Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? Mom is alright. Didn't have the best day & I am kind of cranky. Mark worked from home today because his client was sick. He was not feeling well either. Hope Mom does not catch it as I don't need it. No news on Mark's Explorer today so I guess the guys are still trying to locate an engine for him. Everything is just a mess. Not sure what to do to get out of this ordeal that we are in. Mom & Mark are just praying & hoping for the best at this point. I know you are watching over us & we sure do thank you for that. Mom needs you, Mark needs you. Mom misses you so damn much. It hurts everyday. I can't believe that yesterday was 28 months since you have been gone. Mom thought about it when I was trying to sleep last night. I am sure that you heard me talk. I love you so much. My love is & always will be unconditional for you. You were & still are my everything. Mom talks about you all the time. Not sure if folks get tired of it but frankly I could care less. They talk about their kids so why can't I? That is just the way I view it. Mom never really cared if others liked things, just the way I am. My life changed & I changed after I lost you. I am & never will be the same person I once was. Things that mattered then don't matter to me any longer. Funny how that happens. I live with so much less than what I had & I am happier this way now. Living simple as I can with Mark, family, friends & our pups. All that is missing is you my sweet precious son. 
 Got no updates for you as today as you could see was pretty quiet. Spoke to Auntie Kristina for a bit but that was it. Meme texted me & said we would chat later tonight. Hope everything is well with them. I know you watch over our family & friends & Mom is forever grateful that you do. I live closer now than in Oklahoma or Texas but it is still a short distance to get to where they are. 
 Before I forget, here is the daily prayer for you today. October 21~ For all have sinned, & come short of the glory of God; Being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus. We shouldn't seek perfection in our friends, for we are not perfect. We should look for kindness,compassion, patience,& humor----in our friends & in our hearts. Amen.
 Well, once again the night sky is almost upon us. Today was raining, dark dreary & cold. Not sure Mom will see the moon & stars shining tonight but that is ok. I will whisper to you as I always do so please be listening out for my voice. Mom hopes that your evening is filled with love, light, smiles & all the things you need & want it to be. May you slow day, rest your eyes for a bit & have the sweetest of dreams. Mom hopes to see you in my own dreams tonight. Keep sending me signs too. I look for them & I love them so much! You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!