Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing today on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is doing ok. Did some housework this morning & have been relaxing & kicking back most of the afternoon. Made some beef stew for dinner. It is cooking in the oven right now & will be done in a couple hours. Smells good throughout the entire apartment. I remember just how much you loved my beef stew. One of your favorites. It is the little things that Mom misses so much. The talks we would have, the games we would play, the walks we would go on, the movies & shows we would watch...just so so much I miss. I know you miss Mom too & the rest of our family & friends, but I do know that you are happy now & you are doing some wonderful things where you are. You are pain free & without any limitations. That means everything to Mom. I have to remind myself of this every day. That is how I get by or I would be a mess every minute of every day. 
 Spoke to Meme this morning. She was saying that all is well with them & Bob was doing really good. That is such wonderful news. I hope it continues with him. That would be amazing. When we were chatting she was telling Mom that it was snowing & raining. It was coming down really good. Everyone says that there will be snow on the ground for Halloween & I am starting to believe that. Not happy about it but it is the part of living in New England we have to be ready for. I am sure that Grandpa will be calling tonight so I will have an update with them for you tomorrow. Mark goes back to work Monday & Mom starts her studies back up. Vacation is officially over. Mom has 5 more chapters to do for school & then it will be my final exam. After that I will be starting to study for the board test to get my certification in medical coding & billing. I can't wait to get a job. I can't wait to get a pay check again. It has been 3 1/2 years. Thank you for being with Mom through this whole thing. Means so much to me.
 Here is the daily prayer for today. October 18~ My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God: when shall I come & appear before God? O God, sometimes my days are frantic dashes between have to, ought, & should. Lead me to a porch step or a swing, a chair or a hillside, where I can be restored by sitting, Lord, simply sitting. With you there to meet me, sitting places become prime places for collecting thoughts, not to mention fragmented lives.
 Ty, I did it... I am finally once again caught up & on track with the day to the daily prayer. I knew I would catch up...lol. Since we left Florida it has been so crazy with the 3 day drive, coming home & doing all the shopping, housework, etc... Finally all it is done & we can get back to our regular routine. Thanks for hanging in there with Mom. Thank you for being near Mom & being with me. I always need you.
 The evening sky will be upon us once again & the sky will be dark in about 1 hour or so. Mom will look to the sky to see if I can see the stars & the moon. No matter what, Mom will be whispering to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice. I hope that your night will be restful & peaceful for you. May it be all that you need & want it to be. Slow down though, relax & rest your eyes. Hope you have the sweetest of dreams. Mom is hoping to see you in my own dreams tonight when I fall asleep. I miss you bunches & love you like crazy. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul my sweet precious son. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!