Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing tonight on this Thursday evening? Mom is doing ok. The weather is crappy again. It will be until Friday night. Cold, dark, gloomy & lots of rain...ugh! Mom doesn't mind the cold weather but at least it can be sunny. These kind of days make it tough for Mom. I just get into a mood & funk & can't get out of it. Anyways.... Mom's day was busy with studying again. I actually submitted my test today & got a better grade then what I though I would. I got an 80%. I am happy with that grade. Now Mom is working on her final exam. I am almost done but want the time to go over it again before submitting it. That will happen tomorrow & then I will be done with the course. I will then begin to study for my certification test & then after that it is looking for a job. I know you will be with me every step of the way so I am not scared. I am excited for this next journey for myself. It will be different but I think the change will be good for me. 
 No updates for you this evening, I am sorry to write that but Mom did not talk to anyone today. Maybe I will have some for you tomorrow or over the weekend. I can't believe that a week from today is Thanksgiving. Time is going by so fast now. Christmas will be in coming in another 5 weeks & then another New Year will be happening. Wish that you were still here so we could have the holidays & every day together. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. You are always on my mind & in my heart. I talk to you, cry because you are not here anymore, I sing to your picture daily. Do you see Mom doing these things? I hope so. I try not to be upset or sad too often because I know you don't want to see that but there are just those days that I can't help it. I know you understand so there is no need to explain. Please forgive me though.
 Here are the 2 daily prayers that I need to write to you. November 18~ And now the Lord shew kindness & truth unto you: and I also will requite you this kindness, because ye have done this thing. It's hard to be pleasant these rude, road-raging days. Every one's too immersed in their own concerns to be mannerly or kind. Encourage me to get in the first words of " please, " " thanks, " & " excuse me " ; nudge me to be the first to take turns on the road, in the store, at work. Maybe good manners will be as catching as rude ones; may I, with your guidance, be the first to pass them on. Amen. 
 November 19~ And to love him with all the heart, & with all that the understanding, & with all the soul, & with all the strength & to love his neighbor as himself, is more than all whole burnt offerings & sacrifices. Bless my neighbor today. But keep me from telling him that I've got his good in mind. Only let him discover in my smile, in my encouraging words, & in my helping hand. 
 Ok... Mom is caught up again. The evening sky is here & been here for a few hours now. Nothing will be shining in the sky tonight or probably tomorrow night either as it is raining. Doesn't matter though.. Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Hope that you have a restful & peaceful evening. May you do all that you need & want to. Get some sleep though... sweet dreams pumpkin. Hope I see you in my dreams tonight too. I miss you like crazy. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah! 

P.S. Great Grammy is doing better today. Not out of the woods yet but better than a couple days ago so I will take it. Thanks for watching over her & the rest of us.