Dear Tyler,

Hello to you my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing fine today. A little tired from lack of sleep the last couple nights but other than that I am doing well. Max has been giving Mark & I quite the scare these last few days. He is hardly drinking, has only ate 1 meal in 4 days and just sleeps all the time. Doesn't even move a muscle when Mark gets home from work or when Snicks goes outside. Very unlike him. His breathing has been pretty deep and shallow too. I do not like the looks of the way things are going. I am staying up until the wee hours of the night into the morning to make sure he is breathing and doing ok. Breaks my heart. I had been hand giving him water so he will drink. I don't want him to suffer at all. He is old and has had a wonderful and spoiled life. He is stubborn as all heck but that is 1 reason why I love him so. If he doesn't improve in the next day or so he will be going to the vets. I am so afraid of that because I just feel that if he goes he won't be coming back home with us and that I don't want to think about at this time or right now. Please be with him Ty and let him know it is ok. If he has had enough and wants to go be with you then I understand. I don't want him sick and suffering. He means too much to me to have him go through that. We watch Daisy and Baxter go through all that and I can't bare to see another one suffer. I know you understand what I am saying. Do what you can for him and for me. Thanks Ty!
 The weather here is so crappy. I was looking at the next 5 days and it is going to be cloudy and rain until next Tuesday. The temp is suppose to be hot & humid too. In the upper 90's so this will be miserable for all. I guess we need to have the rain. It is very dry here unfortunately. Let it get out of the way in these next several days so that my Birthday is sunny and warm. I want to have a clear night sky so that I can see you shining from the Heavens. That will make my Birthday complete to see you there watching over Mom. 
 Next Friday.. the 16th.. the day after my Birthday we are moving to our new apartment. We should be completely moved in and settled by that Sunday night. We have it all planned out and everything ready to be switched over and turned on in the new one. Mark & I have a plan as well so we are crossing our fingers that it will all go super smooth and stress free. The idea of moving is blah but the new apartment is so beautiful and bigger for us. We will have more room for family & friends for when they come and visit us here. We are super excited so I guess that is all that matters. I know you will be with us every step of the way and you will be seeing the new apartment and smiling. I know you are really going to like it! I hope you visit us all the time : )
 Everything else is going well. Getting to know more of our neighbors and chatting with them now. It is really nice. I hope that it just keeps getting better for us here. As it is we will be here for another 4 years or so. Texas is nice. I know you would love it. Sunny most days, warm just like you like it, and our area is quiet. I wish you were here physically. I know we would have a great time. There is such a wonderful place to go for walks. I think of you when I go walking and picture us together and talking. I miss our times like that. I miss you so much it hurts Mom. I hate this and I get so angry... not at you but at the situation. It just sucks. I am sure you understand. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You still are my everything and always will be.
 I hope you have a wonderful evening in Heaven. May it be restful & peaceful for you. I will be whispering to you as I always do so please be listening for Mom. Sweet dreams my precious son. Fly high & fly free. I love you forever!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!