Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is all screwed up with the days as yesterday was Monday & it was a holiday. Today I have been thinking it was Monday & Monday was Sunday.... yikes.... by the end of the week I will get it right...lol! Anyways... today has actually flown by as it is already after 4 pm. Mom has been up since 6:15 am because I jut couldn't sleep. Guess I got enough sleep during the night to get up & be ready to start my day at that time of the morning. Mom accomplished quite a bit of things today.... I had to reorganize everything in the kitchen, including the pantry, did the trash, broke down the boxes, got ready, took the pups out for a walk & the came in the office & started doing all the stuff I needed to do for the day. Mom paid some bills, did some shopping online & then went to my college site to see just how terrible I did on my 1st exam in my new class. I knew I had done a pretty crappy job on it & knew it would either be a close to failing grade or a failing grade. When I got into the site I was stunned at the score that I got. I was not prepared for it at all to say the least. Mom got a 91% on it....holy smokes! I was doing a happy dance for sure. I am so psyched! I went over the test & put the correct answers in where I got them wrong & looks like a total of 5 were incorrect out of 68! Mom will take that for sure! I feel very accomplished with that now. I need to have more self confidence I think. I am always doubting & second guessing myself. Time for that to stop. Time for a change!
 Mom spoke to Grandpa last night. All is well with him & Debbie. Meme called me a couple times today & she is angry with Mom right now. She is not listening to what I am trying to tell her & it is really tough to deal with when she is in that kind of a mood. Maybe I will chat with her later if she is calmed down, if not then I will wait a couple days. Tried calling Aunt Beck but she was not home so I left her a message. Also called Bean & left her one as well. Mom was told some very sad news today by one of her friends. Remember the one that had the knee replacement then ended up having his leg amputated? Well, I wrote about him a couple weeks ago stating that they saw a couple masses on his lung...well he had those biopsied & they indeed came back cancerous plus he has another mass in his other lung now too. He is going to be going for a series of tests next week in Boston. Hope they can get some more answers to what they can do. It is stated that if this hospital can not support the kind of treatment that is needed then there is nothing that can be done & no treatment can help. Mom is beyond scared for my friend & her son. This is hitting too close to home & just reminds me of you & I. Different situations altogether but same hardships that we faced for so many times during the 20 years. Mom has her fingers crossed. In the weather news..... another hurricane is hitting the Virgin Islands & going up through the state of Florida by the end of the week. This one is suppose to be even more dangerous than Hurricane Harvey that just hit Texas last week. This new one is Hurricane Irma. It is said that it will be a category 5 for Florida, South Carolina & North Carolina. Mom is scared as we have many family members that live in Florida & Mom has several friends that live in all 3 of them states. I guess from what Mom also heard is that there is a 3rd hurricane right after this one heading in the same path. This is just awful, Tyler. So many are without everything. So much was lost in the last one...people, animals, etc.... I really hope all this stops & soon. Too much sadness right now. Whatever you can do wherever you are, please do my sweet precious son. Thank you. I think that is all the updates Mom has for you today. More to come I am sure later in the week.
 Mom thought of something that I am going to do on here for you the whole month of October. Seeings how your favorite Holiday was Halloween... Mom has found a different Jack/ Nightmare Before Christmas picture for you for every day that leads up to Halloween night. They are really neat & I know when you see them you will really like them so enjoy!
 Here is the prayer for the day:  May Jesus tilt your chin upward so you can sense His smile and more clearly hear His voice. May He speak a surprising word of encouragement to you so you have the strength to keep marching onward. May He build a bridge where you least expect one. May He connect you to others who see the best in you. May you steward this training season with clarity, purpose, and conviction. May the things you've been hoping for and praying for culminate into one glorious answer that takes your breath away. And may your faith become sight sooner than later. He's making a way where there's been no way. You can trust Him.

For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it (Isaiah 43:19 NIV)?

 Here is a saying for today as well: I know in my heart that to heal from any hurt, I must forgive the people who have caused me pain. When I hold onto resentment or anger towards another person, I am giving that person power over my own heart. By forgiving them I am not saying that their actions were acceptable, I am just cutting all ties to them & releasing myself from pain, I set myself free. Anger is a natural emotion but I recognize that when I hold onto it for too long, it becomes toxic & it affects every fiber of my being & life. I look to the person who has caused me pain & I now see them for the human being that they are. I forgive them & I replace my pain with peace. 

 Mom needs to get going as it is almost 5 pm & I need to get things going for the night time. Hope you visit Mom tonight when I am sleeping. Have fun & do all kinds of great things like Mom knows you do! I will whisper to you later tonight so be listening out for my voice. Smile & Mom will too. I miss you more than ever & I love you to the moon & back. You are my hero, the wind beneath my wings & my shining star. You forever will be inside my heart, mind, body & soul. I will be back tomorrow night with your letter. Until then.... good night & sweet dreams. 

 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS Thank you to all in the United States, France, Italy, Germany, Portugal, Poland, Philippines & Ukraine that continue to follow my letters to Tyler. Your support means so much to me. Blessings to each & every one of you!