Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Happy St. Patrick's Day to you in the Heavens above. Today has always been a day for mixed emotions for Mom since 1989. On this day back then, March 17, 1989  Pepe ( the one who always called you hi " Little Tyke " ) decides that today was the day that he was going to leave the physical world & gain his Angel Wings. Mom was a Senior in High School & only had 3 months left before I graduated. Meme came to the school that morning & told me that he had passed. I wanted to leave but she told me to stay as there really wasn't anything that I could do. I was heart broken. I was so close to both Pepe & Nana. My world just had turned upside down from losing him to wondering how Nana was going to be from here on out as those 2 were always together. They never left one another's side. As I grew up & got older, I always knew that I was part Irish but never ever wanted to celebrate this holiday because my heart always heart around this time. Now that I am even older, I know that Pepe, Nana & you are all together & that gives Mom so much more comfort in knowing. I don't go out & drink but I don't look at this day as completely sad anymore. I miss Pepe still & I always will but I know he is indeed one of Mom's Guardian Angels. That makes me smile so much. You remind me of him & Grandpa. You have a lot of both their traits. That has always made Mom so proud. Tonight I will light a candle for you, Nana & Pepe. When you see it you will know it is just for you three. I love you my sweet precious son & I hope that you are celebrating this day. Pepe always had green beer today so maybe just maybe you two will have one! I miss you so much. I know you feel it in your soul. Never stop feeling it. Always feel Mom's love for you as it is unconditional. 
 Again....as sad as it is, Mom doesn't have any updates for you at all. The phone was really quiet again last night & no one called at all. Mom was kind of happy though as I was still feeling quite tough. I did go to bed early & watch TV. I think I fell asleep around 10:30 pm or so. I slept ok I guess. I tossed & turned a lot though. Mom is feeling a little better today.... I am hoping the worst is behind me & I will be getting better & better each day now. Thanks for being with me. It means so much to Mom. 
 Guess who Mom was talking to earlier.... Mike Marsh... the one I was with for 3 years way back in the day... Michalea's Dad..... he is doing ok. Seems like he is going through some rough times right now & so is his Dad. He has ALS like Ron did. That is so sad to hear. Jim is a good guy. I always liked him. Mike is still at Rugers, like Meme. He is still engaged & has been for like 9 years now. It was good to chat with him for a few. Always nice to catch up with old friends. Well... that is all I have for right now. Here is your daily prayer for the day: March 17~ As for the holy ones in the land, they are the noble, in whom is all my delight. Lord, be with us this day, Within us to purify us; Above us to draw us up; Beneath us to sustain us; Before us to lead us; Behind us to restrain us; Around us to protect us. Saints are made, not by their own deeds or piety, but by saving grace of God alone. Amen.
 Here is the 5th inner peace card for the day as well: I work on my problems & then I release them.Anything that bothers you is only a problem within. Only you can experience it & only you can correct it. Mom is still learning this & working on this exact thing. It is a daily thing I believe & I will get there...just you wait & see.
 Mom just texted Aunt Beck & they are headed out on there road trip. She said they should be in warm weather by tomorrow. Lucky them! I wished them safe travels & to have lots of fun on their vacation. I am sure you will be looking out for them as well. Thanks Ty! 
 It is that time of the night again where Mom needs to get going to feed the pups & get dinner going for Mark & I. I hope that you have a peaceful night doing all the things you love to do & things you need to do. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. I will look to the sky tonight in hopes of seeing the stars & the moon. ( Thanks for the beautiful sunset last night. ) Mom will whisper to you as I always do & smile...Mom will as well. Look for the candle that is lit, don't forget. I miss you & love you unconditionally. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. I will be back tomorrow night with another letter so until then..... good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!