Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing this afternoon on this Tuesday? The weather here is just so cold. It was -13 degrees this morning & has not warmed up at all. This winter is turning out to be the most brutal on that I have ever seen or been in. Hope that Spring comes soon & the snow starts to melt away! 
 Yesterday was just crazy as I had to have maintenance come up & see where the ceiling was leaking in 2 different rooms. The snow & ice is so much & so heavy that is it leaking & has cracked most of our walls. Guess they will be doing a lot of fixing up this apartment when the winter time is over. Lucky us, right? I just have to laugh & shrug it off. That is all I can do...if not I will just sit there & shake my head & cry. I don't really want to do that so....
 Today has been a pretty quiet day. I was up early. I am a little tired so I wanted to write to you now before I get off my computer. I plan on just sitting down in a few & having lunch & cuddling up with a blanket for a bit. Heck, I my even take a nap. Not sure. Mark put his truck in the shop as it needed to be repaired. Not sure what was wrong but hopefully it will be fixed. Things just seemed to be coming at us all at once. Bills to pay, truck needed to be fixed, etc... so much money needed but yet we don't have it all. Sometimes being an adult is just not fun! 
 I spoke to one of my friends today that I haven't in about 3 months. It was so nice to hear her voice & see what has been going on with her. I sure have missed her a great deal. I think she said it best.. we both needed a break but it sure is nice to have my friend back again. Life just gets so crazy at times, as you know. There is just not enough hours in the day to do everything or talk to everyone you want to. Time just is flying by here. When I really think about it.. it really is just sad. We all bust our butts are adults & have very little to show for it. Don't get me wrong... I am blessed with everything that I have & the people that I have in my life, but some days I wish I could have you back. I wish for more time with the family & friends that I love. I try not to think about it too much as that plays into my depression & makes me sad. When those times happen I just redirect my thoughts to happier times & I smile & laugh at remembering certain things.
 Before I get into the letter even more... here is the daily prayer for today. February 24~ For by grace you have been saved through faith, & this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God---not the result of works, so that no one may boast. Amazing grace! That's certainly what grace is, Father in heaven---truly amazing! Grace that gives a sinner entrance into heaven. Grace that reaches down to heal the sick & lift up the poorest of the poor. Grace that changes hearts in an instant. Grace that saved a wretch like me. O Lord, how we thank you for the gift of grace. By your mercy you created a wonderful path to salvation---one that's open to everyone because it's not about what we do but about what you did. Thank you, Father. We praise you for your amazing grace! It is God & God alone who gives me power to walk through dark valleys into the light again. Thank you. Amen!
 I am so happy to be writing to you again each day & being able to give & write to you the daily prayer instead of writing every couple days with 3 or 4 prayers to catch up on. It feels so good to be back into somewhat of a routine. I am hoping that in the next couple weeks I can get back to doing my workouts so I can feel better about myself again. I needed this time to heal from having my cold & being sick. Thank you for watching over Mom. I know you are with me all the time. I love seeing signs from you. Please don't stop. Please continue. Please continue to watch over all the ones that you love. We all thank you so much, Tyler. 
 The sky is blue today with very little clouds for once. Such a nice change. I will be hoping to see the stars & moon shining brightly tonight when the evening sky is upon us. I will look & whisper to you you as I always do. Hope you listen out for my voice. I hope you can hear Mom. I miss you so dang much. I can't even express to anyone just how much that really is. No words can describe it. I know that you feel it & that you know & that really is all that matters to Mom. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 I hope that you have a wonderful night. May it be peaceful for you. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. I hope to see you in my dreams tonight. Always remember... you are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!