Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom had an ok day. Been up since early this morning & have done a few things on the computer that I have been putting off so I actually feel better that I was able to do some productive things! The weather is once again crappy. It is so cold outside & the wind is whipping so fast that it just stings your face & ears. You remember those days don't you? You hated the winter months just as much as I still do. I don't mind the cold but I hate the snow. I am always asking Mark why we moved from Texas to here. The weather was super hot during the winter but the rest of the year was just beautiful. I am trying so hard to keep a positive attitude but that is not working so well for Mom as you know. For some reason I am just so unhappy here. Much more depressed than what I have been in awhile. I don't know how to snap out of it. I am just in this awful funk. If you can do anything from where you are to help Mom out, that would be great. I need you & I need your help & any other Angels that can help me out too. Thank you so much. I hope this will pass very soon.
 Nothing else really going on. Mark is working longer days & his commute is even longer during the nights. We don't see each other that much now during the week so the weekends mean more to me now. This is a very big transition for us both. I know it is harder on Mom then Mark because he is the one working & being around people so the driving to & from is probably a way that he can mellow out & relax before he gets home. For Mom it makes for a very long day & very lonely. I am such a people person that not talking or seeing anyone for 12 - 14 hours a day is tough! Somehow & some way I will get through it all. 
 We are getting close to ending everything for the apartment in Texas. Just a couple more things to pay & then it is finding out how much it will cost to ship everything else that is left there to us. It will be nice to not have that burden on us any longer & only have to worry about the here & now. We are hoping that within the next few weeks it will be all taken care of. Anyways.... enough of that!
 I am finally caught up with the daily prayers so I only have the 1 to write to you this evening. Here it is... February 19~ Be strong & let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord. Lord in heaven, many days I feel like your servant David, who at times was persecuted & hated & who at times was alone except for your presence. While I do not know why you have given me these burdens to carry, I do know that with your help I can beat them. Each day, I awake with my heart filled with hope that a better life awaits me, if not here on earth, then someday in your heavenly presence. Our trust & faithfulness produce the endurance that sees us through the trials we all face in this life. This prayer speaks volumes to me right now with everything that I am going through in my life. I know that I will get through it all with having you in my life & your guidance through all these hard times. I am strong & I have my faith along with family & friends to help me out. I can do this. I can get through it. I know I will! Thank you God. Amen.
 The evening sky is dark now. I know there is no way I will see the stars & moon tonight. Last night the clouds were so thick that you could hear the planes but couldn't see any of them. I look forward to the days & nights that I will be able to see them. I know that you are shining bright & you are my brightest star. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you can hear Mom. 
 I hope that your evening is peaceful & restful for you. I wish you many sweet dreams & I hope to see you in mine later tonight. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul my sweet precious son. I love you with all my heart. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. I miss you. I miss everything. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!