Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom has had a pretty off day. Last night I really didn't sleep all that much. My head & eye still hurt like crazy. Think I fell asleep around 2 am & then I was up at 7 am. As you can imagine, Mom is pretty tired. After getting ready this morning, I got some sad news. Denise messaged Mom to let me know that her Mom passed away yesterday afternoon around 4:30 pm. I know the last few weeks have been quite tough for her & she was just placed into hospice the last couple weeks. She was a tough cookie & she tried her hardest to beat the cancer that she had. She was a wonderful lady that will definitely be missed by many. If you see her, tell " Tattoo Momma " that she was a hero to so many & that all were proud of the fight that she fought for the time that she did. Give her hugs from us all. Thanks Ty. She deserved to get her wings just like you did. Mom is heartbroken for her family that have to grieve the loss of their loved one but Mom is happy for Betty as she is no longer suffering & she will be at peace now. 
 The rest of Mom's day was ok. The weather was rainy, cold & overcast again. It is playing such havoc on Mom though. It is quite painful. Mark & I went & did grocery shopping & went to a few more stores to start looking for Christmas ideas. Before you know it it will be here. Think someone said 9 weeks until then. Hard to believe it will be another year, another year without you. Mom did pick up another ornament for you, like I did last year. I will bring it up to you when I come in a couple weeks. Last years was green & this years is red. Mom will do this every year for you. Hope that it will make you smile. We want to put the Jack bust down there as well but not sure if we will be able to as the ground may be too cold. If so, we will do it in the spring. I will keep it here for it to be safe for the time being. 
 No new updates as Mom really has not spoken to anyone in the last 3 days. I really need to call Aunt Beck to see how they are doing. Maybe I will in a couple minutes. We have a skye call with Tubal & Karen in 30 minutes. We do this every other week to stay in touch. It is nice. We enjoy it & we think they do too. 
 Mom has a couple daily prayers for you so here they are. October 24~ We toss & turn, God of nightmare peace, making lists of " must do " & " should have done " & wind up feeling unequal to the tasks & sleep deprived to boot. Bless us with deep sleep & dreams that reveal us as you see us: beloved, worthy, capable. At dawn, help us see possibilities on our lists. Each time we yawn today, Lord----for it was a short night----we'll breathe in your restorative presence & exhale worries. Tonight we'll sleep like the sheep of your pasture, for we lie down & rise up in your care, restored, renewed & rested. Amen.
 October 25~ Today, I want to spend time with you, Renewing Spirit. In fact, I'd like to spend the whole day just being in your presence. For this one day I will not worry about the work I have to do or the goals I want to accomplish. I will pull back & simply listen for your guidance. I'm willing to change my life in order to fit your perfect will, & I ask that you begin that work in my heart, even now. I'll let go of personal ambition, for now. I'll loosen my grip on the things I've wanted to accomplish & the recognition I've craved for so long, All of this I give over to you. I'm content to be a servant for now, quiet & unnoticed, if that is what you desire. I'm even willing to be misunderstood, if you will only respond to my sincere prayer for a renewed heart. Thank you. I need you so much. Amen.
 All caught up for you, yet again. The evening sky is upon us in full now. The sky is dark & the moon & stars are not out at this time. Maybe later as the sky was trying to clear up a couple hours ago. No matter what, Mom will whisper to you like I do every night. Hope you listen to me talking to you. Hope you smile when you hear my voice. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you unconditional. Always have & always will. Please continue to watch over Mom, Mark & our family & friends. Thank you. Means the world to Mom. May your night be all you want & need it to be. Sweet dreams & hope to see you in my own tonight too. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!