Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom is doing as well as can be! I am sorry that I didn't get the chance to write to you yesterday. So many things needed to get done, phone calls to make & by the time I was done, the day escaped me & it was night time. I was tired too. Last night was one of the 1st nights I slept good in about a week or so. Today has been just as busy. We are trying to find movers to go pack our things in Texas & ship them up here. This I thought would be somewhat easy but apparently not. It is a pain in the you know what! Everything else is ok. The weather today is so cold outside. The wind is blowing & it was snowing earlier. Last night when we did take Snickers out I did see the moon. It was shining so bright. I smiled. It made me very happy. Saw a man walking his dog too. His name was Buddy. Friendly dog & man. Nice to see someone & chat with them. 
 Spoke to Aunt Becky yesterday. Guess things are well with her. She was telling me that John is going for a 2nd opinion on his knee. It has been 5 months since he had the knee replacement surgery & he is still having a hard time. Guess one of his knees are still swollen. She is trying to get him an appointment at DHMC for next month. I know you are with them both but if there is anything you can do to help out I am sure they would appreciate it. Spoke to Meme also. It was so disappointing to hear her say that Bob has not changed any since the heart surgery last Monday. I guess it is not doing what the doctors hoped it would for him. Just so sad. He is such a wonderful person & does not deserve to be going through all this pain & suffering. Just like you, Tyler... you never deserved to go through everything you did for so many years. You were the bravest & strongest person I know. You deserved to be happy & healthy. I guess now that you are gone ( in the physical sense ) I am happy for you because you are free of all the pain & suffering. You are free. You are everything that you ever wanted to be. It means a lot to Mom to know that you are content. I often think about Ron, Ricky, Wendy, Amy & so many more up there with you. I wonder if you see them & if so what is it like. Do you guys talk? Do you do things together? If you do see them please tell them all that I miss them & love them. Give them hugs for me. Thanks Tyler. 
 Here are the daily prayers for Wednesday & today. February 25~ Sing praises to the Lord, for he has done gloriously; let this be known in all the earth. Shout aloud & sing for joy. Thank you for going with me on my walk today, Lord. You know how exhausted I was when I started out. But the longer I walked, the more aware I became of your awesome creation all around me, & the more rejuvenated I became. Sending those three deer by my path was an especially nice touch. You are the bounce in my step, Lord. Thanks for the walk. God writes the gospel not in the Bible alone, but on the trees, & flowers & clouds & stars.
 February 26~ The Lord is king! Let the earth rejoice. Almighty God, how creative you are! Within the elements of your creation are hidden messages of wonder, encouragement, & love. A purple hyacinth breaks through the snow by a rural mailbox, & the message of hope is delivered. A single cardinal swoops down & flies beside the car of someone who is grieving as if to say " Be assured! God sees your grief & is with you." A tiny kitten seems to seek the saddest person in the room & curls up to her lap. Thank you, Lord, for touching us through your creation. How very blessed we are! 
 Well Tyler, the night sky is definitely upon us now. The sky is dark. I know because of the weather we had there will be nothing but clouds in the sky. I will whisper to you as I always do. I hope that you have a peaceful & restful night. I hope that it is all that you want it to be & so much more. Hope you will be listening for Mom's voice. What I wouldn't do to hear your voice again = [
 Please watch over us all like I know you do. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. I love you with all my heart. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. I miss you like crazy. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS.  Tomorrow is Bob's Birthday. I am sure you will visit him.. again ..just don't scare him...lol!