Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? The weather outside was so cold & crappy today. Mark called Mom this morning to tell me that we had our 1st snow. That did not make me smile or laugh. That stinks as I know it is coming & there is nothing we can do about it at all. I hope you were someplace soaking up the sun & having it shine down on your face as I know you just love. I can see you in my mind now. That image makes Mom smile so much. I miss you terribly, Tyler. I can tell that it is the Holiday season as I am crying more & more lately. Mom is more emotional & tends to be more sensitive at what people say or do. I either cry or snap when I don't mean to....the emotional roller coaster sucks. 
 Today was a pretty much easy kind of day for Mom. I stayed in bed later than normal, chatted with a couple friends, took the pups out for a walk this afternoon thinking it would be warmer, but I was wrong....lol, came back inside & played on the computer & chatted with Auntie Kristina. Now it is time to make dinner & relax for a bit before I go to bed. Mark is not feeling well so I need to take care of him too. If you can watch over him for Mom that would be great. Thank you so much my sweet precious son.
 No updates for you today but maybe tomorrow I will have some for you. Here is the daily prayer for today. November 30~ For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee. In silence I kneel in your presence---I bow my heart to your wisdom; I lift my hands for your mercy; I open my soul to the great gift. I am already held in your arms. Amen.
 Mom is finally, once again all caught up & I am able to do the daily prayer on the days it should be written on. Sometimes life gets in the way & times flies by & before I know it, it is night time & I am so tired. I try my very best to write to you each night but sometimes it is hard to do. I feel so guilty when I don't. It hurts Mom. I know I should not feel this way but I do. I know that you don't get mad at Mom because you see everything that I am going through. I know you get mad at Mom for feeling guilty but as you know me you know that I can't stop that way of thinking. maybe in time but not any time soon. 
 The night sky is upon us & it is so cold. My hands are freezing while typing this to you...lol. You remember those nights now don't you? They were our least favorites...ugh! You & I were always the ones who loved the warm sunshine. The hotter the better. i am hoping that we will see the stars & the moon shining bright tonight but not sure. The sky was pretty cloudy all day. Doesn't matter though as Mom will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you can hear my every word. 
 I hope that your night is all that you want & need it to be for yourself & others. I hope you get a chance to just relax & get some sleep. May you have the sweetest of dreams & Mom is hoping that I will see you in my dreams tonight as well. I miss you like crazy & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Never forget this. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!