Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet Angel! How are you doing tonight in Heaven? I hope that it is relaxing and peaceful for you. Here where Mom & Mark are.. it is quiet and the sky is clear with a few clouds. The wind is just a whipping though. I was sitting by the window looking outside just watching the trees sway. In a way it was kind of relaxing for me. The last several nights have been a bit tough on us. Max has given us a run for our money that is for sure. He is just constantly up and needing to go to the bathroom and now that we are upstairs it is even more difficult to handle him. I am not sure what to do anymore. I am at a loss for words and actions at this point. Mark feels the same way. We feel bad for him but we have no solutions at this point. We barely get any sleep and we are so tired. If there is anything that you can do on your side for Max we would really appreciate it and I know Max would too. He doesn't get any sleep either... : (
 It is Memorial Day weekend so it will be a quiet one around here. It usually is during the Holidays. We are not doing anything. Going to just relax and do our normal things here. I will do housework and laundry, plus grocery shop on Saturday and Sunday and Monday we will just relax and enjoy a little extra time together. It is going to be very warm here..high 90's for the whole weekend. Guess the traffic is going to be even more horrendous than normal so that just makes me want to stay off the roads too!
 Things are just the same around here. I haven't really spoken to anyone all week. Oh yeah, I spoke to Grandpa the other night briefly. He is doing well. Working a few hours and doing misc. things to keep him busy. Debbie is good too. I haven't spoken to Meme or anyone else so I will try and catch up with them this weekend. I guess everyone is well. I sure do miss them, but I miss you so much more.
 Living on the 2nd floor... we have a " buzzer " that is wired into the apartment so that when doors open it gives this loud beep noise to let us know the doors are ajar... so far it has happened to me twice where the " buzzer " goes off and I immediately drop what I am doing and run because it sounds just like your vent did when it went off. I guess it is a force of habit. When I realize it is just the door my heart sinks and I get a sad face and my heart hurts. Things are just not the same anymore. I love you so much. You were always Moms world. 11 months later I still have a hard time believing that you are gone. I hate even thinking about it. It hurts too much. I have such a void in my heart and my life now. I try my hardest but it just sometimes isn't enough and I don't know what to do. I am lost that is for sure. I am having a hard time finding my place in this world now. Things that mattered to me before don't matter to me now. I just don't care. It has been this way since I lost you. Again.. if you can help me from your side and guide me to what I should be doing I will be looking for signs of help from you. I want you to be with me and smile and be proud of me. 
 When I take the pups out 1 last time tonight I will look to the stars and whisper to you as I always do. Hope you can hear Mom and will be listening out for me. Thank you my sweet precious son for all the things you continue to do and help Mom, Mark and all our family & friends out. We all love and miss you so much but no one does more than Mom!!!
 Sweet dreams my Angel. May your night be all that you want and need it to be. 
 I love you and miss you.. Forever!!!!
  Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!