Dear Tyler,

Hello my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? I hope that all is well up in Heaven for you. Mom is doing well today.. the best that can be. The sun is setting as I type you this letter and the view is so much nicer on the 2nd floor. It is a big yellow, orange sunset. Very pretty! My day was pretty busy! Mark worked in the office all day which was a change from the way he normally does it. I had the day to myself so I caught up on things that needed to be done... housework, laundry, etc... The guys that help with apartments here also stopped by to do the rest of the work in the apartment. They were here for about an hour and boy did the pups dislike it. They made so much noise that Snickers got pretty scared. He actually had 2 accidents in the apartment because of it. I felt so bad for him. He was just a shaking. Max didn't care. He pretty much slept through it all..lol : )
 Everything is pretty much back to normal here now that the move is complete and done. It feels good to have put it all behind us now. We only have to work in the loft area. We are still trying to decide what to do and where to put things up. We know we are doing a office/media room we just need to get a few pieces of furniture up there to complete it. I wish that you were here with us so that you could enjoy it too. I know you are though. Just in a way that I wish I could see you. I miss you so much.
 I always look to the sky as you know so that I can see the stars and I wonder what you are doing? How do you spend your day? Are you always busy doing something or do you have " down time " ? If you do.. what is it like? I have so many questions and I constantly think about it all. My head is always in the thinking mode. 
 I can't wrap my head around the fact that yesterday was 11 months since you have left us. Next month will be 1 year. The 1 year from hell for me. The ups & downs plus all the emotional roller coaster rides, and the outbursts of cries. I have a feeling that I will always be this way. I watch my show again last night and Theresa did a reading for a woman who lost her only son. I once again could relate to it all. The things she said and the validations that her son was giving his Mom on the Spiritual side. It made me smile and it made me cry. Again.. she gave me the knowledge of knowing that you are always with me just in a different way. You experience things with me by having you by my side. You walk with me and see things as I do. You want me to be happy and move forward. You are learning and growing on the other side. I need these reminders from time to time. I love you so much. You will continuously be my everything! I think ... no I know that you know this :)
 Thank you for the stars shining brightly the last several nights. The sky has been so clear. I look up and whisper to you. I hope you can hear me and know that I look forward to it every night. I will whisper to you again tonight. Hope you will be listening! I hope you have a relaxing evening and may it be all that you want it to be and need. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you for all you do for us and all the other Angels that help. Means a lot to us. 
 Sweet dreams my precious son. I miss you and I love you beyond this world. Forever!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!