1st day of September. It is goodbye summer & hello Autumn. It really blows my mind that it is this time of the year already. Just 4 months to go & we are in another new year. I remember that September would drag on for the month & then October, November & December would fly by so quickly because of the holidays. It is just crazy. 29 days & Grandpa & Debbie will be getting married. Mom did some more " Matron of Honor " duties today for them. I have been enjoying that so much. I wished that we had lived in the city because I would have pursued event planning/wedding planning/vacation planning for folks. Mom loves doing this so much. It is fun for me. Oh well...maybe in another life of mine I can do that for a career. 
 Not much on the updates at all for you. It is a 3 day weekend because it is Labor Day on Monday. That means everything closes up for the season... the beaches, oceans, amusement parks, etc... they will reopen again at the end of May. Mark & Mom really don't have anything planned so I guess it will either be a spontaneous weekend of doing things or a weekend of doing absolutely nothing & just relaxing. Either way is fine by me. Guess I will let you know which way it goes on my letters to you...lol. Mom was not happy to find out that Mark has to go on another business trip soon. I am so tired of these dang things. No one else has to do that on his team & it is just not fair. Mom is not sure if she will stay here while he is away or if I will go back to NH for a visit. I am still pondering the thought over. I will make my mind up by next week for sure. Another thing that is coming up is a decision that we have to make....do we stay here another year or do we relocate to a place closer to Mark's office so he doesn't have to travel so far. Moving in plain English sucks but we have to do what is best & what will be right for us in the long run. Mark & I have been talking it over the last few days & have come to a somewhat agreement on things so we shall see in the next couple months. Just continue to watch over Mom & the rest of our family my sweet precious son. Thank you so much. I miss you more than any words can say & I love you even more. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Never forget this, please!
 Last night due to everything going on here....it looks like Mom may have missed a pretty sunset. By the time I saw it the sky was a lavender purple & pinkish color. I said to myself... " Oh I bet the sunset was pretty tonight...dang I missed it. " Maybe I will get to see one tonight. I think I will sit outside & have a glass of wine on the balcony this evening. Not many more nights like these I am afraid as you know what season comes next...ugh...winter! If Mom is lucky I will get to see some stars & perhaps the moon shining bright. I will be looking for it all. I will whisper to you as I always do as well so be listening for my voice. Smile to Mom & I will smile back to you. Mom needs to get going but before I do here is a prayer for the day: May you be honest with God about the hurts in your heart. May you discern the difference between grief and self-pity. May you be okay with not always being okay. God will one day wipe away every tear from your eyes, but until then, He wants to help you walk this journey with peace in your heart and assurance in your soul. He is with you. He will heal you. And He will one day turn your mourning into dancing and your sorrow into songs of joy. In the meantime, enjoy the little graces you find along the way. Celebrate the small victories. Dare to dream. And take one step at a time. You’re going to be okay. 
 Here is a saying for the day as well: My wish for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to be. Your dreams stay big & your worries stay small. You never need to carry more than you can hold & while your out there getting where you're getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you & wants the same thing too. This is my wish. 
 Mom will be back Saturday night with another letter to you so until then.... have fun tonight while Mom is sleeping. Do great things wherever you are. Come visit Mom if you can. Thanks pumpkin. Good night & sweet dreams. I love you, my shining star.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!