Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing? I hope that everything up in the Heavens are good and that you are doing all that you need and want to do. I am so sorry for not writing the last 3 nights. As you are probably already aware Mark & Mom have had the hardest time the last couple days/nights. The weather here has been very heavy rains with massive thunder and lightning storms plus tornado and flood warnings. Monday was the worst though. The storms lasted all day and the rain never stopped. Snickers was so scared that I had to hold him for 7 hours to try and keep him calm. Otherwise he would get scared and pee all over the place. Mark and Mom haven't got much sleep either. We are just both so exhausted. Guess it is going to be a very long week for us because it is suppose to do this until Sunday...oh joy!
 To say the least when I can not write to you or the day is just too long and busy I feel so disconnected from you. I really dislike that feeling. Due to the weather I haven't seen any stars shining either so that just adds to the sadness. I miss you so much Tyler. Some of my friends that have recently lost their child(ren) are seeing all kinds of signs from them... silhouettes of them around, flowers just popping up where they weren't before and as I read these statements I just wonder what I am doing wrong. Why am I not seeing any signs from you? I am always looking out for them and nothing. Am I trying to hard? What am I doing so wrong? Please give me a sign that you are doing well and that you are near Mom. I know you always are and you are watching out for me and others but I guess I just would like something " bold ". I hope I am not asking too much from you. I know I was already told that you were fine and you were just extremely busy learning new things and gaining a ton of knowledge. I understand that. I guess I am just missing you so much that is all. 
 Spoke to Aunt Becky today. She and John are heading out to Georgia to pick up a RoadTrek that they purchased. They fly out tomorrow and drive back this week. Please watch over them and make sure that they get there and arrive home safely. Thank you so much for all you do. When we were talking she did mention that she had a weird dream of you when she was in Ecuador. She was upset because she couldn't remember details. She still doesn't know what that was all about. Please go to her and let her know that you are ok. Thank you again.
 Skyped with Meme and Bob on Saturday for 3 hours and with Grandpa and Debbie for 2 hours on Sunday. It was so nice to see them all and chat. I can't believe that I will be seeing them all in 2 weeks. As I said before bittersweet for Mom. I believe that it will be very emotional for me in so many ways. Marion and Charlie get married in 18 days...wow... Haven't heard from them lately but I bet they are getting excited
 Oh yeah I keep forgetting to tell you that Spencer is a Daddy now. His baby boy was born on May 14th at 10:27pm. Just missed Mom's Birthday by 1 1/2 hours. Close though! He sure is a cutie. I bet somehow you were there with him watching his son being born. It sounds like something you would do. You, Adam, and Spencer were very close. Brothers as you all would say : )
 Well, it is getting late and I still have not ate dinner. Poor Mark he must be starving..lol. I will promise to write you a letter every day. Even if it is a short one. I will  look to the sky tonight and whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for Mom. I miss you so much and I love you beyond any words could ever express. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. Sweet dreams Tyler. May your evening be peaceful and restful. Forever in my heart and soul and always on my mind.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!