Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? I hope everything is the best it can be for you no matter where you are & what you are doing. Mom started out having quite the rough morning. I know that you saw me cry alittle, & I told you I was sorry. You must forgive me as today is 20 months to the day that you passed away. The 18 - 20th of every month still hits Mom pretty hard. I think it will always be that way. Too many memories & too many emotions for me. The day did get better as Mark surprised me by getting home early in the afternoon. He came in with a sweet card, a dozen roses & some chocolates. It was super sweet. Later in the afternoon we received another surprise as the 6 boxes of our things came from Texas. I got our pictures that I have not seen in 2 months. It was exactly what I needed today. I think you may have had something to do with that Tyler... so thank you!
 I had posted to your timeline on facebook about hoping to see a feather because the saying is " When feathers are found, Angels are near. " As you already know I didn't see any but I did get a post that Jen Weeks...remember her from Exeter??? Her daughter found a feather & asked her Mommy what it was...she said it was a gift from you. I thought that was super sweet & brought a tear to my eyes. I thought that you would like to know that. 
 Heard from Meme & she was saying that Bob was doing ok. He is not really seeing a change since the surgery. That makes me sad & I worry about that. I hope that things get better for him. Spoke to Grandpa last night. Him & Debbie are well. All is good. He just got a brand new 2015 full size truck. Dark Blue. He seems really happy about it so I am happy for him. Everyone else is good. Thanks for looking after us all.
 Mark took Snicks out a bit ago for a walk. He said that the moon is shining & it is pretty cool. I will have to go look at it after I write to you. I am excited as it will be the 1st time I see it since we moved. All kinds of little signs from you today. Thank you for knowing how to make Mom smile. I will look to the moon & stars & whisper to you as I always do. The weather is just so bitter cold that I won't stay out long though...lol. The wind is so gusty & cold that it stings my cheeks & face. I hate this weather..ugh!
 Here is the daily prayer for today... February 20~ Do not say, " I will repay evil"; wait for the Lord, & he will help you. Heavenly Father, there is so much hatred in this world. It's on the front page of every newspaper & the lead story of the nightly news. We are all obsessed about getting what's due to us & about punishing those who have taken what we think belongs to us, but the only way to peace is through forgiveness. Please teach us that hurting each other is not the solution. Instead, help us all feel your mercy & pass it on to those we encounter each day. Amen. We need to be understanding & practice forgiveness in our daily lives. Please God, continue to show me this & continue to help me in my daily life. Thank you. Amen.
 Tyler, I hope that your evening is all that you need & want it to be. I love you with all my heart & soul. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I hope that tonight you have sweet dreams. I hope to see you in mine tonight while I am sleeping. I miss you so much but I know you are finally happy & at complete peace. That is all I ever have wanted for you. You will forever be in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!