Dear Tyler,

My sweet precious son....Oh where oh where do I start my letter to you tonight. Today was Mother's Day and what a very hard day it was for Mom... to have to go through it without you. I would be lying if I said it was easy. I know I am not the only one who has lost a child ( ren ) or a Mother but I guess I didn't know what to expect of today as it is my very 1st one. My emotions were all over the place. I really just went through my day treating it like a regular Sunday so that I could just get by. I did have several family & friends  that sent me messages over FB telling me they were thinking of me on this difficult day. That was so sweet and for a few minutes I didn't feel so alone. 
 You were and still are the apple of my eye. From the moment you were born you had my heart completely. I was sitting outside today and I was thinking back to all the memories through the years with you. From a new born , to a toddler, to a teenager, to a young man. All the good, bad, and the ugly times we shared together. I remember all the talks, the laughs, the walks, the family gatherings, the vacations that we got to have. It makes me smile to remember all this.
 Tyler, I want you to know that I was and am so humble & honored that you chose me to be your Mother and to walk the journey of your life with you. There are so many things that I wish we could have changed but we both know that there wasn't a chance so we did the best we could and gave each other the strength to get by. I wouldn't have changed that for the world. If I could I would do it all over again. I would do it all in a heart beat. Thank you for giving me the gift of unconditional love. You were a teacher to me and so many others on so many levels. I learned so much for you. With all the things Mom has gone through and all that you taught me I am the person I am today. Thank you thank you thank you from the bottom of my heart. 
 I miss you every second, every minute, of every day! I love you with all that I have. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. Fly high and fly free my sweet Angel in Heaven. 
 Sweet dreams pumpkin. Be listening.. I will whisper to you tonight as I always do. Love you...Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!