Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? Mom is sorry that I didn't get a chance to write to you last night. I whispered to you & explained why so I know you heard me. I know you understand it all & I thank you for it. I know you don't get upset or mad at Mom when I don't write to you each night, but boy Mom sure does feel guilty. I know that everyone would say that was silly but I just feel so close to you & connected when I am writing to you, especially when I am writing & I can look up at your picture at my desk. Oh how I miss you so. Looking at your picture makes Mom smile, cry & at times when I am listening to music I sing to you. I hope you hear Mom.
 Today, was a down day for me. Yesterday I studied all day & made so more progress so that is good. Tomorrow I will start early & hit the books & hard. These last 2 lessons are still kicking my butt & they are crucial for me to know. I have faith but dang sometimes I am seconding guessing it all. Help Mom if you can.. I need it & I need you all the time. Thanks pumpkin.
 Didn't talk to anyone yesterday or last night so I really have no updates for you. Might touch base with everyone tomorrow for some quick chats. Mark & Mom are headed up to NH for the weekend. Going to try & put your Jack bust in the ground for you if the city lets us. Might have to wait until the spring. That is ok..it will be safe here with Mom until then. Mom plans on seeing Meme, Bob, Grandpa, Debbie, Great Grammy, & a few friends. It will be nice as I haven't seen most of them in a couple months. Please be with us as we travel up there & back. Mom is going to drive again... this time not going to get pulled over by a state trooper...lol! 
 Before I continue, here are the daily prayers I missed & need to get caught up on. November 3~ The word which God sent unto the children of Israel, preaching peace by Jesus Christ: ( he is Lord of all ) Love is an active force. When we " walk our talk " & live God's message of love, we create an America full of faith. When we do that, we are God's voice, his hands, his light for each other. We are living love. Amen.
 November 4~ Lord, it is sometimes hard to love those around me when they are so different in their beliefs & behaviors. I find myself sometimes feeling intolerant, even afraid. But you gave me the commandment to love others as myself & that if I love you, then I love all of your creation. Help me to open my heart & my mind to those I see as being different, & to find them the common light of your presence. Help me to be a better person & not fear others just because they are not like me. Help me to see the wonder & magic in learning about others & letting them learn about me. Amen.
 All caught up yet again. One of these days I will get back on track with doing these prayers on the exact day. Mom was doing good for a bit & then slipped back again. I guess the best time is morning for me. That is what I will have to start doing again. 
 The night sky is fully upon us now. The stars & moon were out last night so I am hoping that they will be again tonight. Doesn't matter though as I will be whispering to you again, just as Mom always does. Hope that your night will be all that you need & want. May you get the chance to close your beautiful eyes & get some rest. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Mom is hoping to see you in my own dreams tonight. 
 You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I miss you like crazy.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!