Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet precious son. How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Hope that everything is bright, sunny, warm & cheery where you are. Mom is having a tough day as you can see. It started out well but very quickly it dipped into a crappy morning & downhill ever since. No need for details as you can feel all that I do & see Mom. I just hurt, that is all. Please be with me, Ty. I need you. Thank you.
 I am so sorry that I did not write to you last night. I got caught up into the things that I was doing & then it got to be too late & Mom got tired. Not a great reason why not to write but it is the truth. Sometimes I have a hard time writing to you even though I enjoy it & feel closer to you. It is the bad days, the sad days that get to me...yesterday was one of them.
 Spoke to Grandpa last night. Him & Debbie are doing well. Just working & their every day life. Debbie's sister is doing a little better. My heart goes out to her for what has happened. Just brings back all the nightmares that I had while you were at Crotched Mtn. Not sure if you remember me talking about her but she had a grand mal seizure a few weeks ago. She is residing where you did. That is all I have to say about that. Meme called today too. Her & Bob are doing good. Bob seems to be getting stronger every day. That is so good to hear. I know that you watch over them just as much as you do Mom. I am so thankful for this. The rest of the family is doing well. I will touch base with them in a day or two so I will have more updates for you as we get into the middle of the week. 
 Megan posted some pics of her & her little boy today on facebook. He sure is a cutie pie. Megan looks great. Looks like Mommy hood is just for her. It is nice to see them. Sometimes I just miss the good ole days, ya know? Mom also knows that you are with her when times are tough & nothing seems to be going right. You loved & still do love her. I know she has told me that you will always be her brother & I can guarantee that you feel the same way. It is something special that is for sure. So many memories so many years past. 
 Well, I have a couple daily prayers to catch up on so here they are. October 31~ He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. Spreading your great branches, over all who comes, Sheltering humble hearts from judgement's burning sun. Here your shade of mercy stirs breezes deep within. In heaven's center planted, we find you once again. Amen.
 November 1~ For our conversation is in heaven; from whence also we look for the Saviour, the Lord Jesus Christ. When we grieve for lost loved ones, we grieve for ourselves. God, let me celebrate those who have gone home to Heaven, those who now know the full essence of your true love. Amen.
 November 2~ In that he saith, A new covenant, he hath made the first old. Now that which decayeth & waxeth old is ready to vanish away. Lord, the familiar is disappearing from neighborhood & nature, & we grieve the loss. Yet, we're resurrection people, unafraid of endings because of the promise of beginnings. On the other hand, we must learn restraint: Help us, God, to temper our actions with wisdom. Amen.
 All caught up once again. Mom needs to get back to doing her studying. Looks like it is going to be a pretty long night ahead of me. I need to get these 2 lessons that are kicking my butt in so that I can finish this course & work on my final exam. Wish me luck from your side... I really need it. 
 Mom hopes that your evening is all that you need & want it to be. May it be peaceful & relaxing if that is what you want or may it be filled with things that you want to do or places you need to be. Either way, have the sweetest of dreams & hope Mom gets to see you in my dreams tonight when I lay my head down to fall asleep. I miss you so much my sweet son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!