Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Friday night? I am sure that you are having fun as it is all Hallow's Eve. Mom, as you have been seeing all day has been very emotional. Lots of talking to you, singing you a very special song & many tears shed today. I am just having a hard time knowing that tomorrow is Halloween & it was your favorite time of the year. I miss this time with you along with every thing else. Mom knows it is wrong, but I can't help but think & feel that we both were robbed of this & so much more. Please help Mom to deal with this so that I don't feel the way that I do. I dislike the feeling so much. Thank you. 
 Mom is sorry that I missed writing to you but honestly, the day just got the best of me. I made homemade banana bread, did some laundry & housework & then I started to go online to do some studying & again the phone got the best of Mom & I ended up talking on the phone with Auntie Kristina for the most part. Needed to make dinner & then I didn't even do that... we ordered pizza. Mark & Mom were suppose to go to a Halloween party were we live but we found out it was for parents that had little kids. Mom was bummed but I understood. I ended up chatting with Grandpa for a bit & then watch tv. After all that Mom was just so tired so I went to bed. 
 Grandpa & Debbie are doing well. I also got to speak with Meme today. She seemed like she was doing well. Bob too. She was saying that she was disappointed because her VW bug has crapped out. She loves this car so hopefully things will work out & she will be able to get it fixed. I know that you are watching over us all & making sure we are all healthy & well. Thank you so much my sweet precious son. It makes us feel so happy, protected & proud.
 Have a couple daily prayers for you so here they are. October 29~ Then the disciples, every man according to his ability, determined to send relief unto the brethren which dwelt in Judaea. Father, It's easy to say, " Let me know if there's anything I can do. " But how much better to peer closer, assess the situation to find what needs doing, & the simply do it. Help me look into a friend's needs instead of waiting to be asked. Help me replace the words I utter so glibly with actions that might matter even more. Amen.
 October 30~ Let your light shine before men, that they may see your good works & glorify your Father which is in heaven. Some prayers are best left unfinished, God of abundance, & this will be an ongoing conversation between us. Each day I discover new gifts you offer me, & the list of reasons to be thankful grows. As I accept your gifts & live with them thankfully, guide me to become a person who shares with others so that they, too, can live abundantly. May someone, somewhere, someday say of me, " I am thankful to have this person in my life. " Amen.
 All caught up once again. The evening sky is fully upon us. The moon is suppose to be almost full tonight as Halloween night it will be full. I am hoping to see it shining bright & also some stars in the sky. No matter what I will be whispering to you as I do each & every night. Be listening out for my voice tonight. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 Mom hopes that tonight is all you want & need it to be & to do. Rest if you can, close those beautiful eyes of yours & have sweet dreams. Hope to see you in my dreams tonight as well when I lay my head to go to sleep. Please be with Mom tonight as I need you, just like I do all the time. Remember that you are in my heart, mind & soul...forever!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!