Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing? Mom has has a crazy busy day so far. All I can say is that it sure is a Monday. I have had to call maintenance from our apartment complex because we have two areas that are leaking from the roof. It is from all the snow & ice. It is just so heavy that so many roofs are collapsing & getting ruined. I hope ours is an easy fix. I feel bad for the ones who have already lost their businesses & their houses from this. This winter has sure been the roughest by far. The worst one that I have ever seen in my life living up here in New England. I know that we will be safe because you will be taking care of us & will be watching over us. I do feel so much safer. Thank you.
 I don't know what it is but I am trying to be a good person. I am trying to make sure that many things get done & that bills are paid & other things get finished while Mark is at work but for some reason ( well I know the reason... just don't want to say it on here..you know though ) I can't seem to do anything right. That makes me angry but hurts me more than anything else. I can't do a darn thing because my hands are tied. Mark loves his new job. I get that but his commute & his hours take away from other important things that need to get done & all these other things keeps taking a back seat. This is not ok. I try to talk to Mark about it but he doesn't see or care to see where I am coming from so it always just ends in a nasty fight. I am so sick of arguing & fighting. I don't have it in me anymore to do it. I am lost for words at this point & I just don't know anything anymore. I am sorry that I am writing this down here in my letter but I know you already see it. You already know about it. I just am so sad, I am so depressed, & so hurt. That is not Mom. I tend to be a positive person, I try to be happy. Tyler, I just don't know what to do. I need you. I need your help now. Will you help me please? Thank you.
 Not much else is new from yesterday. We did skype with Mark's Dad & Step Mom. That was nice. It always is. I enjoying talking to them. They are such wonderful people. I can't say enough nice things about them. Could you do me another favor? Can you watch over Mark's Dad? He took a nasty fall a few weeks ago & broke some ribs & is still pretty sore. I asked how he was feeling last night & he said he was good but Karen said that we would discuss it later. I am guessing that things are not all that great & they just don't want to worry us. I just want him to get better. If you could do that, thank you pumpkin. It would mean a lot to us. I know you watch over all our family & friends & I thank you for that as well. You sure must be pretty busy doing all the things you have to, want to, & with all the requests Mom puts in, huh? Even though I can't see you now.. you still amaze me. You always will be my Hero! 
 Here is today's daily prayer. February 23~ Teach me to do your will, for you are my God. Let your good spirit lead me on a level path. O God, all the instructions & guidance we need to live a purposeful life is provided for us in your Word. So why do we find ourselves allured by commentators on a talk shows or by self-help gurus with all the latest & purportedly greatest approaches to life's problems? Keep me in your perfect will for my life, Lord, & prevent me from being pulled this way & that by all the influences this world promotes. For I know that it is only when you are leading me that I'm moving in the right direction. Wow... ok... today's prayer is exactly what I needed to read. It is just like I said, Ty...with the problems that I am having I don't know what to do or where to turn, but I do know now. I need to just give everything to God. Let him show me the correct way & what the best route to take is. This is just what I needed. Please Lord, help me with the issues that I have been having. I will no longer wonder what to do or what to say or how to make things change. I will talk to you & give you all my worries. I will wait to see what you want me to do. Thank you for this prayer today. It couldn't have come at a better time. Amen. 
 The evening sky is already approaching. It is starting to get dark out. It was a cold & windy day but the sky was clear for some part. I will be surprised to see if the stars will be out later. If not I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be able to hear Mom. I hope your evening is what you need & want it to be. May you relax & be at peace. I love you so much & I miss you like crazy. I hope that you have sweet dreams. Hope I get to see you in mine tonight as well. You will be forever in my heart, mind, & soul my sweet precious son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!