Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet precious son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? Mom has been studying for most of the day & I didn't even realize that it was 5 pm. I am way behind on the things I need to get done for the night. I apologize ahead of time as this will be a short letter tonight. 
 As you can see... Mom has had a pretty emotional day today. I don't need to go into details about any of it because you already know & see it all. Mom is just really sad & I honestly don't know what to do at this point. I feel like I am not wanted & that I am a nobody. I am somebody & I deserve to be treated like I matter. My heart hurts every day for not having you here with me & now my heart hurts even more to feel the way I do. I dislike feeling this way, I really do but I am so lost right now. I am lost for words, I don't dare say a thing to anyone, I am lonely, I guess I am just a wreck. My emotions are all over the place. I am sorry that you have to witness it all. You don't need to see any of it. Just know that Mom will be ok one day. I know it will take time & patience but I will get there at some point. Anything you can do to help Mom out would be great. I wish you were here. I could really use a " Tyler " hug & talk. I miss you so much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Never forget that my sweet precious son. Always feel that in your soul.
 Mom is hoping to feel better as well. I am very tired as I am not sleeping & my head is hurting a lot lately again. I know we are suppose to get bad weather in the next couple days. Not sure if that is a part of it or not. If Aunt Beck is reading this I sure could use some " extra " work being done on me especially my head, neck, throat area. Thank you so much ahead of time. Mom needs to call Aunt Beck & soon. I owe her a call. I was suppose to touch base with her on Monday but because of Mark 's cut over that he did it has messed me up too. I will try to give her a call tomorrow for sure. I spoke to Grandpa last night. He called really quick. Everyone is doing well....just crazy busy. Meme is doing good too. I will touch base with her in the next day or so as well. Hopefully I will have some better updates for you & soon.
 Here is your daily prayer for the day: March 8~ Be glad in the Lord & rejoice, O righteous & shout for joy, all you upright in heart. I know it's true that different people worship in different ways, my Lord. What you look for in our worship---however it is expressed----is that we worship in " spirit & in truth. " It's wonderful though to read this invitation in the psalms to express our joy in you with literal shouts of rejoicing. I pray that you will make my joy in you overflow today in such a way that I might be inclined to shout my praise to you even now. Movies often portray those who are devout as sour, dour, killjoy types, but in " real life, " most of the genuinely joyful people we've met have been those who know a life of humble devotion to God. Amen. 
 Here are a couple quotes that Mom found for you today: " Life is a dance between making it happen & letting it happen. "
 " While I may appear calm.... beneath the surface, I am paddling frantically to stay afloat on this journey of grief without you. " 
 Mom really needs to get going now so that I can feed the pups & start dinner. I will look to the sky later tonight & whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice. Smile when you hear Mom & I will smile back. I hope that you night is everything you need & want it to be & so much more. Come be with me if you can. Mom needs you. Thank you. Please continue to watch over us all like I know you already do. It means so much to Mom. Continue to fly high & free. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul.  
 I will be back tomorrow with another letter. Until then...good night & sweet dreams. My love for you is unconditional.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!