Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this sunny but cold Saturday afternoon? The weather definitely doesn't match my mood today unfortunately. Usually the sun makes me chipper and happy but today I am everything but that. The day didn't start out as I had hoped it would. Mark and Mom shared some words and the morning and day has been pretty much ruined. We were suppose to go out shopping but after everything happened, Mom did not feel like going shopping or doing anything for that matter. I made the bed, got ready and made breakfast and came into my office and finished up my final exam in my class. I was going to wait to do it on Monday but I really had nothing better to do so I chose to just finish it up. I still have to wait for my instructor to message me but everything is all set to just submit it if I don't have to make changes. I already started on my next course and I am working on Exam 1 so that is a start also. It feels good to have a head start on things for a change. 
 I know you are probably seeing Mom not being herself right now and all day long. Mom is just having a sad day. I am hurt and very upset of the things that were said to me last night and this morning. I know you know just how bad it hurts to have not so nice things said about you. Mom knows how it feels too. It is not a nice feeling at all and it makes you feel pretty much useless. Mom has always thought I was part of a team but I am finding out that I am not. It hurts when someone doesn't want to include you in things and you are left alone and feel left out. Oh, Tyler...you know that feeling way too well. Mom is always trying to do everything to keep things together, to make sure everything is alright in the home, with the pups,etc... I try to wear so many "hats" that I have very little time for myself. I am the one who cooks, cleans, takes care of the pups, does all the housework and goes to school full time. It is hard to hear when someone says that I am not applying myself to their standards or in the time frame that they want to see. Mom is human. I am trying my best without pushing myself to the edge. I thought I was doing good but I guess that I was wrong. I just want you to know that with you seeing me this way, Mom will be okay. I will pull it together and I will be just fine. Right now I just want to be left alone and be sad for awhile because I just don't know what to do at this point in time to try and fix it. I am at a loss for words and you know that Mom is never lost for words at all...lol. Please just be with me and help me get through this. It would mean so much to me. Thank you my sweet precious son. 
 After Mom gets done writing to you I think I will go cuddle on the couch and watch a movie or 2 before it is time to feed the pups and make dinner for myself. Mark is here but we are not saying a word to one another so I know how it goes from experience that it will be a quiet afternoon and an even quieter evening ahead. That is okay by me today. I just want to get lost in another world and not be here right now and what better way than through a movie. Mom has several Christmas movies to watch so I will watch a couple of those. They always make me happy. It is already 2 pm and the sun will be setting in about 1 1/2 hours and then it will be dark outside. Mom has an appointment to go to tomorrow so I will get out and go to that and then do some shopping. I will make it a day out by myself for a bit. Maybe that is exactly what I need. I know you will be with me though and I appreciate that so much. I wish you were here so you could cheer me up and make me laugh and smile. I sure miss you. More than words can say. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be in my heart, mind, body and soul. 
 Mom has no updates for you again today. The phones have been so super quiet the last few days. Everyone is pretty busy in their own lives with working, Christmas shopping these days and whatever else they have planned or going on. Mom will be sure to update you on things as soon as I hear something. I hope that your night will be everything you want it to be and more. Have fun while I sleep tonight and I will be sure to light the candle for you later this evening. I will whisper to you as well so smile when you hear my voice and I will smile back to you. Mom is going to close this letter to you and go watch a movie now. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you and I promise to be in a better mood as well. Until then...good night and sweet dreams later. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the pray for the day:

And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth? Luke 18:7– 8, NIV

Father in heaven, we surrender ourselves to your love, the love in which Christ comes to us. Like children we say every day to the Lord Jesus himself, "Lord Jesus, come, come! Even if we cannot see you today because times have changed, come into the world, come more and more into world history. Send more and more of your nature, your goodness, into all hearts. Come at last, come quickly to bring an end to the adversary, an end to world power with its sinister, hostile character. May bright day, clear light from the Father in heaven, dawn through you, Lord Jesus. Yes, come, Lord Jesus!" Amen.